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You let these girls out here fool y'all

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and just paying for all and everything.

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Man, listen, you gotta, you gotta

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treat women like an investment.

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I mean, a murderer just murder.

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Somebody ain't lying.

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You ever had a girl try to say like,

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this is the best pussy you ever had?

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Uh, yeah.

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I feel like if I, just, without

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thinking about it, just drop every

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song that I have right now, I know

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for a fact that **** will go viral

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because that song is right.

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My face.

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Oh, that so that I was crazy right

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now I couldn't even be appointed

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to, there's some **** like that.

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See, see, see, man, that's why we, that's

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why we keep 'em my focals Change it out.

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Exactly.

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You ain't never thought about

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getting the ones that change, bro.

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You know what?

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They're expensive.

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Let's be real.

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They are expensive.

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I'm not gonna lie.

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They are.

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But at the same time, I just

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never wanted the ones like the

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sunglasses that Like interchangeable.

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Yeah, that interchangeable.

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You know what I'm saying?

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Like, I'm gonna be real, like I grew up

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on a more like trying to be thuggish wave.

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So like, okay.

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I was so worried.

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Well, I wanna say worried, but

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I was conscious of thinking

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like what a dude's like.

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Judge me because I'm wearing glasses.

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And honestly, I feel you on that.

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I feel like I gotta be more bolted

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up or toughed up because somebody

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gotta try me because I'm wearing

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glasses and **** like that.

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And you know, honestly I had to get over

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that **** 'cause I'm like, look, I'm

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not gonna be ******* blind for nobody.

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Exactly.

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And see that's the thing bro.

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Like you shouldn't have

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to, uh, compromise are yes.

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You shouldn't have to

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change who you are, man.

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For sure.

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Don't compromise, especially

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your health over anybody, bro.

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Like over trying to fit in or

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anything along those lines.

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And if y'all listening right now,

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that statement speaks true because I

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swear to God, man, there are too many

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people who are compromising who they

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are as a person and losing themselves.

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For sure.

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You feel me?

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Future said, don't get

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lost in the sauce, bro.

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That's a fact.

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That's a fact.

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And too many motherfuckers

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get lost in that ****.

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Exactly, man.

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And you end up in a, in a place

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where you wasn't expecting just

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because you were trying to follow

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a path that was somebody else.

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Making it for you.

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Not meant for you.

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Yeah.

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Facts.

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Exactly.

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Exactly.

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Somebody else was trying

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to make that **** for you.

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It wasn't meant for you.

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There's so many people

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I know like that man.

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That's why like, bro, I'm a real

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big advocate for anti-bullying, bro.

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Like, I got this **** tatted on my neck.

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Like, really?

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That **** means everything to me.

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Like, okay.

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And you know, I remember when I got

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this tattoo, I showed my mom and ****

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and she was like, and this is crazy.

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This is what I'm about to take is crazy.

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Okay.

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Um, I showed my mom this tattoo

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and I was like, you know,

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this tattoo means a lot to me.

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Yeah.

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And she kind of looked at me confused.

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Like, I mean, I mean, I understand

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the message, but I, I just don't

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feel like you were bullied enough.

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To feel like you, it was

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a big part of your life.

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Wow.

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And I looked at my mom, you know,

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kind of crazy because it, it, but

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it let me know that, like how much

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I didn't let her know as a kid.

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Like, I didn't let her know all the

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time the dude was picking on me.

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I just used to come

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home sad and just Yeah.

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Upset.

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You know what I'm saying?

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I just held all that in as a kid.

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Mm-hmm.

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And, you know, and I can't blame

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my mom for not knowing, because I

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didn't tell her, I didn't talk to

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her about, like, I, I kept a lot of

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stuff in as a kid, like growing up.

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Mm-hmm.

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Just dealing with different

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traumatic events and **** like that.

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I didn't know how to deal with it.

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I didn't even know how

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to, Taking it, ingest it.

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Mm-hmm.

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So how would I know how to put it

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out and explain what I was going

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through, you know what I'm saying?

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Mm-hmm.

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So for me, when she said that,

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like, it let me know that she really

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didn't know what type of trauma

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I really went through as a kid.

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Yeah.

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But a lot of parents don't.

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Facts.

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That's why there's such a gap between kids

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of our generation and our parents because

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we're, they're, they're thinking that we

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are complaining or this, this and that,

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or they just really don't, they think that

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we're just trying to have just be us or

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just be free or whatever the case may be.

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But we're really hurting,

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like, you know what I'm saying?

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Yeah.

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A lot of kids from my generation are

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hurting and still trying to figure

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out things that was going wrong.

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Yeah.

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Growing up.

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And they still, like, I know people

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that, to this day, 23, 24 years old,

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bro, still trying to figure out what,

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like still dealing with problems they

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was dealing with as a kid, still feeling

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with dealing with abandonment issues.

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You know what I'm facts.

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Like still feeling with, like,

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dealing with like problems.

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Like, like just not feeling

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like they're enough for anybody.

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Mm-hmm.

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Because a parent or somebody

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made them feel like that.

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Yeah.

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And that's crazy to me.

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Or didn't give him enough love

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facts, you know what I'm saying?

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And, um, You know, when my mom

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explained that to me, I, I had

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to explain to her, I'm like, you

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know, mom, it just lets me know.

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Like, I, I apologize 'cause I

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didn't really let you know how

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much I was going through as a kid.

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Yeah.

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And I'm just glad that

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I'm here today Yeah.

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To speak on it because like, I'm such

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a big advocate for anti-bullying, bro.

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Like, I purposely dressed down.

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Mm.

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Okay.

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I really like, I used to dress,

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I used to try to dress like real

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street and **** like that, you

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know, and I don't just stop.

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What is real street?

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Let's, let's, let's go

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on that real street.

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All right, let's get into it.

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Alright.

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Real street meaning like, you know,

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just really trying to dress like real, I

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don't wanna say gangster, but you know,

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athletic wear with the skinny jeans.

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Like, you know, Jordans with the

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skinny jeans and the um, just,

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you know, some type of athletic

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hoodie or something like that.

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Just trying to be like on a more

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thuggish, it's like a thugg,

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like a rugged like type of swag.

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And I don't know why felt

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rugged swag when I was a kid.

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Rugged.

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We gonna name that rugged swag and

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I don't like, like that swag for,

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'cause you know why I feel like that's

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such a generic, it's, it's an easy

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way to consider yourself to be fly.

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Wearing what's, what's, what's, uh,

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socially accepted or what's trending.

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Mm-hmm.

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You're just trying to fit the trend.

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You're not going outside

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of what you can do.

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Mm-hmm.

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You're just fitting in the trend.

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You're only going to the trend.

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Mm-hmm.

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You're trying to just fit in.

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You're not trying to stick out,

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do something crazy like mm-hmm.

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*******, um, what's his name?

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Uh, ******* what's that

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motherfucking name?

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Hardy.

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Hardy.

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Hardy.

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Hardy.

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He's a ******* basketball player.

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I have no idea who basketball people are.

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****.

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Me neither.

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I swear I ain't gonna lie to you.

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I don't, I did not watch sports at all.

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I swear to God.

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But nah, just like, you know, just

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extending your boundaries as far

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as your fat, like just who you are.

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Like extent, like stepping outside of

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the box of what is considered to be Okay.

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Fashionably.

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Yeah.

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Like now me, I, I'm not gonna lie to

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you, I don't like certain things that in

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fashion, 'cause that **** look retarded.

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Like that **** look crazy to me.

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Crazy.

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Okay.

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I don't understand like, The, the,

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the, the, the, the Astro boot.

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**** like that.

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The Big Red Bull ****.

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Oh yeah.

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Those are trending though, man.

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I don't get it.

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I don't get it either.

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All I don get, they're really at all big.

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They're, they seem really bulky.

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It's real, it's a real big leap out there.

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Yeah.

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To really try to get those to

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like, but they're trying for real.

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I think they're gonna succeed.

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They're gonna have to pay

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me to put them ******* on.

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I'm gonna be real.

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But that's what they're

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doing for the celebrities.

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They're paying them to put 'em out.

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I I, they pay me.

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I ain't gonna lie.

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I'm, I'm gonna put 'em on.

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Okay.

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Okay.

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Okay.

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But they gonna have to pay me

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decent and I'm gonna let it be

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known that I was paid to do it.

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So can I ask you this?

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Yeah.

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What's up?

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What type of music do you like?

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Do I like, uh, so I make

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music too, so like Yeah.

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Feas are coming, feast are coming.

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I don't know.

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I don't know.

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Might have to side man.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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But, um, so I like a blend

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of stuff, so I love jazz.

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Um, I kind of weirdly like classical

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music, um, just like to relax and stuff.

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I'll just put on some classical stuff.

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That's what's up though.

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Yeah.

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You know, they say that's the type of

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music that you should listen to when

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you're trying to escape the, I don't

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wanna interrupt what you're saying.

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Go ahead.

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But I was looking at this

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interview with this rapper.

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I wanna say it was St.

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John.

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Okay.

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I want to say it was St.

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John that was talking about how

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he, uh, stopped listening to

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worldly music for a long time.

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Like, he stopped, he went on a, a 10 day

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retreat, a 10 day like silent retreat.

329
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Mm.

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And he stopped listening to like, all

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other people's music in the world.

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And like, he actually did

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start listening back to music.

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He started listening to

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classic music, slowly putting

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himself back into the genre.

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'cause he was like reinventing how

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he was listening to music because

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like, alright, think about this.

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A guy that grew up in the projects all

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his life, Listen to Kodak Black, like,

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you know, Lil Baby and **** like that.

343
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He's only gonna grow up

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rapping a certain way.

345
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That is true.

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Like no matter, unless he was

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exposed to something different.

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Mm-hmm.

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Or unless he has that in him to

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want to go out and look at something

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different and not a lot of people do.

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Mm-hmm.

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He's gonna go with what's

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right in front of him.

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Yeah.

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And so that's what I'm saying.

357
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That's exactly the same situation.

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Okay.

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And so I just feel like a lot of people, I

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don't know man, people would be so afraid

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to just do something different, man.

362
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That is true.

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That they'll spend their whole life and

364
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then when it's too late, that's when

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they'll try to do something different

366
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and then nobody wants to hear it then.

367
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And it's the saddest **** in the world.

368
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That's why I tell everybody to follow

369
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their dreams and give, like, don't

370
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give a **** now, give a **** later.

371
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Exactly.

372
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Don't give a **** now.

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Give a **** later.

374
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And I'm not saying like, just

375
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throw your life to ******* win.

376
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Yeah.

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But I'm saying like, don't stop.

378
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Like right now is the point

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where I really don't give a ****

380
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about what nobody has to think.

381
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'cause I'm still like, nobody

382
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ain't, ain't nobody my age really.

383
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Even if they a millionaire still

384
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in my mind like they not happy.

385
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Mm.

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They, they ain't shown me

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that they was happy yet.

388
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Like, mm, ain't no, nobody don't

389
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think the cars and the money and

390
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No, you don't think that's it.

391
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I know **** well that ****

392
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don't make nobody happy.

393
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And you know why?

394
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And they over here post it with

395
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a big *** smile on they face.

396
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It's, but no, it's a fact.

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It's a fact that it

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don't make nobody happy.

399
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You know why?

400
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Okay, go ahead.

401
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You see it every time You see

402
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it, every time it come out.

403
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Why K Cyrus?

404
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Mm.

405
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Who else?

406
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It's a lot of rappers.

407
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Yeah.

408
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Famous Dex, uh, set up, famous Dex.

409
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It's a whole lot of, but shout

410
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out him I'm saying like that.

411
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It's really ****** up, but you know what?

412
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He's getting better and I **** with that.

413
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Yeah.

414
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But I'm saying, but it's a lot

415
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of people that don't understand

416
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that people really be hurting.

417
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They, all the people want to care about.

418
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It's the music.

419
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Like nobody cares about's

420
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how nobody's doing.

421
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They just want hear the next song, bro.

422
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I mean, but I ain't

423
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gonna lie to you though.

424
00:09:06,465 --> 00:09:08,775
First of all, Marshall Mathis, lp,

425
00:09:08,835 --> 00:09:11,265
shout out Eminem, Marshall Mathis LP is

426
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still his top selling album right now.

427
00:09:12,824 --> 00:09:13,365
I'm not gonna lie, that nigga

428
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goes on pills and all types of

429
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**** and I ain't gonna lie to you.

430
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That **** is hard as ****.

431
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Like he was high as a motherfucker.

432
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I know he is sober and I am, I am all for

433
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Eminem being sober and everything along

434
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those lines, you know what I'm saying?

435
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We love to see it.

436
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But that was somebody, but the

437
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music don't hit the same bro.

438
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I'm sorry.

439
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It don't hit the same.

440
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It don't hit the same.

441
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So, alright.

442
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If you consider yourself to be a genre,

443
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okay, artist, what type of artist

444
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would you consider yourself to be?

445
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Ooh, it's a little bit hard.

446
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You know what?

447
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I would consider myself

448
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like a Bryson Tiller.

449
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I can dig it.

450
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I can dig it.

451
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Not in the sense I'm gonna

452
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sense of like, it's only r and

453
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b, but I just love singing.

454
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Yeah.

455
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And so I'll rap too.

456
00:09:53,234 --> 00:09:55,004
I love to mess with different production

457
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styles, so I can't even, I can't even put

458
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myself in a box with a production style.

459
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I could see more like Travis, you feel me?

460
00:10:01,334 --> 00:10:04,425
But when it comes to artistry,

461
00:10:05,444 --> 00:10:06,494
it's, it's like a blend.

462
00:10:06,494 --> 00:10:07,754
And I see how Bryson Taylor in

463
00:10:07,754 --> 00:10:09,524
his first album, he blended that.

464
00:10:09,524 --> 00:10:10,214
I don't like how that nigga

465
00:10:10,219 --> 00:10:11,055
don't make music no more.

466
00:10:11,114 --> 00:10:12,404
That's one thing I really

467
00:10:12,404 --> 00:10:13,305
am upset with him about.

468
00:10:13,334 --> 00:10:15,464
I mean, but his albums later on didn't

469
00:10:15,464 --> 00:10:18,074
really hit like that trap soul was crazy.

470
00:10:18,134 --> 00:10:18,435
Yeah.

471
00:10:18,524 --> 00:10:20,474
After that it didn't really hit like that.

472
00:10:20,474 --> 00:10:21,254
But I mean, I don't

473
00:10:21,254 --> 00:10:22,244
think he was trying, bro.

474
00:10:23,175 --> 00:10:24,644
So I mean, if you're not tryings be real.

475
00:10:24,644 --> 00:10:26,204
If you're not trying, then artist's

476
00:10:26,209 --> 00:10:27,374
going on with him as an artist.

477
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That's why I'm saying like, you

478
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know, certain artists, I really

479
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do feel like go through something.

480
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Like for sure everybody goes

481
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through something like I'm

482
00:10:32,114 --> 00:10:33,614
saying, but like detrimental, like

483
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they go like, But nobody knows.

484
00:10:35,745 --> 00:10:36,975
And then everybody's just wondering

485
00:10:36,975 --> 00:10:38,295
about the music and nobody's thinking

486
00:10:38,295 --> 00:10:40,215
like, this dude might be going through

487
00:10:40,215 --> 00:10:42,135
something that he can't talk to us about.

488
00:10:42,194 --> 00:10:42,645
You know what I'm saying?

489
00:10:42,705 --> 00:10:43,095
For sure.

490
00:10:43,125 --> 00:10:44,145
Nobody thinks about that.

491
00:10:44,175 --> 00:10:45,555
Well, I mean, it's just hard to think

492
00:10:45,555 --> 00:10:46,785
about that, especially when you're a fan.

493
00:10:47,025 --> 00:10:47,115
Yeah.

494
00:10:47,115 --> 00:10:48,105
And you're just looking up to this

495
00:10:48,105 --> 00:10:49,694
person that's **** near godly to you.

496
00:10:49,694 --> 00:10:50,745
And that's another thing with

497
00:10:50,985 --> 00:10:51,595
people, I think it's a problem.

498
00:10:52,035 --> 00:10:53,564
Like, stop looking to these

499
00:10:53,595 --> 00:10:56,265
people to be God to you or just

500
00:10:56,295 --> 00:10:57,795
to be any type of idol bro.

501
00:10:57,800 --> 00:10:58,035
Mm-hmm.

502
00:10:58,515 --> 00:11:00,285
Like, I'm gonna be real, I'm not even a

503
00:11:00,285 --> 00:11:02,295
religious dude having false idols, bro.

504
00:11:02,355 --> 00:11:03,345
Like that is a real thing.

505
00:11:03,375 --> 00:11:04,035
Like Yeah.

506
00:11:04,035 --> 00:11:05,205
And I'm not saying that any,

507
00:11:05,205 --> 00:11:06,495
just anybody's a false idol.

508
00:11:06,525 --> 00:11:07,185
'cause there's a lot of people

509
00:11:07,185 --> 00:11:08,865
that actually have good messages

510
00:11:08,865 --> 00:11:10,005
to put out there in the world, bro.

511
00:11:10,005 --> 00:11:10,245
Mm-hmm.

512
00:11:10,251 --> 00:11:14,324
But at the same time, I feel like, I

513
00:11:14,324 --> 00:11:15,824
just feel like a lot of artists are just

514
00:11:15,824 --> 00:11:17,564
scared to put that real message out there.

515
00:11:17,564 --> 00:11:18,194
It's not a lot of people

516
00:11:18,194 --> 00:11:19,814
that's really trying to Yeah.

517
00:11:19,814 --> 00:11:20,745
It's not a lot of artists that's

518
00:11:20,745 --> 00:11:21,975
really trying to make you sit

519
00:11:21,975 --> 00:11:23,505
down and actually face that you

520
00:11:23,505 --> 00:11:24,645
actually going face your problems.

521
00:11:24,735 --> 00:11:24,975
Yeah.

522
00:11:25,035 --> 00:11:27,295
And then like, Is that what trying to do?

523
00:11:27,295 --> 00:11:28,724
People are me as an artist.

524
00:11:28,724 --> 00:11:28,935
Yeah.

525
00:11:29,114 --> 00:11:30,074
I'm not even gonna say that.

526
00:11:30,104 --> 00:11:31,094
'cause I'm not trying to make it seem like

527
00:11:31,094 --> 00:11:32,444
I'm trying to be a superhero or anything.

528
00:11:32,535 --> 00:11:32,834
Got you.

529
00:11:32,895 --> 00:11:34,064
I'm really just trying

530
00:11:34,064 --> 00:11:36,104
to explain my story.

531
00:11:36,104 --> 00:11:37,244
My, I don't want people to

532
00:11:37,244 --> 00:11:38,535
just try to relate to me.

533
00:11:39,045 --> 00:11:39,974
'cause I don't unders, I don't

534
00:11:39,974 --> 00:11:41,444
think all the time that relating

535
00:11:41,449 --> 00:11:43,035
to somebody makes somebody feel

536
00:11:43,275 --> 00:11:45,255
like connected to somebody else.

537
00:11:45,704 --> 00:11:45,734
Okay.

538
00:11:45,944 --> 00:11:47,324
Sometimes you can relate, try to

539
00:11:47,324 --> 00:11:48,165
relate to somebody and they'll

540
00:11:48,165 --> 00:11:49,214
think that you're trying to compare.

541
00:11:49,905 --> 00:11:50,354
Okay.

542
00:11:50,354 --> 00:11:50,625
You get what I'm saying?

543
00:11:50,714 --> 00:11:51,165
I can see that.

544
00:11:51,170 --> 00:11:51,255
Yeah.

545
00:11:51,255 --> 00:11:51,915
Like you could be trying to

546
00:11:51,915 --> 00:11:53,805
relate to somebody that's going

547
00:11:53,805 --> 00:11:55,334
through something and they're

548
00:11:55,334 --> 00:11:56,625
like, well, what does that matter?

549
00:11:56,625 --> 00:11:57,464
Like I'm hurting right now.

550
00:11:57,469 --> 00:11:57,574
Yeah.

551
00:11:57,574 --> 00:11:58,694
Why are you telling me about

552
00:11:58,755 --> 00:11:59,745
the time that you was hurting?

553
00:11:59,745 --> 00:12:00,645
I'm hurting right now.

554
00:12:01,094 --> 00:12:01,604
You know what I'm saying?

555
00:12:01,604 --> 00:12:01,694
Mm-hmm.

556
00:12:02,204 --> 00:12:04,364
There's sympathy and empathy, but

557
00:12:04,574 --> 00:12:05,954
when somebody's hurting, hurt people.

558
00:12:05,959 --> 00:12:06,285
Hurt people's.

559
00:12:06,704 --> 00:12:07,515
So when somebody's hurting.

560
00:12:07,515 --> 00:12:09,194
So it's real hard to understand

561
00:12:09,194 --> 00:12:10,185
the difference between that,

562
00:12:10,185 --> 00:12:10,874
you know what I'm saying?

563
00:12:10,874 --> 00:12:10,876
Mm-hmm.

564
00:12:10,935 --> 00:12:12,734
When you're hurting, bro, it's real

565
00:12:12,734 --> 00:12:14,564
hard to see who's there for you or, or

566
00:12:14,564 --> 00:12:17,025
who's really good for you and who isn't.

567
00:12:17,055 --> 00:12:18,104
'cause you're just everybody.

568
00:12:18,104 --> 00:12:19,974
The lines are blurred for, for like the

569
00:12:20,295 --> 00:12:22,604
lines blurred and emotions are everywhere.

570
00:12:22,604 --> 00:12:23,415
That's why as a.

571
00:12:24,209 --> 00:12:26,130
As a man, like it's a real big thing

572
00:12:26,130 --> 00:12:27,750
to be in control of your emotions.

573
00:12:27,750 --> 00:12:29,969
Like, not, not necessarily, you

574
00:12:29,969 --> 00:12:31,560
know, people be thinking when dudes

575
00:12:31,560 --> 00:12:32,520
say that, that you're supposed

576
00:12:32,520 --> 00:12:33,569
to cut off your emotions or

577
00:12:33,569 --> 00:12:34,771
whatever, some ******** like that.

578
00:12:34,776 --> 00:12:35,579
But there's a balance.

579
00:12:35,640 --> 00:12:36,480
There's a balance.

580
00:12:36,870 --> 00:12:38,370
I don't understand when dudes be trying

581
00:12:38,370 --> 00:12:39,870
to be all hard and all that extra ****.

582
00:12:39,870 --> 00:12:41,610
Like, I, I know who I am, bro.

583
00:12:41,819 --> 00:12:43,530
Yeah, I know what, where certain

584
00:12:43,535 --> 00:12:44,969
places I can show my emotions

585
00:12:44,969 --> 00:12:47,189
and, and where to be patient.

586
00:12:47,339 --> 00:12:49,410
And patience is something that

587
00:12:49,410 --> 00:12:50,849
people don't understand as a man.

588
00:12:50,855 --> 00:12:52,170
That's something you should really have.

589
00:12:52,709 --> 00:12:54,180
But see, look, whenever we talk

590
00:12:54,185 --> 00:12:55,380
about something along those lines

591
00:12:55,380 --> 00:12:57,900
of like, men should be able to

592
00:12:57,905 --> 00:12:59,640
control your emotions, right?

593
00:12:59,969 --> 00:13:01,860
Whenever you hear something or you learn

594
00:13:01,860 --> 00:13:03,240
something for the, for the first time,

595
00:13:03,660 --> 00:13:05,969
you usually take it to the extreme, right?

596
00:13:06,030 --> 00:13:06,719
Definitely.

597
00:13:06,900 --> 00:13:09,240
Mental maturity means under being able

598
00:13:09,240 --> 00:13:11,760
to like the word, assess something

599
00:13:11,939 --> 00:13:13,860
without reacting to it first.

600
00:13:13,979 --> 00:13:14,280
For sure.

601
00:13:14,280 --> 00:13:15,420
Like instead of reacting,

602
00:13:15,839 --> 00:13:17,219
acting a response.

603
00:13:17,625 --> 00:13:18,944
Is a solution.

604
00:13:19,515 --> 00:13:20,175
You get what I'm saying?

605
00:13:20,295 --> 00:13:20,385
Mm-hmm.

606
00:13:20,415 --> 00:13:21,495
Like trying to figure out the

607
00:13:21,495 --> 00:13:23,084
problem instead of adding onto it.

608
00:13:23,145 --> 00:13:23,625
You know what I'm saying?

609
00:13:23,630 --> 00:13:23,655
Mm-hmm.

610
00:13:23,735 --> 00:13:23,974
That's a lot.

611
00:13:24,175 --> 00:13:25,185
A lot of people can't do that.

612
00:13:25,515 --> 00:13:26,115
It's not a lot of people

613
00:13:26,115 --> 00:13:26,925
that have that skill.

614
00:13:26,925 --> 00:13:27,584
It's a skill.

615
00:13:27,589 --> 00:13:27,814
Mm-hmm.

616
00:13:27,900 --> 00:13:29,115
It's a skillset to not just

617
00:13:29,115 --> 00:13:30,074
look at something and panic.

618
00:13:30,135 --> 00:13:30,795
That's true.

619
00:13:30,795 --> 00:13:32,084
Immediately panic, like that's

620
00:13:32,084 --> 00:13:34,155
something that people do Well, that's

621
00:13:34,155 --> 00:13:38,834
because like people are, people are

622
00:13:38,834 --> 00:13:40,724
naturally inclined to do one of these

623
00:13:40,724 --> 00:13:43,395
things where it is, you're either

624
00:13:43,400 --> 00:13:45,015
panicking or you're either fighting.

625
00:13:45,824 --> 00:13:46,114
You know what I'm saying?

626
00:13:46,114 --> 00:13:46,604
Fight or flight.

627
00:13:46,844 --> 00:13:47,415
Fight or flight.

628
00:13:47,594 --> 00:13:50,324
If you as a person is more on the

629
00:13:50,385 --> 00:13:51,944
fight side, you know, you're more

630
00:13:51,944 --> 00:13:53,685
on the analyze, let's, let's make

631
00:13:53,685 --> 00:13:55,155
a solution, et cetera, et cetera.

632
00:13:55,160 --> 00:13:55,425
Right?

633
00:13:55,905 --> 00:13:58,064
Then of course you're going to look at

634
00:13:58,069 --> 00:13:59,805
people who are more on the flight side.

635
00:14:00,074 --> 00:14:01,604
That's a little different because

636
00:14:01,609 --> 00:14:03,525
they're gonna say, well, from my

637
00:14:03,530 --> 00:14:06,344
perspective, this is the easiest

638
00:14:06,344 --> 00:14:09,314
way and the most logical way Yeah.

639
00:14:09,525 --> 00:14:10,395
To handle this.

640
00:14:10,484 --> 00:14:11,925
You know, so why are you fleeing?

641
00:14:12,464 --> 00:14:13,545
But in the same time, like

642
00:14:13,545 --> 00:14:14,625
there's, these people are just

643
00:14:14,625 --> 00:14:16,035
wired differently, you know?

644
00:14:16,425 --> 00:14:18,435
And so I think the balance, and that

645
00:14:18,435 --> 00:14:20,834
goes back to men having their emotions

646
00:14:20,839 --> 00:14:22,635
and, and being able to control that.

647
00:14:22,785 --> 00:14:25,755
It goes back to balance where it's easy

648
00:14:25,755 --> 00:14:28,035
for you to learn something new and just

649
00:14:28,064 --> 00:14:29,415
immediately take it to the extreme.

650
00:14:29,864 --> 00:14:33,375
And so these men, whenever they hear,

651
00:14:33,614 --> 00:14:35,834
Hey, you need to control your emotions,

652
00:14:35,834 --> 00:14:38,415
or even from like a woman saying, Hey,

653
00:14:38,415 --> 00:14:40,275
like, calm down, this is too much for me.

654
00:14:40,305 --> 00:14:40,574
Yeah.

655
00:14:40,574 --> 00:14:41,895
Calm down, et cetera, et cetera.

656
00:14:42,150 --> 00:14:43,170
Like it could be triggered.

657
00:14:43,170 --> 00:14:45,150
It's immediately taken to the extreme.

658
00:14:45,240 --> 00:14:45,540
Yeah.

659
00:14:45,600 --> 00:14:47,490
You know, to where it's now

660
00:14:47,579 --> 00:14:48,630
you're feeling attacked for

661
00:14:48,630 --> 00:14:51,870
being well, reacting naturally.

662
00:14:52,230 --> 00:14:52,560
Yes.

663
00:14:52,560 --> 00:14:54,030
You're feeling attacked for reacting.

664
00:14:54,510 --> 00:14:56,670
And so that is one of the biggest

665
00:14:56,675 --> 00:14:58,860
predicate for a person to shut down in a

666
00:14:58,860 --> 00:15:01,800
relationship or any type of communication.

667
00:15:01,829 --> 00:15:02,850
That's a fact though, you know,

668
00:15:03,150 --> 00:15:05,130
feeling attacked, which is feeling

669
00:15:05,310 --> 00:15:06,420
cornered, feeling cornered.

670
00:15:06,420 --> 00:15:07,920
Which is understandable because whenever

671
00:15:07,925 --> 00:15:08,939
a person is cornered, they're either

672
00:15:08,939 --> 00:15:10,770
gonna last out or they're gonna draw in.

673
00:15:11,100 --> 00:15:13,319
And so obviously the person,

674
00:15:13,709 --> 00:15:15,420
let's say the man doesn't wanna

675
00:15:15,420 --> 00:15:16,980
last out, so he's gonna draw in.

676
00:15:18,689 --> 00:15:19,350
You know, that doesn't make

677
00:15:19,350 --> 00:15:20,579
him necessarily coward, it's

678
00:15:20,579 --> 00:15:21,780
just that's how he was taught

679
00:15:21,780 --> 00:15:23,400
to respond to energy like that.

680
00:15:23,459 --> 00:15:24,150
Exactly.

681
00:15:24,449 --> 00:15:24,930
Exactly.

682
00:15:24,930 --> 00:15:25,140
Sure.

683
00:15:25,439 --> 00:15:26,760
I feel that, you know, because,

684
00:15:26,765 --> 00:15:27,839
but you know, it's so crazy.

685
00:15:28,290 --> 00:15:28,350
Hmm.

686
00:15:28,350 --> 00:15:30,510
Like I was, I, I had that same energy.

687
00:15:30,689 --> 00:15:30,900
Okay.

688
00:15:30,900 --> 00:15:32,819
I don't know what it was that changed.

689
00:15:33,030 --> 00:15:33,120
Mm-hmm.

690
00:15:33,126 --> 00:15:33,959
Well, I know what it was.

691
00:15:34,230 --> 00:15:34,560
Okay.

692
00:15:34,620 --> 00:15:35,310
I'm not gonna bring it

693
00:15:35,310 --> 00:15:36,150
up on this platform.

694
00:15:36,240 --> 00:15:36,449
Okay.

695
00:15:36,449 --> 00:15:36,810
I got you.

696
00:15:36,810 --> 00:15:37,110
I got you got.

697
00:15:37,110 --> 00:15:37,390
Yeah.

698
00:15:37,439 --> 00:15:37,829
Yeah.

699
00:15:37,890 --> 00:15:40,305
But like, When that change came,

700
00:15:40,454 --> 00:15:41,954
like, it's certain things that I,

701
00:15:42,045 --> 00:15:43,515
like, I became my own protector,

702
00:15:43,665 --> 00:15:44,175
you know what I'm saying?

703
00:15:44,180 --> 00:15:44,335
Mm-hmm.

704
00:15:44,420 --> 00:15:48,015
Like I became that big brother for myself

705
00:15:48,015 --> 00:15:51,165
to like ward off all the BSS that was

706
00:15:51,165 --> 00:15:52,665
happening in my life and all the like,

707
00:15:52,665 --> 00:15:55,814
you know, just negativity, all like,

708
00:15:55,814 --> 00:15:58,064
even my depression, like my other, the

709
00:15:58,425 --> 00:15:59,805
not, I don't wanna say my other self,

710
00:15:59,805 --> 00:16:01,095
like my alter ego or something like that,

711
00:16:01,095 --> 00:16:03,765
but it's like my subconscious, like I,

712
00:16:03,765 --> 00:16:05,324
I started really taking up for myself.

713
00:16:05,329 --> 00:16:06,795
Like I stopped, you know, I was getting

714
00:16:06,795 --> 00:16:08,055
bullied in the hood that I was from.

715
00:16:08,055 --> 00:16:09,285
I stopped letting that **** happen.

716
00:16:09,314 --> 00:16:10,785
Like I stopped letting a lot of

717
00:16:10,785 --> 00:16:12,375
**** slide stopped, letting people

718
00:16:12,375 --> 00:16:13,694
talk to me in all types of ways.

719
00:16:13,814 --> 00:16:13,905
Mm-hmm.

720
00:16:13,905 --> 00:16:14,745
Stopped letting people

721
00:16:14,775 --> 00:16:15,705
handle me all types of ways.

722
00:16:15,795 --> 00:16:17,205
I stopped letting people think they

723
00:16:17,205 --> 00:16:18,705
can only hit me up on these type

724
00:16:18,705 --> 00:16:20,115
of terms or only when it benefit

725
00:16:20,115 --> 00:16:20,775
them, you know what I'm saying?

726
00:16:20,775 --> 00:16:21,615
Like, how do you do that

727
00:16:21,615 --> 00:16:22,425
without being violent?

728
00:16:23,295 --> 00:16:23,895
Oh, it was hard.

729
00:16:24,875 --> 00:16:26,205
It was so hard, bro.

730
00:16:26,235 --> 00:16:26,625
You know?

731
00:16:26,895 --> 00:16:28,785
But at the same time, if you gotta

732
00:16:28,785 --> 00:16:30,015
be violent to put your foot down

733
00:16:30,015 --> 00:16:32,834
and be adamant who they, anyway.

734
00:16:33,194 --> 00:16:33,705
Mm.

735
00:16:33,944 --> 00:16:35,385
If I can't tell you, Hey bro, I'm

736
00:16:35,385 --> 00:16:36,584
not ******* with how you treat me.

737
00:16:36,590 --> 00:16:36,855
Mm-hmm.

738
00:16:39,285 --> 00:16:40,665
What was the deal in the first place?

739
00:16:40,665 --> 00:16:41,775
Like, were y'all even

740
00:16:41,775 --> 00:16:43,155
really close to begin with?

741
00:16:43,305 --> 00:16:43,875
Mm-hmm.

742
00:16:43,876 --> 00:16:44,445
And that's what I be feeling like

743
00:16:44,445 --> 00:16:45,765
people don't be thinking about when

744
00:16:45,765 --> 00:16:47,445
you be falling out with somebody, bro.

745
00:16:47,505 --> 00:16:49,095
You need to really hear what they say.

746
00:16:49,455 --> 00:16:50,265
I'm a type person.

747
00:16:50,265 --> 00:16:52,275
When I fall out with someone, I'm never

748
00:16:52,275 --> 00:16:53,655
the one that says, **** you first.

749
00:16:54,495 --> 00:16:55,605
I'm never, I'm not gonna

750
00:16:55,605 --> 00:16:56,445
burn the bridge first.

751
00:16:56,595 --> 00:16:56,715
Mm-hmm.

752
00:16:56,745 --> 00:16:58,245
I am gonna do everything in

753
00:16:58,245 --> 00:16:59,235
my power not to burn that

754
00:16:59,235 --> 00:17:00,465
bridge, but I'm not gonna suck.

755
00:17:00,495 --> 00:17:01,755
I'm not gonna kiss no ***.

756
00:17:01,875 --> 00:17:02,115
Yeah.

757
00:17:02,175 --> 00:17:03,765
I'm not kissing no *** and I'm not

758
00:17:03,765 --> 00:17:05,145
rebuilding nothing that I ain't break.

759
00:17:05,565 --> 00:17:05,925
Okay.

760
00:17:05,930 --> 00:17:06,585
You get what I'm saying?

761
00:17:06,885 --> 00:17:07,245
Why though?

762
00:17:07,245 --> 00:17:08,985
So if something is broken, right?

763
00:17:09,405 --> 00:17:10,725
Let's just say a friendship is broken.

764
00:17:10,725 --> 00:17:11,805
Let's just say there's a reason.

765
00:17:11,925 --> 00:17:13,095
It's a reason for everything, bro.

766
00:17:13,245 --> 00:17:13,545
Okay?

767
00:17:13,695 --> 00:17:14,595
It's a reason for everything.

768
00:17:14,655 --> 00:17:17,385
And I feel like once somebody shows you

769
00:17:17,385 --> 00:17:18,885
that there's some ********, you don't

770
00:17:18,885 --> 00:17:20,895
need to like see no other, like, that's

771
00:17:20,895 --> 00:17:22,155
what sets you up for failure, bro.

772
00:17:22,155 --> 00:17:24,165
Like, you don't need to, I,

773
00:17:24,375 --> 00:17:25,605
I believe in chances, bro.

774
00:17:25,605 --> 00:17:25,755
Certain.

775
00:17:25,755 --> 00:17:27,225
I about say, do you think a person can

776
00:17:27,225 --> 00:17:28,045
learn certain people, certain people?

777
00:17:28,440 --> 00:17:31,230
If you give everybody chances Uhhuh, they

778
00:17:31,320 --> 00:17:32,460
like, they're gonna run with it, bro.

779
00:17:32,460 --> 00:17:33,090
It's easy for sure.

780
00:17:33,540 --> 00:17:35,610
Like a girl lets you cheat

781
00:17:35,610 --> 00:17:36,480
on her multiple times.

782
00:17:36,480 --> 00:17:37,740
You going to like, and then she keep

783
00:17:37,740 --> 00:17:39,690
taking you back and keep having sex

784
00:17:39,690 --> 00:17:40,950
with you and not caring about you.

785
00:17:40,950 --> 00:17:42,090
She, you're gonna be like,

786
00:17:42,630 --> 00:17:43,620
I'm gonna keep cheating.

787
00:17:43,620 --> 00:17:45,510
Like, it's just a natural thing.

788
00:17:45,510 --> 00:17:46,682
Like, I'm not even saying, saying that

789
00:17:46,682 --> 00:17:47,820
you think that a person can learn though.

790
00:17:47,820 --> 00:17:48,990
Like, let's say, let's say you

791
00:17:48,995 --> 00:17:49,720
have a person, oh yeah, you can

792
00:17:49,725 --> 00:17:51,660
learn, but you know, so ****** up.

793
00:17:51,760 --> 00:17:53,880
People don't usually learn until after

794
00:17:53,880 --> 00:17:55,440
they in a really ****** up situation.

795
00:17:55,500 --> 00:17:55,830
Yeah.

796
00:17:55,890 --> 00:17:57,120
Until they get hurt, you know?

797
00:17:57,120 --> 00:17:57,870
It's very bad.

798
00:17:58,050 --> 00:17:58,110
Yeah.

799
00:17:58,110 --> 00:17:59,790
But I'm saying like, that's really high.

800
00:17:59,880 --> 00:18:00,450
People learn.

801
00:18:00,600 --> 00:18:01,680
It's so ****** up like that.

802
00:18:01,890 --> 00:18:02,730
Well, I wouldn't say all

803
00:18:02,730 --> 00:18:03,540
people learn that way.

804
00:18:03,630 --> 00:18:03,810
No.

805
00:18:03,810 --> 00:18:04,590
Just because like, but a

806
00:18:04,595 --> 00:18:05,852
large majority of people.

807
00:18:06,060 --> 00:18:06,140
Majority.

808
00:18:06,330 --> 00:18:06,630
Okay.

809
00:18:06,690 --> 00:18:07,530
I'm talking about even people

810
00:18:07,530 --> 00:18:08,700
that don't always learn like that.

811
00:18:08,700 --> 00:18:09,360
They still have learned

812
00:18:09,360 --> 00:18:10,470
like that in some way.

813
00:18:10,740 --> 00:18:11,100
For sure.

814
00:18:11,105 --> 00:18:11,790
It's ****** up.

815
00:18:11,790 --> 00:18:12,570
Like for sure people have to

816
00:18:12,570 --> 00:18:14,250
learn, like, you know, babies

817
00:18:14,250 --> 00:18:15,150
putting their hand in fire.

818
00:18:15,150 --> 00:18:16,590
Like that's how they learn

819
00:18:16,590 --> 00:18:17,160
certain **** like that.

820
00:18:17,160 --> 00:18:18,660
And it's ****** up that you should have to

821
00:18:18,930 --> 00:18:20,490
literally go through something horrible.

822
00:18:20,610 --> 00:18:21,000
Mm.

823
00:18:21,060 --> 00:18:22,260
To learn to never do that again.

824
00:18:22,260 --> 00:18:23,880
And sometimes that could be their thing

825
00:18:23,885 --> 00:18:25,470
that could take your life away from you.

826
00:18:25,475 --> 00:18:26,010
That is true.

827
00:18:26,040 --> 00:18:27,840
But, but that's why there are different,

828
00:18:27,840 --> 00:18:28,740
like, there are different ways of

829
00:18:28,740 --> 00:18:32,250
learning, and I'm a ******* geek, but like

830
00:18:32,430 --> 00:18:33,960
you have like mirror neurons, you know?

831
00:18:33,960 --> 00:18:36,270
And so like these help, you go in and

832
00:18:36,270 --> 00:18:37,920
you look at something, you look at how a

833
00:18:37,920 --> 00:18:39,930
person is doing or what a person is doing,

834
00:18:40,140 --> 00:18:42,060
and so then you learn just by watching,

835
00:18:42,060 --> 00:18:44,280
or you can learn from listening to a

836
00:18:44,280 --> 00:18:46,385
certain person and like, A lot of people

837
00:18:46,925 --> 00:18:48,215
are you getting put in these certain type

838
00:18:48,215 --> 00:18:50,735
of situations and it's like, okay, cool.

839
00:18:51,035 --> 00:18:52,745
Well this person said

840
00:18:52,745 --> 00:18:54,155
that X, Y, Z isn't cool.

841
00:18:54,455 --> 00:18:57,155
This person said X, Y, Z, uh, is

842
00:18:57,155 --> 00:18:58,265
bad for me or whatever, whatever.

843
00:18:58,445 --> 00:18:59,645
So I'm gonna stay away from 'em.

844
00:18:59,765 --> 00:19:00,635
You know, you're learning

845
00:19:00,640 --> 00:19:01,775
in that sense as well.

846
00:19:02,075 --> 00:19:03,305
But there are always gonna be

847
00:19:03,305 --> 00:19:05,105
situations where you are just a little

848
00:19:05,105 --> 00:19:07,055
blind to where like, okay, cool.

849
00:19:07,085 --> 00:19:08,885
Let's say that girl and

850
00:19:08,885 --> 00:19:10,025
she's taking back that guy.

851
00:19:10,415 --> 00:19:13,055
It is not in a sense of like she's

852
00:19:13,060 --> 00:19:14,855
stupid because there are plenty of other

853
00:19:14,855 --> 00:19:16,565
situations where she probably would've,

854
00:19:16,715 --> 00:19:17,735
sometimes love really makes you do

855
00:19:17,735 --> 00:19:19,595
things that like you just can't help

856
00:19:19,595 --> 00:19:21,035
it because that's how your heart feels.

857
00:19:21,275 --> 00:19:22,955
Love can't make you foolish to things.

858
00:19:23,225 --> 00:19:23,885
Yeah, exactly.

859
00:19:23,885 --> 00:19:25,205
I don't wanna say stupid, but

860
00:19:25,205 --> 00:19:27,785
it can just make you like the

861
00:19:27,785 --> 00:19:28,895
heart wants with the heart wants.

862
00:19:28,895 --> 00:19:29,885
And that's one of the craziest

863
00:19:29,885 --> 00:19:32,285
things I had to realize as an adult.

864
00:19:32,345 --> 00:19:32,435
Mm-hmm.

865
00:19:32,795 --> 00:19:34,055
Is that like you can't deny you,

866
00:19:34,385 --> 00:19:35,645
you can, you can say what you want

867
00:19:35,650 --> 00:19:36,875
in front of people and all that,

868
00:19:36,875 --> 00:19:38,615
but man, look, you get by yourself.

869
00:19:38,640 --> 00:19:42,690
You get on that phone late night, she

870
00:19:42,690 --> 00:19:44,880
texts you, you won't respond, dude.

871
00:19:44,880 --> 00:19:46,260
Like it's just what it is, man.

872
00:19:46,260 --> 00:19:47,820
Like, you know what a Chinese

873
00:19:47,820 --> 00:19:48,630
finger cuff is, right?

874
00:19:49,530 --> 00:19:50,760
Um, the ones that Yeah.

875
00:19:50,760 --> 00:19:51,480
Goes on the end and yeah.

876
00:19:51,480 --> 00:19:51,640
Mm-hmm.

877
00:19:51,900 --> 00:19:53,040
And if you pull real hard, you're

878
00:19:53,040 --> 00:19:53,670
not gonna be able to get your

879
00:19:53,670 --> 00:19:54,810
finger out unless you like,

880
00:19:55,650 --> 00:19:56,820
easily pull your fingers out.

881
00:19:56,940 --> 00:19:57,030
Mm-hmm.

882
00:19:57,540 --> 00:19:58,830
I said that's the type of type of purpose.

883
00:19:58,830 --> 00:20:00,600
I'm, I'm a Chinese finger cuff.

884
00:20:01,200 --> 00:20:01,470
Okay?

885
00:20:01,470 --> 00:20:02,790
I'm a human Chinese finger cuff.

886
00:20:03,000 --> 00:20:05,250
You're not gonna get nowhere in the book.

887
00:20:05,700 --> 00:20:08,430
I don't care where Corinthians gen,

888
00:20:08,550 --> 00:20:10,080
you're not gonna get nowhere with me.

889
00:20:10,290 --> 00:20:10,380
Mm-hmm.

890
00:20:10,380 --> 00:20:11,850
Trying to be all rough and tough

891
00:20:11,850 --> 00:20:13,380
and all extra out and all that.

892
00:20:13,385 --> 00:20:14,400
Like, it's just not gonna, I, I

893
00:20:14,400 --> 00:20:15,540
don't go like that, like mm-hmm.

894
00:20:15,780 --> 00:20:16,830
You're not gonna get nowhere trying

895
00:20:16,830 --> 00:20:18,150
to push your way around with me.

896
00:20:18,510 --> 00:20:18,660
Mm-hmm.

897
00:20:18,661 --> 00:20:19,590
Uh, you're only ever gonna get

898
00:20:19,590 --> 00:20:20,520
somewhere with me with reason.

899
00:20:21,045 --> 00:20:21,975
That's what type of person I'm,

900
00:20:21,980 --> 00:20:23,235
I'm reasonable you can come to me

901
00:20:23,235 --> 00:20:24,405
with a problem or tell me how you

902
00:20:24,405 --> 00:20:26,055
feel about me, but don't come at

903
00:20:26,055 --> 00:20:27,435
me like, you know what I'm saying?

904
00:20:27,435 --> 00:20:29,205
Like, it's just all about how you Yeah.

905
00:20:29,210 --> 00:20:29,955
It's, it's not what you

906
00:20:29,955 --> 00:20:30,615
say, it's how you say it.

907
00:20:30,615 --> 00:20:32,085
People treat people crazy,

908
00:20:32,715 --> 00:20:34,485
but then be demanding respect.

909
00:20:35,145 --> 00:20:36,015
I'm talking about demanding.

910
00:20:36,045 --> 00:20:37,305
Don't, no, they ain't asking.

911
00:20:37,310 --> 00:20:37,465
Yeah.

912
00:20:38,055 --> 00:20:38,145
Yeah.

913
00:20:38,145 --> 00:20:39,915
I demand it because it's easy.

914
00:20:40,465 --> 00:20:40,585
Straight up.

915
00:20:40,585 --> 00:20:42,105
I don't understand that because it's

916
00:20:42,105 --> 00:20:44,175
easy to demand something whenever you

917
00:20:44,175 --> 00:20:46,575
are on the like, reciprocating end of it.

918
00:20:46,725 --> 00:20:48,135
I'm, me personally, I've never gotten

919
00:20:48,135 --> 00:20:50,265
nowhere demanding **** in my life.

920
00:20:51,165 --> 00:20:52,065
But then again, you have

921
00:20:52,070 --> 00:20:52,785
a different background.

922
00:20:53,145 --> 00:20:53,475
Right.

923
00:20:53,685 --> 00:20:54,315
You know what I'm saying?

924
00:20:54,495 --> 00:20:55,455
So if you have a certain

925
00:20:55,455 --> 00:20:56,925
background where demanding things

926
00:20:56,925 --> 00:20:58,785
is natural is normal, right.

927
00:20:58,965 --> 00:20:59,715
Then of course you're gonna

928
00:20:59,715 --> 00:21:01,005
demand, because this is what

929
00:21:01,005 --> 00:21:01,905
you've been growing up with.

930
00:21:01,965 --> 00:21:02,665
This is how you've been raised.

931
00:21:02,665 --> 00:21:04,005
That's how you've been getting your way.

932
00:21:04,155 --> 00:21:04,875
Exactly.

933
00:21:04,875 --> 00:21:05,025
That's how you've been

934
00:21:05,025 --> 00:21:05,745
getting going about.

935
00:21:05,745 --> 00:21:06,705
That's, that's how you saw your

936
00:21:06,705 --> 00:21:07,965
parents get their way as well.

937
00:21:08,145 --> 00:21:10,065
So like, say for example, like the,

938
00:21:10,070 --> 00:21:12,045
the lady who goes into the store,

939
00:21:12,375 --> 00:21:14,265
I don't want to genderize, but the

940
00:21:14,265 --> 00:21:16,500
lady who goes into the store, And she

941
00:21:16,500 --> 00:21:17,910
says name may or may not be Karen.

942
00:21:18,720 --> 00:21:19,830
I'm not gonna even say Karen.

943
00:21:19,830 --> 00:21:20,520
I'm not gonna say Karen.

944
00:21:20,520 --> 00:21:22,110
I've had multiple different experiences

945
00:21:22,110 --> 00:21:23,310
with multiple different races.

946
00:21:23,310 --> 00:21:23,760
But anyways.

947
00:21:23,790 --> 00:21:24,090
Oh man.

948
00:21:24,150 --> 00:21:26,250
But yeah, so she comes to the store and

949
00:21:26,250 --> 00:21:29,880
she's so upset because, uh, she paid

950
00:21:29,910 --> 00:21:33,690
3 99 and her juice was 2 99, right?

951
00:21:33,960 --> 00:21:34,800
And she got her little

952
00:21:34,800 --> 00:21:35,880
kid in toe, Uhhuh, right?

953
00:21:35,880 --> 00:21:38,010
She throws up a whole escapade,

954
00:21:38,010 --> 00:21:38,700
except Cetera, et cetera.

955
00:21:38,700 --> 00:21:41,430
The cashier's like, well ma'am, I'm sorry,

956
00:21:41,460 --> 00:21:44,280
but the prices got marked up, you know,

957
00:21:44,340 --> 00:21:46,020
so you thought that you were gonna pay

958
00:21:46,020 --> 00:21:48,780
2 99, but it's really 3 99, I'm sorry.

959
00:21:49,050 --> 00:21:50,250
And so there's a whole thing.

960
00:21:50,250 --> 00:21:50,760
It starts, et cetera.

961
00:21:50,765 --> 00:21:52,050
And she says, to get on top of corporate,

962
00:21:52,050 --> 00:21:52,760
accept cetera, et cetera, right?

963
00:21:53,010 --> 00:21:53,370
Mm-hmm.

964
00:21:53,490 --> 00:21:54,720
And at the end of the day,

965
00:21:55,350 --> 00:21:56,490
the manager comes out because

966
00:21:56,490 --> 00:21:57,600
he demands for the manager.

967
00:21:57,750 --> 00:21:59,200
The manager comes out, The

968
00:21:59,200 --> 00:22:00,490
manager says, okay, cool.

969
00:22:00,760 --> 00:22:01,840
Give her the 2 99.

970
00:22:01,930 --> 00:22:02,530
It's fine.

971
00:22:02,800 --> 00:22:03,850
That little kid is watching.

972
00:22:04,390 --> 00:22:05,770
That little kid just learned

973
00:22:06,040 --> 00:22:07,330
that you can get your way.

974
00:22:07,335 --> 00:22:08,740
If you argue enough, if you argue

975
00:22:08,740 --> 00:22:09,820
enough, if you raise your voice

976
00:22:09,820 --> 00:22:12,010
loud enough, if you call su a, a

977
00:22:12,015 --> 00:22:13,210
big enough scene, enough commotion.

978
00:22:13,270 --> 00:22:13,750
Exactly.

979
00:22:13,750 --> 00:22:14,920
Because you'll get exactly what you want.

980
00:22:14,920 --> 00:22:15,550
Get exactly what you're saying.

981
00:22:15,760 --> 00:22:17,380
They just observe that whole thing.

982
00:22:17,380 --> 00:22:17,950
I'm like, huh?

983
00:22:19,360 --> 00:22:20,350
I'm like this down somewhere.

984
00:22:20,380 --> 00:22:21,280
Exactly.

985
00:22:21,320 --> 00:22:22,080
That's exactly what happened.

986
00:22:22,080 --> 00:22:22,280
Exactly.

987
00:22:22,580 --> 00:22:23,890
But then you turn around and

988
00:22:23,890 --> 00:22:24,970
then you're, you're wondering

989
00:22:24,975 --> 00:22:26,110
why your kid is acting up.

990
00:22:26,110 --> 00:22:26,800
You're wondering why your

991
00:22:26,800 --> 00:22:27,790
kid is being so loud.

992
00:22:27,790 --> 00:22:29,140
You're wondering why he's

993
00:22:29,140 --> 00:22:30,370
causing, or she's causing such

994
00:22:30,370 --> 00:22:31,360
a commotion, such, et cetera.

995
00:22:31,720 --> 00:22:32,740
She's mirroring, he's

996
00:22:32,740 --> 00:22:34,150
mirroring how you are.

997
00:22:34,420 --> 00:22:36,550
All kids are, are sponges, bro.

998
00:22:36,670 --> 00:22:36,960
Like, literally.

999
00:22:37,040 --> 00:22:37,440
Yes, exactly.

1000
00:22:37,540 --> 00:22:39,340
And that's why like, you know,

1001
00:22:39,490 --> 00:22:41,170
I had it rough growing up, but

1002
00:22:41,170 --> 00:22:42,790
all I can do is just be thankful.

1003
00:22:42,820 --> 00:22:42,880
Yeah.

1004
00:22:42,880 --> 00:22:43,780
Because I'd be looking like

1005
00:22:43,780 --> 00:22:45,730
around and just be like, Jesus.

1006
00:22:46,690 --> 00:22:48,370
I'd be like, I'm really not that bad.

1007
00:22:48,370 --> 00:22:49,660
I'm, yeah, yeah, yeah.

1008
00:22:49,665 --> 00:22:50,500
I'm like, I'm terrible,

1009
00:22:50,500 --> 00:22:51,820
but I'm, I'm not that bad.

1010
00:22:51,820 --> 00:22:53,140
Terrible is crazy, terrible,

1011
00:22:53,440 --> 00:22:54,940
terrible, terrible is really

1012
00:22:54,940 --> 00:22:56,320
me being modest about myself.

1013
00:22:56,350 --> 00:22:57,220
You want to be honest.

1014
00:22:57,250 --> 00:22:58,840
Why do you feel like yourself is terrible?

1015
00:22:58,840 --> 00:23:00,270
That's big because I really didn't feel, I

1016
00:23:00,270 --> 00:23:01,740
don't feel like I did right by my parents.

1017
00:23:01,740 --> 00:23:02,670
Like I, it took me to be

1018
00:23:02,670 --> 00:23:03,600
an adult to admit that.

1019
00:23:04,050 --> 00:23:04,080
Okay.

1020
00:23:04,080 --> 00:23:04,830
I don't feel like I did

1021
00:23:04,830 --> 00:23:05,580
right by my parents.

1022
00:23:05,640 --> 00:23:05,670
Okay.

1023
00:23:05,940 --> 00:23:07,410
I don't feel like, I feel like my

1024
00:23:07,410 --> 00:23:09,000
parents did the best they could, even

1025
00:23:09,000 --> 00:23:09,930
though I don't feel like they did

1026
00:23:09,935 --> 00:23:11,130
their best, but they did the best that

1027
00:23:11,130 --> 00:23:12,720
they could, bro, what they was capable

1028
00:23:12,725 --> 00:23:14,040
of, and I just didn't accept that.

1029
00:23:14,310 --> 00:23:14,700
Yeah, sure.

1030
00:23:14,700 --> 00:23:15,570
I may have had parents, uh,

1031
00:23:15,600 --> 00:23:17,070
problems with my stepdad Mm.

1032
00:23:17,130 --> 00:23:18,030
And **** like that, but,

1033
00:23:18,570 --> 00:23:19,950
He was try, he was there.

1034
00:23:20,280 --> 00:23:22,740
Like, and it's, it's real rough accepting

1035
00:23:23,310 --> 00:23:25,260
another man to your life as a father.

1036
00:23:25,260 --> 00:23:26,010
Like it's real.

1037
00:23:26,070 --> 00:23:27,629
Especially when you feel like he

1038
00:23:27,635 --> 00:23:29,310
doesn't treat you or look at you like

1039
00:23:29,310 --> 00:23:30,660
you his, you know what I'm saying?

1040
00:23:30,810 --> 00:23:30,990
Mm-hmm.

1041
00:23:31,260 --> 00:23:32,790
But it's what it is.

1042
00:23:32,850 --> 00:23:34,230
Like I had to learn to love him.

1043
00:23:34,500 --> 00:23:35,760
Like I had to, I had to learn to.

1044
00:23:36,580 --> 00:23:38,500
Look at what I appreciated

1045
00:23:38,500 --> 00:23:40,090
about him versus what I hated,

1046
00:23:40,090 --> 00:23:40,990
even though it was a lot.

1047
00:23:41,320 --> 00:23:41,770
Mm-hmm.

1048
00:23:41,800 --> 00:23:42,940
I had to look at what I really

1049
00:23:42,940 --> 00:23:44,050
appreciated about this man.

1050
00:23:44,050 --> 00:23:44,650
Like, you know what I'm saying?

1051
00:23:44,860 --> 00:23:46,660
I had to appreciate the fact that he

1052
00:23:46,990 --> 00:23:49,450
took his money, that he got to get a, um,

1053
00:23:49,510 --> 00:23:51,430
from after he lost his house in Hurricane

1054
00:23:51,430 --> 00:23:53,020
Katrina and they were living in a shelter.

1055
00:23:53,020 --> 00:23:54,400
He took his money that he got from that,

1056
00:23:54,460 --> 00:23:56,560
that got into, um, housing authority,

1057
00:23:56,590 --> 00:23:58,240
project housing, and he did that.

1058
00:23:58,240 --> 00:23:59,920
Like, and you know, I'm not his child.

1059
00:23:59,980 --> 00:24:00,970
He had to take care of me.

1060
00:24:00,970 --> 00:24:02,440
He was, he was taking all of his

1061
00:24:02,440 --> 00:24:03,160
money that he was getting at the

1062
00:24:03,160 --> 00:24:03,940
end of the month and helping me

1063
00:24:03,940 --> 00:24:04,960
get Pampers and **** like that.

1064
00:24:05,200 --> 00:24:05,290
Mm-hmm.

1065
00:24:05,950 --> 00:24:07,000
That's some man's ****.

1066
00:24:07,005 --> 00:24:08,745
He's taking care of a whole nother baby

1067
00:24:08,745 --> 00:24:09,925
that's not his, you know what I'm saying?

1068
00:24:09,930 --> 00:24:12,135
Saying like, and no matter how much I

1069
00:24:12,135 --> 00:24:14,055
dislike how he treated me as I was growing

1070
00:24:14,055 --> 00:24:16,005
up, I have to remember that he could

1071
00:24:16,005 --> 00:24:17,655
have been not **** from the beginning.

1072
00:24:18,165 --> 00:24:18,405
Yeah.

1073
00:24:18,765 --> 00:24:19,275
You know what I'm saying?

1074
00:24:19,335 --> 00:24:19,725
That's true.

1075
00:24:19,815 --> 00:24:21,525
I can't, I can't, I can fault him

1076
00:24:21,525 --> 00:24:23,355
for being, you know, not necessarily

1077
00:24:23,355 --> 00:24:25,065
a, just the best, a great dad.

1078
00:24:25,515 --> 00:24:27,045
But I can, I, I can give him

1079
00:24:27,045 --> 00:24:28,395
that he actually cared about me.

1080
00:24:28,635 --> 00:24:28,785
Yeah.

1081
00:24:28,785 --> 00:24:29,595
He cared about my mom.

1082
00:24:29,805 --> 00:24:30,045
Yeah.

1083
00:24:30,165 --> 00:24:30,675
You know what I'm saying?

1084
00:24:30,765 --> 00:24:31,035
Yeah.

1085
00:24:31,155 --> 00:24:32,025
Now he had his faults.

1086
00:24:32,025 --> 00:24:33,435
But I, I'm a man, I can't

1087
00:24:33,440 --> 00:24:34,305
speak on another man's fault.

1088
00:24:34,305 --> 00:24:35,445
I'm, I've learned that as a man.

1089
00:24:35,625 --> 00:24:36,675
You can't judge no other man

1090
00:24:36,675 --> 00:24:38,025
about what he did with a woman.

1091
00:24:38,085 --> 00:24:40,515
Like, even if it's your mom, ah,

1092
00:24:40,545 --> 00:24:42,345
listen, I done got out here and Lord

1093
00:24:42,345 --> 00:24:46,635
Jesus, Lord, just to be on some corny,

1094
00:24:46,725 --> 00:24:48,075
like I'm telling you that 'cause it's

1095
00:24:48,075 --> 00:24:49,485
the most beneficial thing for you.

1096
00:24:49,965 --> 00:24:51,135
It's not always the best thing

1097
00:24:51,135 --> 00:24:52,395
to have multiple women out here.

1098
00:24:52,635 --> 00:24:54,405
I mean, if you can and if you

1099
00:24:54,405 --> 00:24:56,685
trust them all, who's for you?

1100
00:24:56,805 --> 00:24:58,365
But I'm from personal experience,

1101
00:24:58,905 --> 00:25:01,725
it don't always work like you could

1102
00:25:01,725 --> 00:25:03,105
find the girl that's for you, man.

1103
00:25:03,480 --> 00:25:04,320
Stick with her man.

1104
00:25:04,560 --> 00:25:04,620
Yeah.

1105
00:25:04,620 --> 00:25:06,150
Tell him it's the best thing for you.

1106
00:25:06,150 --> 00:25:06,870
I'm, I don't know what else

1107
00:25:06,870 --> 00:25:07,590
with is better for you.

1108
00:25:07,590 --> 00:25:08,040
I can agree with, I can

1109
00:25:08,040 --> 00:25:08,731
definitely agree with that man.

1110
00:25:08,736 --> 00:25:09,030
For sure.

1111
00:25:09,240 --> 00:25:11,460
Like messing around with

1112
00:25:11,465 --> 00:25:13,440
multiple people, regardless.

1113
00:25:13,440 --> 00:25:14,910
Men or women messing around

1114
00:25:14,915 --> 00:25:15,900
with multiple people.

1115
00:25:16,080 --> 00:25:17,790
It's only gonna end your downfall.

1116
00:25:17,850 --> 00:25:18,420
Yeah.

1117
00:25:18,810 --> 00:25:18,842
I don't care.

1118
00:25:18,842 --> 00:25:19,140
It's, it's just gonna

1119
00:25:19,140 --> 00:25:20,070
cause you more stress.

1120
00:25:20,190 --> 00:25:20,760
It's facts.

1121
00:25:21,120 --> 00:25:21,600
It's over.

1122
00:25:21,660 --> 00:25:22,140
I don't care.

1123
00:25:22,170 --> 00:25:23,130
Like, you just, you're just not gonna

1124
00:25:23,130 --> 00:25:24,540
be able to have no peace of mind.

1125
00:25:24,600 --> 00:25:25,980
Even if you can be honest

1126
00:25:25,980 --> 00:25:26,700
with all those women.

1127
00:25:26,790 --> 00:25:28,890
I couldn't find myself liking all of them.

1128
00:25:30,070 --> 00:25:30,150
Hmm.

1129
00:25:30,180 --> 00:25:30,810
You know what I'm saying?

1130
00:25:31,200 --> 00:25:32,700
I was feel, I, I felt, felt like it

1131
00:25:32,700 --> 00:25:34,140
was something about like, that I liked.

1132
00:25:34,170 --> 00:25:36,120
One thing I liked about each, like girl

1133
00:25:36,120 --> 00:25:37,500
that I was messing with at the time,

1134
00:25:37,590 --> 00:25:38,940
like, they all had qualities that I

1135
00:25:38,945 --> 00:25:40,620
liked, but they didn't all have them.

1136
00:25:40,710 --> 00:25:41,340
You know what I'm saying?

1137
00:25:41,770 --> 00:25:41,990
Yes.

1138
00:25:41,995 --> 00:25:42,240
Yes.

1139
00:25:42,480 --> 00:25:43,680
And it was so messed up.

1140
00:25:43,680 --> 00:25:45,060
Like I, I just found myself just

1141
00:25:45,065 --> 00:25:46,140
bouncing around just for those

1142
00:25:46,140 --> 00:25:47,490
qualities and I was like, bro, why

1143
00:25:47,490 --> 00:25:48,780
the **** am I doing myself like this?

1144
00:25:48,785 --> 00:25:48,950
Mm-hmm.

1145
00:25:49,140 --> 00:25:50,490
Like, why do I, why am I

1146
00:25:50,490 --> 00:25:51,570
spreading myself like butter?

1147
00:25:52,200 --> 00:25:52,680
Mm.

1148
00:25:52,740 --> 00:25:53,640
Like why am I doing that?

1149
00:25:53,640 --> 00:25:54,240
Like, you know what I'm saying?

1150
00:25:54,240 --> 00:25:54,241
Yeah.

1151
00:25:54,246 --> 00:25:55,260
Like, why am I paying for.

1152
00:25:55,815 --> 00:25:57,285
Three different *******, nails

1153
00:25:57,375 --> 00:25:59,415
like, oh no, you're for that, bro's.

1154
00:25:59,625 --> 00:26:00,885
Just why am I doing all this?

1155
00:26:00,885 --> 00:26:01,335
Like, why?

1156
00:26:01,425 --> 00:26:02,565
I just felt like, why, like

1157
00:26:02,565 --> 00:26:04,185
why am I stretching it?

1158
00:26:04,185 --> 00:26:05,505
Like I'm just doing too much.

1159
00:26:05,505 --> 00:26:06,255
I need to chill.

1160
00:26:06,615 --> 00:26:07,575
I need to really just be me.

1161
00:26:08,325 --> 00:26:08,855
I've never had, I've never had

1162
00:26:08,955 --> 00:26:11,325
anybody ask me for nail money.

1163
00:26:11,685 --> 00:26:12,375
For real, ever.

1164
00:26:12,375 --> 00:26:12,645
Yeah.

1165
00:26:12,765 --> 00:26:13,125
No.

1166
00:26:14,070 --> 00:26:15,180
No dude, you would never pay for

1167
00:26:15,180 --> 00:26:16,200
nails, is that what you're saying?

1168
00:26:18,060 --> 00:26:18,630
I don't You think that's

1169
00:26:18,630 --> 00:26:19,800
simp like stuff though, bro.

1170
00:26:19,830 --> 00:26:21,510
I don't think it's simp behavior.

1171
00:26:21,630 --> 00:26:23,100
If you're paying for a woman's nails.

1172
00:26:23,100 --> 00:26:23,910
No, I wanna say this.

1173
00:26:23,940 --> 00:26:25,230
No, I'm not dealing with no girl.

1174
00:26:25,230 --> 00:26:25,890
That ain't trying to spend

1175
00:26:25,890 --> 00:26:26,610
no money on me though.

1176
00:26:26,760 --> 00:26:28,110
You like these girls out here fool

1177
00:26:28,110 --> 00:26:29,400
y'all And just paying for all and

1178
00:26:29,400 --> 00:26:30,570
everything, man, listen, you gotta,

1179
00:26:30,810 --> 00:26:31,770
you gotta treat women like an

1180
00:26:31,770 --> 00:26:33,570
investment and it sounds crazy, bro.

1181
00:26:33,570 --> 00:26:34,410
But you gotta treat

1182
00:26:34,650 --> 00:26:35,610
women like an investment.

1183
00:26:35,730 --> 00:26:37,110
You find a woman that you really like,

1184
00:26:37,410 --> 00:26:40,050
you do things for out of your budget.

1185
00:26:40,200 --> 00:26:42,240
You don't do things out of just doing it

1186
00:26:42,240 --> 00:26:43,680
just 'cause you're trying to impress her.

1187
00:26:44,160 --> 00:26:44,670
Be very true.

1188
00:26:44,675 --> 00:26:45,150
You do.

1189
00:26:45,300 --> 00:26:46,020
That's the key for her.

1190
00:26:46,080 --> 00:26:46,980
What's actually gonna

1191
00:26:46,980 --> 00:26:48,300
benefit her in the long run?

1192
00:26:48,300 --> 00:26:49,830
Don't just give, give no girl no money.

1193
00:26:49,835 --> 00:26:50,820
I don't understand that.

1194
00:26:51,030 --> 00:26:52,500
**** you giving a girl no money.

1195
00:26:52,560 --> 00:26:53,640
Like just pay bills.

1196
00:26:53,790 --> 00:26:54,000
Pay.

1197
00:26:54,000 --> 00:26:55,180
If you gonna give her, you

1198
00:26:55,180 --> 00:26:56,370
gonna give a girl 500, you

1199
00:26:56,370 --> 00:26:57,510
better go pay that light bill.

1200
00:26:57,540 --> 00:26:58,320
What you talking about?

1201
00:26:58,520 --> 00:26:59,380
She don't thank you for that.

1202
00:26:59,380 --> 00:27:01,440
Paying crazy just money, bro.

1203
00:27:01,440 --> 00:27:02,310
I'm I'm just saying like

1204
00:27:02,580 --> 00:27:04,140
realistically yeah, dudes give

1205
00:27:04,140 --> 00:27:05,910
girls money just to have sex.

1206
00:27:06,540 --> 00:27:07,500
I'm not gonna give no

1207
00:27:07,505 --> 00:27:08,490
girl no money to have sex.

1208
00:27:08,730 --> 00:27:08,910
Okay.

1209
00:27:08,915 --> 00:27:09,870
If I give a girl some money,

1210
00:27:09,870 --> 00:27:10,740
it's because I care about her

1211
00:27:10,740 --> 00:27:11,850
and I want her to be good.

1212
00:27:11,850 --> 00:27:12,690
Like I want her to be.

1213
00:27:13,170 --> 00:27:13,590
Straight.

1214
00:27:13,770 --> 00:27:13,830
Yeah.

1215
00:27:13,830 --> 00:27:14,280
The sex.

1216
00:27:14,280 --> 00:27:15,150
You just giving me that

1217
00:27:15,150 --> 00:27:15,810
because she like me.

1218
00:27:15,900 --> 00:27:16,710
I don't, I cannot.

1219
00:27:16,770 --> 00:27:18,000
She do like you if she's having

1220
00:27:18,000 --> 00:27:18,990
sex with you, that Exactly.

1221
00:27:19,110 --> 00:27:19,440
That's facts.

1222
00:27:19,470 --> 00:27:20,130
She do like you.

1223
00:27:20,130 --> 00:27:21,270
If she, even in your space

1224
00:27:21,270 --> 00:27:22,150
for real, if she come over

1225
00:27:22,210 --> 00:27:23,190
to your house, that is facts.

1226
00:27:23,510 --> 00:27:24,190
I don't deal like, you

1227
00:27:24,190 --> 00:27:24,510
know what I'm saying?

1228
00:27:24,510 --> 00:27:24,990
Nah, no cap.

1229
00:27:24,990 --> 00:27:25,390
Mm-hmm.

1230
00:27:26,110 --> 00:27:26,670
I don't deal with no one.

1231
00:27:26,850 --> 00:27:28,800
If she's voluntarily texting you back on a

1232
00:27:28,805 --> 00:27:30,630
consistent basis, she likes or getting mad

1233
00:27:30,630 --> 00:27:31,980
that she not texting her back fast enough.

1234
00:27:31,980 --> 00:27:32,520
C likes you.

1235
00:27:32,580 --> 00:27:32,970
Yes.

1236
00:27:33,030 --> 00:27:33,960
Let's, let's go ahead.

1237
00:27:34,050 --> 00:27:35,100
Like all the men, you know,

1238
00:27:35,520 --> 00:27:36,570
I be hearing all the red pill

1239
00:27:36,570 --> 00:27:37,500
stuff, et cetera, et cetera.

1240
00:27:37,500 --> 00:27:39,270
And it'd be like, yo, you know, all

1241
00:27:39,270 --> 00:27:41,310
these, all these different criteria and

1242
00:27:41,315 --> 00:27:44,040
what do girl, Hey look, it's very simple.

1243
00:27:44,040 --> 00:27:44,790
It's **** all of that.

1244
00:27:44,790 --> 00:27:45,540
No, no, no, bro.

1245
00:27:45,540 --> 00:27:46,620
Don't be out here trying to break

1246
00:27:46,620 --> 00:27:47,970
your neck trying to find no girl bro.

1247
00:27:48,120 --> 00:27:48,990
Dude, what do for you?

1248
00:27:48,995 --> 00:27:50,310
And don't be afraid to shoot your shot.

1249
00:27:50,430 --> 00:27:52,020
I don't give a **** how fine a girl is.

1250
00:27:52,025 --> 00:27:52,260
That is facts.

1251
00:27:52,260 --> 00:27:53,790
You like her holler at her.

1252
00:27:53,790 --> 00:27:54,180
That's facts.

1253
00:27:54,180 --> 00:27:55,320
If it don't worry, it don't work.

1254
00:27:55,470 --> 00:27:56,820
She doing shoot you in your face.

1255
00:27:56,880 --> 00:27:57,210
Hold on.

1256
00:27:57,210 --> 00:27:58,110
Don't be a creep though.

1257
00:27:58,170 --> 00:27:58,470
Don't be a creep.

1258
00:27:58,470 --> 00:27:59,460
Yeah, don't be no creep though.

1259
00:27:59,460 --> 00:28:00,310
I'm not gonna take, you don't need to

1260
00:28:00,310 --> 00:28:02,070
preface that because some people are

1261
00:28:02,070 --> 00:28:03,670
creeps and Yeah, let's emphasize that.

1262
00:28:03,670 --> 00:28:05,820
If say no, then bro, if you walking

1263
00:28:05,820 --> 00:28:07,350
up and she give you that look like.

1264
00:28:07,855 --> 00:28:09,205
And just, but just be

1265
00:28:09,205 --> 00:28:09,655
like, all right, all right.

1266
00:28:09,925 --> 00:28:10,525
My fault back.

1267
00:28:10,525 --> 00:28:10,795
Exactly.

1268
00:28:10,795 --> 00:28:11,035
Exactly.

1269
00:28:11,035 --> 00:28:11,675
Let's just go chill.

1270
00:28:11,675 --> 00:28:11,995
Exactly.

1271
00:28:12,000 --> 00:28:13,035
Respectfully, you know what I'm saying?

1272
00:28:13,225 --> 00:28:14,185
Exit out the situation.

1273
00:28:14,185 --> 00:28:14,695
Respectfully.

1274
00:28:14,695 --> 00:28:17,005
Take that as like, I, I

1275
00:28:17,005 --> 00:28:18,055
understand it's rough.

1276
00:28:18,115 --> 00:28:19,525
Yeah, but just take it man.

1277
00:28:19,525 --> 00:28:20,875
It's better than just getting mace

1278
00:28:21,115 --> 00:28:22,315
literally and then looking like a creep.

1279
00:28:22,315 --> 00:28:23,065
And you weren't even trying to

1280
00:28:23,065 --> 00:28:24,235
do nothing but ask for a number.

1281
00:28:24,355 --> 00:28:25,315
But you ain't ever gonna gonna

1282
00:28:25,315 --> 00:28:26,425
have that chance to say it's such a

1283
00:28:26,425 --> 00:28:28,285
messed up world for dudes that have

1284
00:28:28,285 --> 00:28:29,695
a hard time talking to women though.

1285
00:28:29,935 --> 00:28:31,045
If you have a hard time talking

1286
00:28:31,045 --> 00:28:32,035
to women, that is perfectly fun.

1287
00:28:32,035 --> 00:28:33,835
The only way that you can get better at

1288
00:28:33,835 --> 00:28:35,185
talking to women is to talk to women.

1289
00:28:35,815 --> 00:28:36,625
I'm gonna go ahead and I'm

1290
00:28:36,625 --> 00:28:37,975
gonna let y'all know right now.

1291
00:28:37,975 --> 00:28:39,835
There's no secret, there's no like,

1292
00:28:40,225 --> 00:28:41,365
you ain't tell dictionary that

1293
00:28:41,365 --> 00:28:43,255
you gotta, you, you really didn't

1294
00:28:43,255 --> 00:28:44,455
tell 'em some key **** though.

1295
00:28:44,695 --> 00:28:45,925
What you mean you didn't

1296
00:28:45,925 --> 00:28:46,855
tell him some key ****, bro.

1297
00:28:46,855 --> 00:28:47,935
And you know this for yourself.

1298
00:28:47,935 --> 00:28:48,685
'cause I know you do this

1299
00:28:48,685 --> 00:28:49,975
yourself and I do this myself.

1300
00:28:50,095 --> 00:28:50,305
Okay.

1301
00:28:50,305 --> 00:28:51,115
What's up the gym man?

1302
00:28:51,115 --> 00:28:52,135
Stop playing the gym.

1303
00:28:52,225 --> 00:28:52,285
Okay.

1304
00:28:52,290 --> 00:28:52,825
Stop playing.

1305
00:28:52,855 --> 00:28:53,335
Okay.

1306
00:28:53,335 --> 00:28:54,085
'cause the gym builds what?

1307
00:28:54,085 --> 00:28:55,225
The gym Confidence.

1308
00:28:55,285 --> 00:28:55,765
Exactly.

1309
00:28:55,765 --> 00:28:56,245
That's facts.

1310
00:28:56,545 --> 00:28:57,175
A fact.

1311
00:28:57,585 --> 00:28:58,995
You, I do want to feel better

1312
00:28:58,995 --> 00:28:59,835
about fact, fact at me and knew

1313
00:28:59,835 --> 00:29:01,725
that I, bro, bro, I work out, I go

1314
00:29:01,725 --> 00:29:03,225
to the gym, I see the games, bro.

1315
00:29:03,315 --> 00:29:04,995
Vein, I see the, yeah, yeah, yeah.

1316
00:29:05,355 --> 00:29:06,075
I work out, man.

1317
00:29:06,275 --> 00:29:08,655
I, I'm a, I work out, I'm a healthy dude.

1318
00:29:08,655 --> 00:29:09,735
Like, I don't be playing

1319
00:29:09,735 --> 00:29:10,725
around with nobody, man.

1320
00:29:10,725 --> 00:29:11,085
Come on man.

1321
00:29:11,085 --> 00:29:11,435
I'm small.

1322
00:29:11,655 --> 00:29:13,125
I'm like five, eight, dude.

1323
00:29:13,130 --> 00:29:15,675
I'm not, I don't have nothing to gain,

1324
00:29:15,675 --> 00:29:17,655
but games, like, I don't literally,

1325
00:29:17,655 --> 00:29:19,515
bro, people gotta understand, man.

1326
00:29:19,515 --> 00:29:20,535
The shorter you are, the

1327
00:29:20,535 --> 00:29:21,585
bigger you gotta be, bro.

1328
00:29:21,675 --> 00:29:22,605
Not even just that.

1329
00:29:22,605 --> 00:29:24,885
Just if you don't feel

1330
00:29:24,885 --> 00:29:26,865
like you enough, work out.

1331
00:29:27,345 --> 00:29:28,395
If you don't feel like

1332
00:29:28,425 --> 00:29:29,415
you, where you need to be.

1333
00:29:29,445 --> 00:29:31,395
If you, I, I would even say that

1334
00:29:31,395 --> 00:29:32,715
if you feel like you broke, bro.

1335
00:29:32,775 --> 00:29:34,035
Like if you feel like you broke, like

1336
00:29:34,035 --> 00:29:35,895
if you not getting money, bro, putting

1337
00:29:35,895 --> 00:29:37,875
yourself in a healthy mindset, like

1338
00:29:37,905 --> 00:29:39,375
working out, just putting yourself

1339
00:29:39,375 --> 00:29:41,595
in a healthy routine, a routine

1340
00:29:41,865 --> 00:29:42,765
thing that you're doing every day.

1341
00:29:42,765 --> 00:29:43,815
I promise you, I don't see

1342
00:29:43,815 --> 00:29:45,705
how you not gonna rise.

1343
00:29:45,710 --> 00:29:46,575
Like, I don't see people are

1344
00:29:46,580 --> 00:29:48,705
gonna want invest in Jil though.

1345
00:29:49,725 --> 00:29:51,555
Jilil, I love, I love him to death.

1346
00:29:51,555 --> 00:29:53,355
I, I love as **** and

1347
00:29:53,355 --> 00:29:54,345
he, he getting famous.

1348
00:29:54,630 --> 00:29:55,080
No, no, no.

1349
00:29:55,080 --> 00:29:55,200
For you.

1350
00:29:55,200 --> 00:29:56,310
What I'm saying, he doesn't.

1351
00:29:56,430 --> 00:29:56,910
He doesn't.

1352
00:29:56,910 --> 00:29:58,440
And I don't like that that nigga

1353
00:29:58,440 --> 00:29:59,730
don't do *******, um, he don't

1354
00:29:59,730 --> 00:30:01,080
do workout tutorials or nothing.

1355
00:30:01,080 --> 00:30:01,810
He don't show you nothing.

1356
00:30:02,320 --> 00:30:02,690
He's just big.

1357
00:30:02,695 --> 00:30:03,300
He's just big.

1358
00:30:03,300 --> 00:30:04,980
He just popped into the scene big bro.

1359
00:30:05,190 --> 00:30:06,290
Like, I don't know where he came from.

1360
00:30:06,290 --> 00:30:07,350
He gonna the gym bro.

1361
00:30:07,380 --> 00:30:09,120
Yeah, I think he um, he was

1362
00:30:09,120 --> 00:30:10,080
in the Army or something like

1363
00:30:10,080 --> 00:30:10,741
that, that listen to the Army.

1364
00:30:11,000 --> 00:30:12,540
Doesn't he look like he was

1365
00:30:12,540 --> 00:30:13,290
in listening to the Army?

1366
00:30:13,500 --> 00:30:15,210
Uh, I mean there's some people don't,

1367
00:30:15,320 --> 00:30:16,410
they were in the Army Marine, bro.

1368
00:30:16,530 --> 00:30:17,520
They, there's some people who

1369
00:30:17,520 --> 00:30:18,390
don't look like they were in the

1370
00:30:18,390 --> 00:30:19,260
Army and they were in the Army.

1371
00:30:20,070 --> 00:30:20,490
Like who?

1372
00:30:20,670 --> 00:30:21,000
Rapper.

1373
00:30:21,090 --> 00:30:22,620
Rapper wise or just, nah, not rapper wise.

1374
00:30:22,770 --> 00:30:23,580
I was say, I don't know any

1375
00:30:23,580 --> 00:30:24,510
rappers who were in the Army.

1376
00:30:24,515 --> 00:30:24,750
Yeah.

1377
00:30:24,750 --> 00:30:25,470
I don't know any rappers.

1378
00:30:25,475 --> 00:30:26,580
Nah, I know a couple rappers

1379
00:30:26,580 --> 00:30:27,420
that were in the Army before.

1380
00:30:27,425 --> 00:30:29,040
They really like famous rappers.

1381
00:30:29,550 --> 00:30:31,200
Well, you, you might not know 'em.

1382
00:30:31,260 --> 00:30:32,550
I know some dudes that was signed.

1383
00:30:32,550 --> 00:30:34,890
The, um, you know that dude that died?

1384
00:30:34,890 --> 00:30:35,790
B t b Savage?

1385
00:30:35,850 --> 00:30:36,000
Yes.

1386
00:30:36,000 --> 00:30:36,930
That died after his

1387
00:30:36,930 --> 00:30:37,740
interview and **** like that.

1388
00:30:37,745 --> 00:30:38,040
Yes.

1389
00:30:38,070 --> 00:30:38,940
He was in the army before.

1390
00:30:38,940 --> 00:30:40,450
He was, um, really a rapper.

1391
00:30:40,450 --> 00:30:41,790
Yeah, I did hear that.

1392
00:30:41,790 --> 00:30:42,000
Yeah.

1393
00:30:42,030 --> 00:30:42,630
But nah, that was a

1394
00:30:42,630 --> 00:30:43,530
crazy story though, man.

1395
00:30:43,530 --> 00:30:45,660
Yeah, that I don't wanna speak on too much

1396
00:30:45,660 --> 00:30:47,715
because at the end of the day, Rest in

1397
00:30:47,715 --> 00:30:49,485
peace to the dead on both ends of that.

1398
00:30:49,905 --> 00:30:50,685
But at the same time,

1399
00:30:50,685 --> 00:30:52,335
everybody **** comes back bro.

1400
00:30:52,785 --> 00:30:54,005
**** comes back to as it's why

1401
00:30:54,005 --> 00:30:55,305
you gotta be careful *** bro.

1402
00:30:55,395 --> 00:30:56,295
With situations like that.

1403
00:30:56,295 --> 00:30:57,285
I feel like if you in

1404
00:30:57,290 --> 00:30:58,305
the righteous bro mm-hmm.

1405
00:30:58,305 --> 00:30:59,325
You are gonna be good.

1406
00:30:59,325 --> 00:31:00,315
Like, you gonna be blessed

1407
00:31:00,315 --> 00:31:00,975
in some type of way.

1408
00:31:00,975 --> 00:31:01,395
You gonna have some

1409
00:31:01,395 --> 00:31:02,235
type of spirit over you.

1410
00:31:02,240 --> 00:31:02,285
Yeah.

1411
00:31:02,625 --> 00:31:03,255
In some way.

1412
00:31:03,345 --> 00:31:04,335
Like watching over you.

1413
00:31:04,605 --> 00:31:05,745
Like I've been in a lot of situations.

1414
00:31:05,745 --> 00:31:06,765
I swear to God, I don't

1415
00:31:06,765 --> 00:31:07,425
know how I got out.

1416
00:31:07,425 --> 00:31:09,015
I don't know how I walked away from it.

1417
00:31:09,195 --> 00:31:10,005
I don't know how I talked

1418
00:31:10,005 --> 00:31:11,595
myself out of it, but I did.

1419
00:31:12,135 --> 00:31:13,005
And it was just because

1420
00:31:13,005 --> 00:31:14,805
like, I was protected.

1421
00:31:15,015 --> 00:31:16,125
Like I, I didn't, I wasn't

1422
00:31:16,125 --> 00:31:17,175
in the wrong situation.

1423
00:31:17,445 --> 00:31:19,665
I knew what the situation was before

1424
00:31:19,670 --> 00:31:21,825
I walked into it, and I didn't try to

1425
00:31:21,825 --> 00:31:23,505
go in and try to be some tough guy.

1426
00:31:23,685 --> 00:31:24,495
I let it be known.

1427
00:31:24,555 --> 00:31:25,545
I'm not on that.

1428
00:31:25,725 --> 00:31:26,925
I let it be like, and a lot

1429
00:31:26,925 --> 00:31:28,725
of dudes aren't on that bro.

1430
00:31:28,785 --> 00:31:29,505
A lot of dudes can't

1431
00:31:29,505 --> 00:31:30,375
admit when they wrong.

1432
00:31:30,405 --> 00:31:32,415
A lot of dudes can't take they pride

1433
00:31:32,420 --> 00:31:33,795
outta the situation and not worry about

1434
00:31:33,795 --> 00:31:35,085
looking like a ***** or something like

1435
00:31:35,085 --> 00:31:36,825
that, or looking like a pussy and just

1436
00:31:36,825 --> 00:31:38,175
be real and be like, bro, I'm sorry.

1437
00:31:38,355 --> 00:31:38,775
My fault.

1438
00:31:38,780 --> 00:31:40,605
I, I, I fall back.

1439
00:31:41,025 --> 00:31:42,325
A lot of dudes can't walk away from that.

1440
00:31:42,330 --> 00:31:43,155
Takes a lot of maturity.

1441
00:31:43,155 --> 00:31:43,545
Thats a man.

1442
00:31:43,545 --> 00:31:45,165
It takes a lot of, takes a lot of.

1443
00:31:45,395 --> 00:31:46,754
And way more than just maturity.

1444
00:31:46,754 --> 00:31:47,775
It takes a lot of like

1445
00:31:47,985 --> 00:31:49,305
swallowing your ego, bro.

1446
00:31:49,485 --> 00:31:49,845
For sure.

1447
00:31:49,845 --> 00:31:50,835
And for a man, bro.

1448
00:31:51,075 --> 00:31:51,435
Exactly.

1449
00:31:51,435 --> 00:31:52,514
That is one of the hardest

1450
00:31:52,514 --> 00:31:53,264
thing for mens to do.

1451
00:31:53,355 --> 00:31:53,955
Like Exactly.

1452
00:31:54,555 --> 00:31:55,725
We know we have all grown men.

1453
00:31:55,725 --> 00:31:57,165
I know 45 year old men who will

1454
00:31:57,285 --> 00:32:00,225
not apologize at all facts at all.

1455
00:32:00,435 --> 00:32:00,735
You know?

1456
00:32:01,065 --> 00:32:02,504
And the thing is like, I can't

1457
00:32:02,504 --> 00:32:03,885
call you a man for your age.

1458
00:32:04,065 --> 00:32:06,105
I can't, just because your biological age

1459
00:32:06,105 --> 00:32:09,915
says 45, 50, 38 facts it, that does not

1460
00:32:09,915 --> 00:32:11,055
make you a man, this grown *** man out

1461
00:32:11,055 --> 00:32:12,195
here that don't take care of their kids.

1462
00:32:12,195 --> 00:32:13,335
I don't give a **** what you say.

1463
00:32:13,425 --> 00:32:13,485
Yeah.

1464
00:32:13,485 --> 00:32:14,625
I don't give a **** how old you is.

1465
00:32:14,625 --> 00:32:15,735
You don't take care of your kids.

1466
00:32:15,740 --> 00:32:17,445
You, you not a man to me.

1467
00:32:17,595 --> 00:32:18,135
Exactly.

1468
00:32:18,285 --> 00:32:18,945
To me at all.

1469
00:32:19,004 --> 00:32:20,145
I'm not gonna call you no man.

1470
00:32:20,175 --> 00:32:20,355
Yeah.

1471
00:32:20,360 --> 00:32:21,254
I'm not gonna act like when you

1472
00:32:21,254 --> 00:32:23,085
come around that you doing man ****.

1473
00:32:23,175 --> 00:32:23,745
Exactly.

1474
00:32:23,835 --> 00:32:25,275
Especially if I see you with money.

1475
00:32:25,455 --> 00:32:26,595
Oh my god.

1476
00:32:27,045 --> 00:32:28,845
Ah, that might, ugh, I don't even

1477
00:32:28,845 --> 00:32:30,105
wanna talk about how that make me feel.

1478
00:32:30,105 --> 00:32:31,785
I don't like being around

1479
00:32:31,790 --> 00:32:32,805
dudes that be doing that.

1480
00:32:32,810 --> 00:32:33,285
Like I.

1481
00:32:33,660 --> 00:32:34,710
Especially when I seeing

1482
00:32:34,830 --> 00:32:36,600
do baby mom post every day.

1483
00:32:36,600 --> 00:32:38,250
Like, you know how that go.

1484
00:32:38,310 --> 00:32:38,520
Yeah.

1485
00:32:38,580 --> 00:32:40,230
Oh, I wonder how I'm gonna

1486
00:32:40,230 --> 00:32:41,250
get this, this, and that.

1487
00:32:41,250 --> 00:32:42,130
And it's just be crazy, bro.

1488
00:32:42,135 --> 00:32:42,180
Crazy.

1489
00:32:42,185 --> 00:32:43,410
Why we been posting our

1490
00:32:43,410 --> 00:32:44,940
situations though on social media.

1491
00:32:44,940 --> 00:32:46,110
I think we've, we've made social

1492
00:32:46,110 --> 00:32:47,400
media into a really big thing.

1493
00:32:47,400 --> 00:32:47,760
We can't help that, bro.

1494
00:32:48,090 --> 00:32:48,750
People can't help that.

1495
00:32:48,750 --> 00:32:50,670
People have this thing in their head

1496
00:32:50,670 --> 00:32:52,710
where they feel like social media,

1497
00:32:52,740 --> 00:32:54,300
their, their life and social media

1498
00:32:54,300 --> 00:32:55,680
is intertwined in the same thing.

1499
00:32:55,680 --> 00:32:56,130
That is very true.

1500
00:32:56,130 --> 00:32:57,540
They feel like people living their life

1501
00:32:57,570 --> 00:32:59,250
on social media like it's real life.

1502
00:32:59,460 --> 00:32:59,760
Yeah.

1503
00:32:59,820 --> 00:33:00,450
That's why people get

1504
00:33:00,450 --> 00:33:01,380
killed on social media.

1505
00:33:01,380 --> 00:33:02,700
That's why people get hurt.

1506
00:33:03,030 --> 00:33:03,090
Yeah.

1507
00:33:03,090 --> 00:33:04,170
That's why people get beat the *******.

1508
00:33:04,200 --> 00:33:04,260
Yeah.

1509
00:33:04,265 --> 00:33:05,460
That's why people end up marrying

1510
00:33:05,460 --> 00:33:06,810
people they only knew and met off

1511
00:33:06,810 --> 00:33:08,550
social media and then ******* divorcing

1512
00:33:08,555 --> 00:33:09,930
and having horrible *** situations.

1513
00:33:09,930 --> 00:33:10,320
You know what I'm saying?

1514
00:33:10,320 --> 00:33:10,740
Like, yeah.

1515
00:33:11,220 --> 00:33:11,910
I don't understand.

1516
00:33:11,910 --> 00:33:13,590
Like, I'm not saying you can't find love

1517
00:33:13,590 --> 00:33:15,050
on the internet 'cause it's gonna lie.

1518
00:33:15,240 --> 00:33:17,430
'cause a lot of people have, I'm a victim.

1519
00:33:18,210 --> 00:33:18,900
I ain't gonna lie.

1520
00:33:19,050 --> 00:33:19,410
Really?

1521
00:33:19,620 --> 00:33:20,100
I mean, yeah.

1522
00:33:20,105 --> 00:33:21,720
Like a lot of people have found love off

1523
00:33:21,725 --> 00:33:23,460
of social media at time, but that doesn't

1524
00:33:23,460 --> 00:33:25,230
negate the fact that a lot of things,

1525
00:33:25,230 --> 00:33:26,280
you still gotta meet somebody though.

1526
00:33:26,820 --> 00:33:27,420
Yeah, that's true.

1527
00:33:27,570 --> 00:33:29,100
A lot of people belong since

1528
00:33:29,100 --> 00:33:30,210
dating and never met nobody.

1529
00:33:30,210 --> 00:33:32,760
I remember I was like 17, 18.

1530
00:33:33,090 --> 00:33:35,550
Socks to this girl from a while away and

1531
00:33:35,550 --> 00:33:37,650
I was in head over heels by this girl.

1532
00:33:37,650 --> 00:33:39,000
Loved her, loved everything

1533
00:33:39,000 --> 00:33:40,110
about her talking to her, just

1534
00:33:40,110 --> 00:33:41,130
conversation and **** like that.

1535
00:33:41,790 --> 00:33:43,170
I ain't never met this girl that

1536
00:33:43,175 --> 00:33:44,400
seems like a pen pal to me, man.

1537
00:33:44,640 --> 00:33:45,240
I mean, yeah.

1538
00:33:45,240 --> 00:33:45,900
You feel what I'm saying?

1539
00:33:45,900 --> 00:33:46,980
Like, I don't, but I mean like

1540
00:33:46,980 --> 00:33:48,450
holding onto the thought of if it's

1541
00:33:48,450 --> 00:33:49,440
gonna go anywhere, like, you know.

1542
00:33:49,440 --> 00:33:49,441
Yeah.

1543
00:33:49,770 --> 00:33:50,010
Yeah.

1544
00:33:50,010 --> 00:33:50,370
That's fact.

1545
00:33:50,375 --> 00:33:50,940
Like you said pen.

1546
00:33:51,270 --> 00:33:51,570
Yeah.

1547
00:33:51,600 --> 00:33:53,040
Like, bro, like I wish I had

1548
00:33:53,040 --> 00:33:54,300
somebody that could be a pen pal now.

1549
00:33:54,300 --> 00:33:55,470
Like that would be nice.

1550
00:33:55,740 --> 00:33:56,730
They, you don't never get

1551
00:33:56,730 --> 00:33:57,840
no picture of the pen pal.

1552
00:33:58,110 --> 00:33:59,760
I feel like I was in a broke situation.

1553
00:34:01,590 --> 00:34:03,300
They sent a pic, they sent like a little

1554
00:34:03,300 --> 00:34:05,400
like, um, manila picture in the jungle.

1555
00:34:05,400 --> 00:34:05,580
Nah.

1556
00:34:05,585 --> 00:34:05,850
Okay.

1557
00:34:05,850 --> 00:34:07,590
So my, my experience with pen

1558
00:34:07,590 --> 00:34:09,150
pals, bro, it is like movies.

1559
00:34:09,150 --> 00:34:10,170
So like they didn't actually

1560
00:34:10,199 --> 00:34:11,279
do that in my high school.

1561
00:34:11,279 --> 00:34:11,940
Oh, my elementary school?

1562
00:34:11,940 --> 00:34:12,940
No, no, we was in elementary school.

1563
00:34:12,960 --> 00:34:13,469
School, yeah.

1564
00:34:13,469 --> 00:34:14,130
They didn't do that at my

1565
00:34:14,130 --> 00:34:14,940
elementary school, bro.

1566
00:34:14,940 --> 00:34:15,540
Like, what the ****?

1567
00:34:15,540 --> 00:34:16,469
Don't elementary, what

1568
00:34:16,710 --> 00:34:17,549
are you from here, bro?

1569
00:34:17,639 --> 00:34:17,940
No.

1570
00:34:18,379 --> 00:34:19,199
Where are you from?

1571
00:34:19,199 --> 00:34:19,889
I'm from Fayetteville.

1572
00:34:20,159 --> 00:34:20,909
Oh God no.

1573
00:34:20,909 --> 00:34:21,810
Yeah, they had it there, yo.

1574
00:34:22,679 --> 00:34:23,929
Dang, I'm sorry.

1575
00:34:24,669 --> 00:34:26,459
Oh man, why you do be like that?

1576
00:34:26,459 --> 00:34:27,449
It's ****** up out there man.

1577
00:34:27,659 --> 00:34:28,350
I ain't realize it was

1578
00:34:28,350 --> 00:34:29,159
so ****** up out there.

1579
00:34:29,219 --> 00:34:30,870
Yeah, it's not the best situation man.

1580
00:34:31,139 --> 00:34:31,889
You know what I'm saying?

1581
00:34:31,919 --> 00:34:32,009
Mm-hmm.

1582
00:34:32,310 --> 00:34:33,959
Um, but you know, everybody

1583
00:34:33,959 --> 00:34:34,770
stay safe out there man.

1584
00:34:34,770 --> 00:34:35,189
I love y'all.

1585
00:34:36,870 --> 00:34:37,529
Shout out to y'all though.

1586
00:34:37,529 --> 00:34:37,949
I ain't gonna lie.

1587
00:34:37,949 --> 00:34:38,689
I got some good food.

1588
00:34:39,080 --> 00:34:39,730
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

1589
00:34:39,799 --> 00:34:40,850
Favo does have some good food.

1590
00:34:40,855 --> 00:34:41,489
Chinese food is good.

1591
00:34:41,489 --> 00:34:43,109
I don't know what y'all necessarily like.

1592
00:34:43,109 --> 00:34:43,980
Why specifically?

1593
00:34:43,984 --> 00:34:45,120
Just y'all Chinese food is

1594
00:34:45,120 --> 00:34:45,929
really hitting out there.

1595
00:34:45,989 --> 00:34:46,500
Yeah.

1596
00:34:46,560 --> 00:34:47,279
By all the little food

1597
00:34:47,284 --> 00:34:48,120
lines and **** like that.

1598
00:34:48,149 --> 00:34:48,839
Yeah, it bro.

1599
00:34:49,109 --> 00:34:50,339
Yes, I know exactly what

1600
00:34:50,339 --> 00:34:51,000
you're talking about.

1601
00:34:51,270 --> 00:34:52,439
I don't know if Food Lion got some

1602
00:34:52,439 --> 00:34:53,520
type of deal going on with 'em

1603
00:34:53,524 --> 00:34:55,139
people, but hey they doing they ****.

1604
00:34:55,139 --> 00:34:55,319
Shout out.

1605
00:34:55,324 --> 00:34:56,219
It is banging man.

1606
00:34:56,219 --> 00:34:57,359
And honestly, like the fact that

1607
00:34:57,359 --> 00:34:58,919
they still been up and running

1608
00:34:58,919 --> 00:35:00,180
through this recession is crazy.

1609
00:35:00,180 --> 00:35:01,020
Like I love it for 'em.

1610
00:35:01,020 --> 00:35:01,649
You know what I'm saying?

1611
00:35:01,904 --> 00:35:02,925
Said through the recession.

1612
00:35:02,955 --> 00:35:04,395
I think they was gonna eat regardless.

1613
00:35:04,455 --> 00:35:05,805
Literally, I think they was

1614
00:35:05,805 --> 00:35:08,235
gonna eat regardless who was not

1615
00:35:08,235 --> 00:35:09,435
gonna keep buying Chinese food.

1616
00:35:09,585 --> 00:35:10,515
We still end up in

1617
00:35:10,520 --> 00:35:11,415
their establishments go.

1618
00:35:12,195 --> 00:35:12,975
I mean, I ain't gonna

1619
00:35:12,980 --> 00:35:13,845
lie to you though, man.

1620
00:35:13,850 --> 00:35:15,795
They, they update prices, Chinese people.

1621
00:35:15,795 --> 00:35:16,154
Definitely.

1622
00:35:16,154 --> 00:35:16,395
Yes.

1623
00:35:16,395 --> 00:35:16,935
They up the prices.

1624
00:35:16,935 --> 00:35:17,265
I didn't know.

1625
00:35:17,265 --> 00:35:18,315
I didn't even know.

1626
00:35:18,465 --> 00:35:19,065
See, that's what I'm saying.

1627
00:35:19,065 --> 00:35:20,115
You just paying, you

1628
00:35:20,115 --> 00:35:21,165
not even noticing, bro.

1629
00:35:21,404 --> 00:35:22,485
The menu don't look the same.

1630
00:35:22,485 --> 00:35:23,025
There you go.

1631
00:35:23,865 --> 00:35:24,435
I don't even care.

1632
00:35:24,435 --> 00:35:25,035
Get my food.

1633
00:35:25,035 --> 00:35:25,634
Extra egg roll.

1634
00:35:25,634 --> 00:35:26,205
That's all I ask.

1635
00:35:26,205 --> 00:35:27,435
Want the menu?

1636
00:35:27,435 --> 00:35:28,634
Don't look the same bro.

1637
00:35:28,634 --> 00:35:29,625
The prices is different.

1638
00:35:30,105 --> 00:35:30,285
I didn't even think

1639
00:35:30,285 --> 00:35:30,975
about that **** though.

1640
00:35:30,975 --> 00:35:32,055
I swear I didn't, man.

1641
00:35:32,115 --> 00:35:32,715
Yes, yes bro.

1642
00:35:32,715 --> 00:35:33,134
That's crazy because

1643
00:35:33,134 --> 00:35:34,105
we so bro, I remember.

1644
00:35:34,920 --> 00:35:36,509
And this is how I know I was in a

1645
00:35:36,509 --> 00:35:38,009
lower socioeconomic status, bro.

1646
00:35:38,009 --> 00:35:40,109
Because like in some of the Chinese

1647
00:35:40,109 --> 00:35:42,240
places, man, they got like this, this

1648
00:35:42,240 --> 00:35:44,759
faded, yeah, this faded menu up top.

1649
00:35:44,765 --> 00:35:44,819
Yeah.

1650
00:35:44,819 --> 00:35:46,710
And everything, the pictures looked

1651
00:35:46,710 --> 00:35:48,569
like they were posted from Google.

1652
00:35:48,569 --> 00:35:48,660
****.

1653
00:35:48,690 --> 00:35:49,200
Yeah.

1654
00:35:49,200 --> 00:35:51,480
Like, like I'm like look like they ain't

1655
00:35:51,480 --> 00:35:53,370
been changed the last 10 them years.

1656
00:35:53,399 --> 00:35:54,089
Exactly.

1657
00:35:54,089 --> 00:35:55,379
But I'm still looking at this

1658
00:35:55,379 --> 00:35:56,819
like, ****, that **** look good.

1659
00:35:59,940 --> 00:36:00,359
Hey y'all.

1660
00:36:01,230 --> 00:36:02,160
Nah no cap though.

1661
00:36:02,160 --> 00:36:03,149
That **** is terrible though.

1662
00:36:03,149 --> 00:36:03,529
Yes, right.

1663
00:36:03,535 --> 00:36:04,440
That **** is horrible that you

1664
00:36:04,440 --> 00:36:05,879
looking at old food like ****,

1665
00:36:05,884 --> 00:36:06,609
that **** still look busting.

1666
00:36:06,660 --> 00:36:07,890
I'm promise you I get

1667
00:36:07,890 --> 00:36:08,910
that with the little name.

1668
00:36:08,940 --> 00:36:09,870
Exactly.

1669
00:36:09,875 --> 00:36:10,920
Like **** bus they

1670
00:36:10,920 --> 00:36:12,509
charging $9 for that ****.

1671
00:36:13,085 --> 00:36:15,390
Like I hate, but I'm not gonna lie,

1672
00:36:15,390 --> 00:36:16,440
this is gonna sound messed up bro.

1673
00:36:16,440 --> 00:36:18,509
I've always wanted to be like tuned with

1674
00:36:18,515 --> 00:36:19,710
different, like I've always wanted to

1675
00:36:19,710 --> 00:36:22,770
just know Chinese people, Hispanic people.

1676
00:36:22,770 --> 00:36:23,940
I've always wanted Why is that messed up?

1677
00:36:24,480 --> 00:36:25,740
Because like when you say it like that,

1678
00:36:25,740 --> 00:36:26,609
it just sounds like you just wanna

1679
00:36:26,609 --> 00:36:27,450
know them because they're different.

1680
00:36:28,200 --> 00:36:29,160
And that's not why I, I've,

1681
00:36:29,600 --> 00:36:30,630
I, I never thought about that.

1682
00:36:30,630 --> 00:36:33,000
I wanna go and live in Japan for like five

1683
00:36:33,005 --> 00:36:36,120
years when I go and make my anime, I don't

1684
00:36:36,125 --> 00:36:37,290
wanna disclose the name 'cause I don't

1685
00:36:37,295 --> 00:36:38,340
know if somebody gonna take into idea.

1686
00:36:38,340 --> 00:36:39,780
It's So you're looking into making anime?

1687
00:36:39,780 --> 00:36:40,110
Yes.

1688
00:36:40,110 --> 00:36:41,430
Can you, can you do animation?

1689
00:36:41,610 --> 00:36:42,000
Yes, bro.

1690
00:36:42,005 --> 00:36:43,020
I, I, well, I can draw.

1691
00:36:43,020 --> 00:36:43,950
I've been drawing my whole life.

1692
00:36:43,950 --> 00:36:45,660
I, um, I came up with my own,

1693
00:36:45,660 --> 00:36:46,860
um, design for my tattoo.

1694
00:36:46,950 --> 00:36:48,690
I've been drawn since I was a kid, bro.

1695
00:36:48,690 --> 00:36:50,370
I, my first time, well,

1696
00:36:50,370 --> 00:36:51,660
I've always been a doodler.

1697
00:36:51,660 --> 00:36:53,820
Like I do, I draw on everything

1698
00:36:53,820 --> 00:36:55,590
I was in since the first

1699
00:36:55,590 --> 00:36:56,850
grade up, like kindergarten,

1700
00:36:56,850 --> 00:36:58,740
literally doodling on everything.

1701
00:36:58,800 --> 00:37:00,540
Desk paper, back of the paper.

1702
00:37:00,660 --> 00:37:00,750
Yeah.

1703
00:37:00,750 --> 00:37:02,340
Getting in so much trouble for that ****.

1704
00:37:02,700 --> 00:37:04,740
I was drawn this dragon, I remember,

1705
00:37:04,770 --> 00:37:05,850
I just remember this dragon.

1706
00:37:05,850 --> 00:37:08,130
I was drawing this big *** red wide.

1707
00:37:08,490 --> 00:37:09,480
It was really so big.

1708
00:37:09,480 --> 00:37:10,140
The, the dragon.

1709
00:37:10,170 --> 00:37:11,970
I just mainly drew the dragon's **** head.

1710
00:37:11,970 --> 00:37:12,690
I didn't draw the rest

1711
00:37:12,690 --> 00:37:13,360
of the dragon body bins.

1712
00:37:13,440 --> 00:37:14,430
Just big *** dragon.

1713
00:37:14,430 --> 00:37:15,330
Just whole took up the

1714
00:37:15,335 --> 00:37:16,230
whole back of the paper.

1715
00:37:16,380 --> 00:37:16,680
Okay.

1716
00:37:16,740 --> 00:37:17,790
Weren't even doing the assignment

1717
00:37:17,795 --> 00:37:18,420
we're supposed to do for today.

1718
00:37:18,420 --> 00:37:18,660
Just.

1719
00:37:19,180 --> 00:37:19,740
In my head.

1720
00:37:19,740 --> 00:37:20,549
I really wish we could

1721
00:37:20,549 --> 00:37:21,399
animate this right now.

1722
00:37:21,539 --> 00:37:23,309
I swear I wish I could just, I really

1723
00:37:23,309 --> 00:37:24,509
wish I had a picture of this ****.

1724
00:37:24,539 --> 00:37:25,740
'cause I swear it was so crazy.

1725
00:37:25,740 --> 00:37:27,569
Like, okay, I'm drawing this ****, right.

1726
00:37:27,600 --> 00:37:27,839
Mm-hmm.

1727
00:37:27,930 --> 00:37:28,709
I'm going crazy.

1728
00:37:28,740 --> 00:37:29,939
I'm, I'm, I'm talking about

1729
00:37:29,944 --> 00:37:30,839
time getting away from me.

1730
00:37:30,839 --> 00:37:31,979
I'm not even, I'm really in the

1731
00:37:31,984 --> 00:37:33,269
mode of drawing this dragon.

1732
00:37:33,274 --> 00:37:33,479
Okay.

1733
00:37:34,350 --> 00:37:35,789
My art teacher, she always should do this

1734
00:37:35,794 --> 00:37:36,930
thing where she'd be sneaking up behind

1735
00:37:36,930 --> 00:37:37,890
me, seeing what the **** I'm doing.

1736
00:37:37,890 --> 00:37:38,129
Right.

1737
00:37:38,160 --> 00:37:38,490
Okay.

1738
00:37:39,149 --> 00:37:40,979
And Miss Worthington, if you see this,

1739
00:37:41,069 --> 00:37:42,959
just know you inspired a lot of ****.

1740
00:37:43,019 --> 00:37:43,410
Wow.

1741
00:37:43,439 --> 00:37:44,249
Shout out Miss Worthington.

1742
00:37:44,249 --> 00:37:44,640
Shout out Ms.

1743
00:37:44,720 --> 00:37:45,200
Ton for me.

1744
00:37:45,204 --> 00:37:46,140
That's a hard last name.

1745
00:37:46,140 --> 00:37:46,740
Worthington.

1746
00:37:46,745 --> 00:37:48,180
Worthington, it sounds like from a book.

1747
00:37:48,180 --> 00:37:49,499
I used to think she was so mean,

1748
00:37:49,529 --> 00:37:52,799
but she was just so, so, uh, stoic.

1749
00:37:52,979 --> 00:37:53,609
That's the word for it.

1750
00:37:53,615 --> 00:37:54,450
Stoic.

1751
00:37:54,479 --> 00:37:55,740
She was just like, you know, just.

1752
00:37:56,115 --> 00:37:58,515
Just quiet and just serious.

1753
00:37:59,055 --> 00:37:59,805
And it threw me off a

1754
00:37:59,805 --> 00:38:00,464
lot as a kid, you know?

1755
00:38:00,495 --> 00:38:02,145
'cause a kid, you a ******* goofball.

1756
00:38:02,174 --> 00:38:02,895
Yeah.

1757
00:38:02,895 --> 00:38:03,855
And you know, when you think somebody

1758
00:38:03,855 --> 00:38:04,904
in a goofball, you think they're trying,

1759
00:38:04,935 --> 00:38:05,805
they're mean or something like that.

1760
00:38:05,805 --> 00:38:05,865
Yeah.

1761
00:38:05,865 --> 00:38:06,765
But that's just what it was.

1762
00:38:06,975 --> 00:38:08,384
So she sneaking up behind me, right.

1763
00:38:08,955 --> 00:38:09,825
Well, not sneaking up behind

1764
00:38:09,825 --> 00:38:10,694
me, but she's behind me.

1765
00:38:10,694 --> 00:38:11,355
I'm not even noticing.

1766
00:38:11,355 --> 00:38:12,765
I'm just doodling and

1767
00:38:12,765 --> 00:38:13,785
she's picking up my paper.

1768
00:38:13,964 --> 00:38:15,105
Like, I just seen an arm reach over

1769
00:38:15,105 --> 00:38:16,274
me and like, picking up my paper.

1770
00:38:16,274 --> 00:38:17,384
Like, just get a better look.

1771
00:38:17,384 --> 00:38:18,404
And I'm like, oh, oh nah.

1772
00:38:18,404 --> 00:38:19,634
I was just, I, I'm like,

1773
00:38:19,634 --> 00:38:20,714
oh, I'm, I know I'm caught.

1774
00:38:20,714 --> 00:38:21,254
I'm like, oh ****.

1775
00:38:21,254 --> 00:38:22,995
She about to say choice, like, nah.

1776
00:38:22,995 --> 00:38:23,714
It's just, you know, I was

1777
00:38:23,714 --> 00:38:24,404
just a little something.

1778
00:38:24,645 --> 00:38:25,634
She was like, Hmm, what's this?

1779
00:38:26,234 --> 00:38:27,944
I was like, it's a dragon.

1780
00:38:28,694 --> 00:38:29,145
It's a dragon.

1781
00:38:29,444 --> 00:38:30,015
It's a dragon.

1782
00:38:30,105 --> 00:38:30,435
Yeah.

1783
00:38:30,615 --> 00:38:31,904
She was like, Hmm, would

1784
00:38:31,904 --> 00:38:33,225
you mind if I, um, had this?

1785
00:38:33,884 --> 00:38:35,565
I was like, uh, sure.

1786
00:38:35,625 --> 00:38:35,835
Yeah.

1787
00:38:35,835 --> 00:38:36,165
**** yeah.

1788
00:38:36,165 --> 00:38:36,435
Sure.

1789
00:38:36,524 --> 00:38:36,855
Yeah.

1790
00:38:36,884 --> 00:38:38,145
As a kid, this is how I

1791
00:38:38,145 --> 00:38:39,045
feel like I was reacting.

1792
00:38:39,045 --> 00:38:40,575
I'm just, I'm pretty sure

1793
00:38:40,575 --> 00:38:41,444
I didn't react like that.

1794
00:38:41,895 --> 00:38:43,424
I wanna say like two weeks passed.

1795
00:38:43,575 --> 00:38:44,865
We had like a parent-teacher

1796
00:38:44,865 --> 00:38:45,615
day or something like that.

1797
00:38:45,620 --> 00:38:45,865
Yeah.

1798
00:38:46,305 --> 00:38:47,415
And my mom went out there

1799
00:38:47,415 --> 00:38:48,404
and we was visiting all my

1800
00:38:48,404 --> 00:38:49,335
classes and **** like that.

1801
00:38:49,339 --> 00:38:49,585
Mm-hmm.

1802
00:38:49,815 --> 00:38:51,495
And so she went to my art class and

1803
00:38:51,495 --> 00:38:52,424
she's talking to Miss Weatherston

1804
00:38:52,430 --> 00:38:53,444
and **** like that, and Miss weather.

1805
00:38:53,444 --> 00:38:54,045
She's talking to her.

1806
00:38:54,495 --> 00:38:55,904
She's like, ours is real creative.

1807
00:38:55,904 --> 00:38:57,435
And, um, you know, he, he's just a

1808
00:38:57,524 --> 00:38:59,085
real colorful mind, you know, stuff.

1809
00:38:59,355 --> 00:39:00,855
He has a little hard time, you know,

1810
00:39:00,884 --> 00:39:02,835
paying attention and staying on task.

1811
00:39:02,835 --> 00:39:05,295
But I think he has a really big, um,

1812
00:39:05,475 --> 00:39:07,004
career in art and stuff like that.

1813
00:39:07,004 --> 00:39:08,444
Like I really think he's a great artist.

1814
00:39:08,444 --> 00:39:08,504
Wow.

1815
00:39:08,805 --> 00:39:09,345
And stuff like that.

1816
00:39:09,444 --> 00:39:10,605
And like, I ain't gonna lie, I'm

1817
00:39:10,605 --> 00:39:12,045
thinking I'm just about to be in trouble.

1818
00:39:12,165 --> 00:39:12,645
Yeah.

1819
00:39:12,645 --> 00:39:14,115
Because it was like, um, this, I had

1820
00:39:14,115 --> 00:39:15,495
this confiscate some work for him the

1821
00:39:15,495 --> 00:39:17,145
other day, but, and it wasn't a part

1822
00:39:17,145 --> 00:39:18,555
of our assignment, but I'm almost

1823
00:39:18,560 --> 00:39:19,845
sad because it was so beautiful.

1824
00:39:19,845 --> 00:39:21,045
I really wish it was a part of our

1825
00:39:21,045 --> 00:39:21,975
assignment that we had to have.

1826
00:39:22,274 --> 00:39:25,035
And she sold the, um, The art what I did.

1827
00:39:25,154 --> 00:39:25,334
Yeah.

1828
00:39:25,395 --> 00:39:26,564
It was so good that I actually

1829
00:39:26,564 --> 00:39:27,584
talked to some friends over at

1830
00:39:27,584 --> 00:39:28,845
the Greenville Museum of Art.

1831
00:39:28,850 --> 00:39:29,115
Mm-hmm.

1832
00:39:29,504 --> 00:39:31,125
And she was like, um, they wanted

1833
00:39:31,125 --> 00:39:32,475
to enter it in, um, put it on the

1834
00:39:32,475 --> 00:39:33,825
wall out there and I wanna say like

1835
00:39:33,825 --> 00:39:36,194
2006 or five or something like that.

1836
00:39:36,200 --> 00:39:37,334
I had my art out in the,

1837
00:39:37,334 --> 00:39:38,865
um, museum of Art, bro.

1838
00:39:39,105 --> 00:39:39,555
Wow.

1839
00:39:39,555 --> 00:39:40,665
As a kid, a child, bro.

1840
00:39:40,665 --> 00:39:41,444
That's nice, man.

1841
00:39:41,444 --> 00:39:43,845
I felt so accomplished after that.

1842
00:39:43,845 --> 00:39:44,654
I swear to God.

1843
00:39:44,805 --> 00:39:45,975
I didn't know how to draw.

1844
00:39:46,515 --> 00:39:47,294
And you know what's so crazy?

1845
00:39:47,415 --> 00:39:48,555
That was the ugliest ****

1846
00:39:48,555 --> 00:39:49,845
I ever draw in my life.

1847
00:39:50,115 --> 00:39:52,605
But after that, I became such an like,

1848
00:39:53,430 --> 00:39:55,289
I'm talking about attention to detail art.

1849
00:39:55,289 --> 00:39:56,450
Like I was really, I was so,

1850
00:39:56,609 --> 00:39:58,139
'cause that gave you like,

1851
00:39:58,139 --> 00:39:59,459
that bolstered your confidence.

1852
00:39:59,459 --> 00:40:00,959
Literally, whenever you feel confident

1853
00:40:00,964 --> 00:40:02,459
in something, you go gun gun-ho in it.

1854
00:40:02,464 --> 00:40:02,609
Yeah.

1855
00:40:02,609 --> 00:40:03,769
It helps you really succeed,

1856
00:40:03,769 --> 00:40:04,289
even if you're not good at it.

1857
00:40:04,359 --> 00:40:06,180
Even if you really not good at it, you'll

1858
00:40:06,180 --> 00:40:07,619
really believe that you're so good at,

1859
00:40:07,740 --> 00:40:09,689
if somebody makes you believe that you

1860
00:40:09,694 --> 00:40:12,299
have a skill in something, if they truly

1861
00:40:12,305 --> 00:40:13,950
make and boost your confidence enough.

1862
00:40:14,160 --> 00:40:15,269
I swear to God, I, I feel like

1863
00:40:15,269 --> 00:40:17,099
you could **** near, I don't know.

1864
00:40:17,099 --> 00:40:18,299
I feel like I could do a back flip

1865
00:40:18,299 --> 00:40:19,229
if somebody talked me into it.

1866
00:40:19,319 --> 00:40:21,029
But see that's the thing though.

1867
00:40:21,029 --> 00:40:22,499
That's why supportive friends

1868
00:40:22,504 --> 00:40:23,490
and supportive people is

1869
00:40:23,490 --> 00:40:24,450
so necessary around you.

1870
00:40:24,454 --> 00:40:24,869
Back up, bro.

1871
00:40:25,049 --> 00:40:26,459
Because not having that

1872
00:40:26,464 --> 00:40:28,169
support around you mm-hmm.

1873
00:40:28,200 --> 00:40:30,359
Like it, you have to get that confidence

1874
00:40:30,359 --> 00:40:32,549
from yourself and that's good For sure.

1875
00:40:32,759 --> 00:40:35,430
But having a team or having somebody

1876
00:40:35,430 --> 00:40:37,979
saying, yo, like, that's **** hard facts.

1877
00:40:38,039 --> 00:40:39,389
That's why people got Yes men.

1878
00:40:39,689 --> 00:40:40,859
I'll say something just to see

1879
00:40:40,859 --> 00:40:42,029
how somebody gonna respond to it.

1880
00:40:42,319 --> 00:40:42,609
Okay.

1881
00:40:42,869 --> 00:40:44,399
Just to see how, just to, just

1882
00:40:44,399 --> 00:40:45,479
to see where their head's at and,

1883
00:40:45,484 --> 00:40:47,069
and like I, and it's ****** up.

1884
00:40:47,069 --> 00:40:47,999
I know that sounds crazy,

1885
00:40:47,999 --> 00:40:49,379
bro, but I, that's the type of

1886
00:40:49,379 --> 00:40:50,160
person, it doesn't sound crazy.

1887
00:40:50,189 --> 00:40:50,939
I don't be playing with

1888
00:40:50,939 --> 00:40:51,899
people like I really.

1889
00:40:52,245 --> 00:40:54,345
The type of person I am now, I really be

1890
00:40:54,345 --> 00:40:56,354
realizing who's for me from the get go.

1891
00:40:56,354 --> 00:40:56,444
Mm-hmm.

1892
00:40:56,444 --> 00:40:57,674
So I know how to go ahead and

1893
00:40:57,674 --> 00:40:58,904
realize what the relationship is.

1894
00:40:58,910 --> 00:40:59,104
Mm-hmm.

1895
00:40:59,184 --> 00:41:01,424
It's my fault when I was younger is

1896
00:41:01,754 --> 00:41:03,374
developing relationships with people first

1897
00:41:03,379 --> 00:41:05,055
and not seeing who they was for, like,

1898
00:41:05,234 --> 00:41:08,414
not having an I who like paying attention

1899
00:41:08,414 --> 00:41:10,214
to different faults that they had.

1900
00:41:10,334 --> 00:41:10,484
Mm-hmm.

1901
00:41:10,486 --> 00:41:10,904
Or different things that

1902
00:41:11,084 --> 00:41:12,015
I didn't necessarily like.

1903
00:41:12,134 --> 00:41:12,225
Mm-hmm.

1904
00:41:12,285 --> 00:41:12,794
I would ignore it.

1905
00:41:13,095 --> 00:41:14,624
Like, ah, he's a little stingy, but

1906
00:41:14,624 --> 00:41:17,115
I, you know, uh, he's a little broke.

1907
00:41:17,535 --> 00:41:18,734
Not even like a bad thing, but I'm

1908
00:41:18,734 --> 00:41:20,805
saying broke as in like, like has

1909
00:41:20,805 --> 00:41:21,854
money to do all this other dumb ***

1910
00:41:21,854 --> 00:41:23,984
****, but can, but always run outta

1911
00:41:23,984 --> 00:41:24,975
money and then ask you for money

1912
00:41:24,975 --> 00:41:26,024
and then can't pay you back for it.

1913
00:41:26,084 --> 00:41:26,684
Gotcha.

1914
00:41:26,684 --> 00:41:26,685
Gotcha.

1915
00:41:26,774 --> 00:41:27,044
Yeah.

1916
00:41:27,075 --> 00:41:27,345
Yeah.

1917
00:41:28,065 --> 00:41:29,595
I'm like, but I used to ignore

1918
00:41:29,595 --> 00:41:30,525
**** like that when I was a kid.

1919
00:41:30,525 --> 00:41:31,545
'cause I'm, I just wanted friends.

1920
00:41:32,145 --> 00:41:33,555
That's all I ever wanted was friends, bro.

1921
00:41:34,154 --> 00:41:35,265
As you can see, the scene

1922
00:41:35,265 --> 00:41:36,134
changed a little bit.

1923
00:41:36,140 --> 00:41:38,085
Man, I hope y'all like this logo.

1924
00:41:38,085 --> 00:41:38,174
Sure.

1925
00:41:38,180 --> 00:41:39,555
Because this **** is hard.

1926
00:41:39,735 --> 00:41:40,485
Definitely gotta gimme one bro.

1927
00:41:41,145 --> 00:41:41,654
I ain't gonna lie.

1928
00:41:41,985 --> 00:41:43,395
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

1929
00:41:43,575 --> 00:41:44,985
But we are having a, a really

1930
00:41:44,990 --> 00:41:46,424
good in-depth conversation,

1931
00:41:46,515 --> 00:41:47,895
uh, off camera and everything.

1932
00:41:47,895 --> 00:41:48,884
Had to get this man a little

1933
00:41:49,095 --> 00:41:50,115
drink of water, you feel me?

1934
00:41:50,115 --> 00:41:51,555
It was getting a little hot out here.

1935
00:41:51,795 --> 00:41:52,995
Ain't nothing wrong with it.

1936
00:41:53,205 --> 00:41:54,765
You are an artist, right?

1937
00:41:55,185 --> 00:41:55,365
Yes, sir.

1938
00:41:55,545 --> 00:41:58,395
And so when it comes to your

1939
00:41:58,395 --> 00:42:00,315
artistry, where did that stem from?

1940
00:42:00,375 --> 00:42:01,395
What's the, what's the, what's

1941
00:42:01,395 --> 00:42:02,325
the background with that?

1942
00:42:02,985 --> 00:42:05,025
I could be honest and say, uh, when

1943
00:42:05,025 --> 00:42:07,005
I was younger, I was part of this rap

1944
00:42:07,005 --> 00:42:09,045
group with a, uh, older friend that

1945
00:42:09,045 --> 00:42:10,665
I had, that I looked up to a lot.

1946
00:42:10,855 --> 00:42:11,145
Okay.

1947
00:42:11,895 --> 00:42:14,325
He did inspire me and did motivate

1948
00:42:14,325 --> 00:42:15,975
me a lot at that age that I was

1949
00:42:15,975 --> 00:42:18,779
at to, you know, Do what I wanted

1950
00:42:18,785 --> 00:42:20,640
to do and stick out and be, not be

1951
00:42:20,640 --> 00:42:22,379
ashamed, not be ashamed of who I was.

1952
00:42:22,560 --> 00:42:22,799
Yeah.

1953
00:42:22,950 --> 00:42:24,390
You know, he put me on, he's the guy

1954
00:42:24,390 --> 00:42:26,069
that put me on to Tyler, the creator,

1955
00:42:26,430 --> 00:42:27,839
this guy that put me on to different,

1956
00:42:27,900 --> 00:42:30,180
um, you know, just different underground

1957
00:42:30,180 --> 00:42:31,259
artists at the time, you know?

1958
00:42:31,290 --> 00:42:31,440
Yeah.

1959
00:42:32,069 --> 00:42:33,569
This is back in 2012 where

1960
00:42:33,569 --> 00:42:35,000
underground music was shout you at

1961
00:42:35,000 --> 00:42:37,140
the height, at, you know, everything.

1962
00:42:37,379 --> 00:42:37,560
Yeah.

1963
00:42:37,560 --> 00:42:38,549
And so, you know, that changed

1964
00:42:38,549 --> 00:42:39,839
the dynamic of where I was.

1965
00:42:40,620 --> 00:42:41,819
I can, I can give him credit that he

1966
00:42:41,819 --> 00:42:45,509
changed the dynamic of where my attention

1967
00:42:45,509 --> 00:42:48,060
was at as far as where like my craft was.

1968
00:42:48,060 --> 00:42:49,890
Like I was opened up to a whole new

1969
00:42:49,890 --> 00:42:51,600
world of, you know, possibilities of

1970
00:42:51,750 --> 00:42:54,390
different sounds and different aspects of

1971
00:42:54,390 --> 00:42:56,160
music and different, you know, thoughts.

1972
00:42:56,339 --> 00:42:56,580
Yeah.

1973
00:42:56,580 --> 00:42:58,000
He introduced me to alternative.

1974
00:42:58,430 --> 00:42:58,720
Okay.

1975
00:42:58,740 --> 00:43:00,029
He was an alternative artist.

1976
00:43:00,150 --> 00:43:00,390
Yeah.

1977
00:43:00,540 --> 00:43:02,310
I'm become an alternative

1978
00:43:02,310 --> 00:43:03,120
artist, but okay.

1979
00:43:03,270 --> 00:43:04,830
He introduced me to the world of

1980
00:43:04,920 --> 00:43:06,870
Tiveness, which means like, you know,

1981
00:43:07,140 --> 00:43:08,970
just being a more open artist to different

1982
00:43:08,970 --> 00:43:10,319
realms of different music, different

1983
00:43:10,319 --> 00:43:12,299
sounds, different cadences, different

1984
00:43:12,299 --> 00:43:14,069
melodies, you know, harmonies different.

1985
00:43:14,265 --> 00:43:14,654
All that.

1986
00:43:14,654 --> 00:43:15,075
You know what I'm saying?

1987
00:43:15,075 --> 00:43:15,165
Mm-hmm.

1988
00:43:15,404 --> 00:43:16,305
It's a whole different way,

1989
00:43:16,455 --> 00:43:17,295
to be honest with you, bro.

1990
00:43:17,295 --> 00:43:19,424
I always, when I was younger, was

1991
00:43:19,424 --> 00:43:20,745
really just making music for fun.

1992
00:43:20,775 --> 00:43:21,495
Well, not just for fun.

1993
00:43:21,495 --> 00:43:23,355
I wanted to be be successful of course.

1994
00:43:23,355 --> 00:43:24,555
Like I, that's the goal.

1995
00:43:24,765 --> 00:43:25,035
Yeah.

1996
00:43:25,125 --> 00:43:27,615
But at the same time, I used to have

1997
00:43:27,615 --> 00:43:29,025
like kids coming up to me, like little

1998
00:43:29,025 --> 00:43:30,435
dudes that was younger than me growing

1999
00:43:30,435 --> 00:43:32,174
up in the same hood I was in, coming

2000
00:43:32,174 --> 00:43:34,485
up to me and you know, giving me props.

2001
00:43:34,485 --> 00:43:36,015
Like, and you gotta understand for like

2002
00:43:36,015 --> 00:43:37,605
a young dude to give you props to, to

2003
00:43:37,665 --> 00:43:39,585
just throw his pride to the side and, and

2004
00:43:40,125 --> 00:43:41,595
praise you for something that you did.

2005
00:43:41,595 --> 00:43:42,765
Especially if he's looking up

2006
00:43:42,765 --> 00:43:44,235
to it, it means a lot to me.

2007
00:43:44,745 --> 00:43:46,065
Or just have people DMing you and

2008
00:43:46,065 --> 00:43:47,445
telling you, yo, like, yo, your song.

2009
00:43:47,445 --> 00:43:49,095
Like, yo, this ****'s hard bro.

2010
00:43:49,095 --> 00:43:50,265
This **** really like, spoke to me.

2011
00:43:50,265 --> 00:43:51,645
I really like, felt that

2012
00:43:51,855 --> 00:43:52,995
it's not a good experience.

2013
00:43:53,025 --> 00:43:53,355
Yeah.

2014
00:43:53,355 --> 00:43:55,185
But it's like, but also, well now

2015
00:43:55,335 --> 00:43:56,715
I look at it like, **** bro, I was

2016
00:43:56,775 --> 00:43:58,095
dropping some real violent ****.

2017
00:43:58,154 --> 00:43:58,965
Like, and motherfuckers

2018
00:43:58,965 --> 00:43:59,835
saying they was feeling that.

2019
00:44:00,075 --> 00:44:01,095
So I can only imagine the

2020
00:44:01,095 --> 00:44:02,174
music that I'm about to drop.

2021
00:44:02,174 --> 00:44:03,975
People always ask me how I feel

2022
00:44:03,975 --> 00:44:05,145
about the old music I used to make.

2023
00:44:05,145 --> 00:44:06,105
And I honestly can tell

2024
00:44:06,105 --> 00:44:07,845
them like, I don't miss it.

2025
00:44:07,904 --> 00:44:08,835
Will I only ever plan

2026
00:44:08,835 --> 00:44:09,705
to grow as an artist?

2027
00:44:09,705 --> 00:44:11,384
I only ever plan to experiment

2028
00:44:11,384 --> 00:44:13,305
with more sounds and you know,

2029
00:44:13,305 --> 00:44:15,045
just continue to elevate from just

2030
00:44:15,045 --> 00:44:16,875
standing the same bracket of a sound.

2031
00:44:17,205 --> 00:44:18,674
'cause then I, then people can mimic

2032
00:44:18,680 --> 00:44:20,475
you and then you can get outplayed.

2033
00:44:20,984 --> 00:44:22,904
See, the thing is though, what you're

2034
00:44:22,904 --> 00:44:24,174
talking about is growth, right?

2035
00:44:24,944 --> 00:44:28,065
And so growth is so pivotal to your

2036
00:44:28,065 --> 00:44:29,565
character, but it's so looked down

2037
00:44:29,565 --> 00:44:31,305
upon because people look at growth like

2038
00:44:31,305 --> 00:44:32,595
change and people don't like change.

2039
00:44:32,835 --> 00:44:33,555
That is facts.

2040
00:44:33,560 --> 00:44:34,515
People don't like change, but I

2041
00:44:34,515 --> 00:44:35,955
mean, humans don't like change you.

2042
00:44:35,955 --> 00:44:36,105
Right.

2043
00:44:36,105 --> 00:44:36,645
You know what I'm saying?

2044
00:44:36,855 --> 00:44:38,984
Because like when things, when

2045
00:44:38,984 --> 00:44:40,575
you're getting used to a certain

2046
00:44:40,665 --> 00:44:42,194
situation, a certain environment or

2047
00:44:42,194 --> 00:44:44,115
certain sound, like you start getting

2048
00:44:44,115 --> 00:44:45,525
comfortable and of course you know

2049
00:44:45,525 --> 00:44:47,145
we're gonna love being comfortable.

2050
00:44:47,234 --> 00:44:47,415
Yeah.

2051
00:44:47,745 --> 00:44:49,455
'cause like why wouldn't we, you

2052
00:44:49,455 --> 00:44:51,134
know, doing something in your element.

2053
00:44:51,140 --> 00:44:51,975
Yeah, exactly.

2054
00:44:51,975 --> 00:44:53,055
Doing something in your element.

2055
00:44:53,115 --> 00:44:54,285
But then whenever you have a

2056
00:44:54,285 --> 00:44:55,245
person and they're changing.

2057
00:44:55,529 --> 00:44:57,390
Then it, it, it puts you into

2058
00:44:57,390 --> 00:44:58,410
an uncomfortable element.

2059
00:44:58,499 --> 00:45:00,569
It's gonna be looked at as a little weird.

2060
00:45:00,575 --> 00:45:01,680
It's gonna be looked at as, as

2061
00:45:01,709 --> 00:45:05,069
little like, um, not the status quo.

2062
00:45:05,075 --> 00:45:05,549
You feel me?

2063
00:45:05,850 --> 00:45:07,140
And so having, you know what that

2064
00:45:07,140 --> 00:45:08,819
discipline and having that confidence of

2065
00:45:08,819 --> 00:45:10,799
being like, nah, my, my music's the ****.

2066
00:45:11,040 --> 00:45:11,459
You feel me?

2067
00:45:11,464 --> 00:45:12,779
And I'm gonna keep on putting it out

2068
00:45:12,779 --> 00:45:14,669
because like, I actually really like it.

2069
00:45:14,790 --> 00:45:15,870
Like, as an artist, you gonna

2070
00:45:15,870 --> 00:45:16,799
have them times where your

2071
00:45:16,799 --> 00:45:18,180
second guesses you for sure.

2072
00:45:18,180 --> 00:45:20,939
So, 'cause you're your own, I don't know,

2073
00:45:20,939 --> 00:45:22,859
like you, I'm my own biggest critic.

2074
00:45:23,069 --> 00:45:23,249
Yeah.

2075
00:45:23,249 --> 00:45:24,629
I feel like if I, just, without

2076
00:45:24,689 --> 00:45:25,919
thinking about it, just drop every

2077
00:45:25,919 --> 00:45:28,470
song that I have right now, I know

2078
00:45:28,470 --> 00:45:29,580
for a fact that **** could go viral.

2079
00:45:29,640 --> 00:45:31,589
I'm so goddamn calculated, bro.

2080
00:45:31,595 --> 00:45:31,700
Okay.

2081
00:45:31,740 --> 00:45:32,520
I can't even help it.

2082
00:45:32,520 --> 00:45:33,180
It's not even funny.

2083
00:45:33,180 --> 00:45:35,189
It's not even like me trying to be cool.

2084
00:45:35,399 --> 00:45:39,029
No, it's Ooc D bro can't.

2085
00:45:39,029 --> 00:45:39,270
Yeah.

2086
00:45:39,270 --> 00:45:39,270
Yeah.

2087
00:45:39,276 --> 00:45:41,279
You say it's O C d I can't help it, bro.

2088
00:45:41,279 --> 00:45:43,379
Like I have to, like, it has to be a line.

2089
00:45:43,379 --> 00:45:44,850
Like the stars have to be aligned.

2090
00:45:45,419 --> 00:45:47,520
Everything has to be in my liking of

2091
00:45:47,520 --> 00:45:49,020
how I want it to be, has to be perfect.

2092
00:45:49,020 --> 00:45:50,640
Like I, I'm a spontaneous person

2093
00:45:51,330 --> 00:45:52,080
that, but the only thing that

2094
00:45:52,080 --> 00:45:53,160
makes me pon spontaneous is

2095
00:45:53,160 --> 00:45:53,970
'cause I don't tell my plan.

2096
00:45:54,870 --> 00:45:55,920
I've already been planning it.

2097
00:45:56,370 --> 00:45:57,420
I'll just make it seem spontaneous.

2098
00:45:57,450 --> 00:45:59,160
'cause I'll tell you then, leaps and

2099
00:45:59,160 --> 00:46:01,830
bounds is where I came with my production

2100
00:46:01,830 --> 00:46:03,690
skills as far as like layering my

2101
00:46:03,690 --> 00:46:06,690
music, adding cadences and riding

2102
00:46:06,690 --> 00:46:08,670
the beat, and, you know, harmonizing,

2103
00:46:09,240 --> 00:46:10,560
having rhythm, **** like that.

2104
00:46:10,560 --> 00:46:11,940
Like, or just experimenting

2105
00:46:11,940 --> 00:46:12,570
with new flows.

2106
00:46:12,570 --> 00:46:13,980
Things that I'm not used to, like

2107
00:46:13,980 --> 00:46:16,140
rapping in a way that makes me

2108
00:46:16,620 --> 00:46:17,640
lose my breath a little quicker.

2109
00:46:17,700 --> 00:46:18,840
Like I'm, I'm rapping something a

2110
00:46:18,840 --> 00:46:20,040
little faster, so I have to make sure

2111
00:46:20,040 --> 00:46:21,300
that I'm picking up on a bar, the next

2112
00:46:21,300 --> 00:46:23,100
bar, or like cutting myself off so I

2113
00:46:23,105 --> 00:46:25,290
can re catch like, uh, what's the word?

2114
00:46:25,290 --> 00:46:26,460
Tapping for my next bar.

2115
00:46:26,520 --> 00:46:27,450
You know, I'm saying it's just different

2116
00:46:27,450 --> 00:46:28,800
skills I've been learning as an artist.

2117
00:46:28,805 --> 00:46:29,880
Like skills, like, it's

2118
00:46:30,030 --> 00:46:31,440
like rapping is a skill.

2119
00:46:31,500 --> 00:46:32,490
Rapping is a skill.

2120
00:46:32,490 --> 00:46:32,820
A skill.

2121
00:46:32,880 --> 00:46:34,260
People don't respect that though.

2122
00:46:34,260 --> 00:46:35,370
Music is making music.

2123
00:46:35,580 --> 00:46:37,380
No **** rapping, making music,

2124
00:46:37,950 --> 00:46:39,450
the ability to make music.

2125
00:46:39,884 --> 00:46:41,444
Not just make hip hop.

2126
00:46:41,505 --> 00:46:41,565
Yeah.

2127
00:46:41,565 --> 00:46:42,525
Make music, bro.

2128
00:46:43,125 --> 00:46:44,325
Is a ******* art.

2129
00:46:44,384 --> 00:46:45,105
Like, you know what I'm saying?

2130
00:46:45,105 --> 00:46:45,734
It doesn't do you know, that

2131
00:46:45,734 --> 00:46:46,845
rewires their whole brain?

2132
00:46:47,145 --> 00:46:47,415
What?

2133
00:46:48,015 --> 00:46:48,915
Like making music

2134
00:46:48,944 --> 00:46:49,904
rewires your whole brain?

2135
00:46:49,995 --> 00:46:50,295
Yeah.

2136
00:46:50,415 --> 00:46:51,944
Um, I've been engineering and

2137
00:46:51,944 --> 00:46:53,355
producing my own music now lately.

2138
00:46:53,535 --> 00:46:53,835
Okay.

2139
00:46:54,075 --> 00:46:56,415
And, um, see now I have such a ear for it.

2140
00:46:56,415 --> 00:46:58,755
Like I, I'll be copying and pasting

2141
00:46:58,755 --> 00:46:59,654
my hook or something like that.

2142
00:46:59,654 --> 00:46:59,835
Right?

2143
00:46:59,924 --> 00:47:00,165
Yeah.

2144
00:47:00,315 --> 00:47:01,964
And I'll be, I'll know just when the

2145
00:47:01,964 --> 00:47:03,795
beat drop, just to like, put the copy

2146
00:47:03,795 --> 00:47:04,755
and paste, put the beat right here.

2147
00:47:04,964 --> 00:47:05,115
Mm.

2148
00:47:05,174 --> 00:47:06,134
And it'll be off a little bit.

2149
00:47:06,404 --> 00:47:07,665
And I know just where it's off.

2150
00:47:07,725 --> 00:47:08,595
You don't even need to hear it again.

2151
00:47:08,600 --> 00:47:08,685
Yeah.

2152
00:47:08,714 --> 00:47:09,585
I'll just put it right there.

2153
00:47:09,674 --> 00:47:09,975
Yeah.

2154
00:47:10,035 --> 00:47:11,265
And I'll play it again and it'll be right.

2155
00:47:11,265 --> 00:47:12,134
I'm like, yeah, I do it.

2156
00:47:12,225 --> 00:47:12,765
I ******* knew it.

2157
00:47:12,884 --> 00:47:13,694
But that's because, you

2158
00:47:13,694 --> 00:47:14,565
know, you're, you're getting

2159
00:47:14,565 --> 00:47:15,825
yourself acclimated to that.

2160
00:47:15,855 --> 00:47:16,154
Yeah.

2161
00:47:16,154 --> 00:47:17,355
You know, you have to train your brain.

2162
00:47:17,355 --> 00:47:18,255
You can train your brain to

2163
00:47:18,255 --> 00:47:19,694
do the craziest things, man.

2164
00:47:19,694 --> 00:47:20,475
And you know what's so crazy?

2165
00:47:20,475 --> 00:47:21,765
I have to shout out that same guy

2166
00:47:21,770 --> 00:47:23,234
that put me on to this whole different

2167
00:47:23,234 --> 00:47:24,464
wave, man, even though we ain't.

2168
00:47:25,095 --> 00:47:25,395
Cool.

2169
00:47:25,425 --> 00:47:26,685
I had to say shout to that dude.

2170
00:47:26,685 --> 00:47:28,365
'cause he's, he's a dude that kind of

2171
00:47:28,365 --> 00:47:30,045
taught me how to engineer my own music.

2172
00:47:30,495 --> 00:47:30,825
Right.

2173
00:47:30,855 --> 00:47:31,755
You know, how much of

2174
00:47:32,025 --> 00:47:33,134
a, of a step that is.

2175
00:47:33,195 --> 00:47:34,245
What to shout out somebody

2176
00:47:34,250 --> 00:47:35,025
that you're not cool with.

2177
00:47:35,175 --> 00:47:35,955
Oh, I'm shouting 'em out.

2178
00:47:35,960 --> 00:47:36,525
But I'm not gonna give

2179
00:47:36,525 --> 00:47:37,155
him no clout though.

2180
00:47:37,605 --> 00:47:40,725
I'm not gonna, okay, okay, okay, okay.

2181
00:47:40,730 --> 00:47:41,445
See, that's the nigga,

2182
00:47:41,450 --> 00:47:43,275
but like, gotta be one.

2183
00:47:43,275 --> 00:47:43,765
Know what I saying?

2184
00:47:43,765 --> 00:47:45,075
I ain't about to give him no clout,

2185
00:47:45,080 --> 00:47:46,305
but, but still giving him props,

2186
00:47:46,305 --> 00:47:48,525
flowers, he gonna know exactly.

2187
00:47:48,975 --> 00:47:50,115
I used to want hang out with these

2188
00:47:50,115 --> 00:47:51,915
guys, the guy that I'm talking about and

2189
00:47:51,915 --> 00:47:53,805
his, the other guys and **** like that.

2190
00:47:54,045 --> 00:47:54,825
I used wanna hang out with those

2191
00:47:54,830 --> 00:47:55,695
guys so much that I would try

2192
00:47:55,695 --> 00:47:56,595
to ditch my little brother.

2193
00:47:57,195 --> 00:47:57,525
Really?

2194
00:47:57,525 --> 00:47:58,125
For those guys.

2195
00:47:58,125 --> 00:47:58,425
Yeah.

2196
00:47:58,545 --> 00:47:58,875
Ditching.

2197
00:47:58,875 --> 00:47:59,865
And you know, my little brother,

2198
00:47:59,925 --> 00:48:01,245
my little brother like really

2199
00:48:01,245 --> 00:48:03,255
looked up to me like as like a kid.

2200
00:48:03,255 --> 00:48:04,575
Like really, really Look people

2201
00:48:04,575 --> 00:48:05,625
done did anything for me.

2202
00:48:05,625 --> 00:48:06,045
You know what I'm saying?

2203
00:48:06,105 --> 00:48:06,345
Yeah.

2204
00:48:06,645 --> 00:48:07,815
And you know, that sound like.

2205
00:48:08,129 --> 00:48:09,899
Now to this day, like I still have

2206
00:48:09,899 --> 00:48:11,189
been trying to rebuild that same

2207
00:48:11,189 --> 00:48:12,209
relationship with my little brother.

2208
00:48:12,479 --> 00:48:14,099
I want him to do incorporate

2209
00:48:14,099 --> 00:48:14,970
my music and all that ****.

2210
00:48:14,970 --> 00:48:15,629
I've been trying to get him

2211
00:48:15,629 --> 00:48:17,129
into making beats really?

2212
00:48:17,249 --> 00:48:17,999
Because that's what he's into.

2213
00:48:18,029 --> 00:48:19,470
Like, he's into music as much as I am.

2214
00:48:19,589 --> 00:48:19,829
Gotcha.

2215
00:48:19,950 --> 00:48:21,509
And it's things that I didn't know Yeah.

2216
00:48:21,509 --> 00:48:22,470
When I was younger, because I'm

2217
00:48:22,470 --> 00:48:23,669
sitting there chasing around dude.

2218
00:48:23,674 --> 00:48:24,660
They is really my friend, bro.

2219
00:48:24,665 --> 00:48:25,589
Yeah, exactly.

2220
00:48:25,589 --> 00:48:26,970
Instead of who I got my own

2221
00:48:26,970 --> 00:48:28,470
fleshing blood, like my best friend.

2222
00:48:28,620 --> 00:48:29,069
Exactly.

2223
00:48:29,069 --> 00:48:29,999
Literally, you know what I'm saying?

2224
00:48:30,209 --> 00:48:30,479
Yeah.

2225
00:48:30,779 --> 00:48:31,859
And you know, that's a beautiful

2226
00:48:31,859 --> 00:48:32,819
relationship that you had though.

2227
00:48:32,819 --> 00:48:34,169
Nah, it's, it's a, it's, it's, it's

2228
00:48:34,174 --> 00:48:35,609
becoming an adult and realizing that you

2229
00:48:35,609 --> 00:48:36,899
did somebody wrong and that was d for you.

2230
00:48:36,999 --> 00:48:37,620
You know what I'm saying?

2231
00:48:37,769 --> 00:48:39,120
A lot of dudes don't do that, and that's

2232
00:48:39,120 --> 00:48:40,229
why a lot of dudes be stuck there.

2233
00:48:40,289 --> 00:48:40,379
Mm-hmm.

2234
00:48:40,624 --> 00:48:41,549
Trying to figure out what's going on

2235
00:48:41,549 --> 00:48:42,419
in they life, trying to figure out

2236
00:48:42,419 --> 00:48:44,640
what went wrong when motherfucker,

2237
00:48:44,644 --> 00:48:45,720
you know, what the **** went wrong?

2238
00:48:45,720 --> 00:48:47,399
You can't go tell this motherfucker sorry.

2239
00:48:47,879 --> 00:48:48,209
Yeah.

2240
00:48:48,269 --> 00:48:50,399
Or you can't go apo apologize,

2241
00:48:50,399 --> 00:48:51,390
or you can't go make this ****.

2242
00:48:51,390 --> 00:48:51,629
Right.

2243
00:48:51,839 --> 00:48:51,930
Yeah.

2244
00:48:51,930 --> 00:48:52,890
You can't go see your daughter.

2245
00:48:53,099 --> 00:48:53,309
Yeah.

2246
00:48:53,314 --> 00:48:54,479
Or you can't go see your son, bro.

2247
00:48:54,839 --> 00:48:56,999
Or you can't go, uh, take

2248
00:48:56,999 --> 00:48:57,809
care of your mom, bro.

2249
00:48:58,470 --> 00:48:59,939
And I, and I know people like that with

2250
00:48:59,939 --> 00:49:02,189
parents that's like, and only come around

2251
00:49:02,189 --> 00:49:03,390
and ask them for something like that.

2252
00:49:03,390 --> 00:49:04,140
And it's hard for them

2253
00:49:04,140 --> 00:49:05,069
to say no to them, bro.

2254
00:49:05,075 --> 00:49:05,259
Mm-hmm.

2255
00:49:05,519 --> 00:49:06,720
It's so hard for them to say no to

2256
00:49:06,720 --> 00:49:08,595
them because like, It's a parent, bro.

2257
00:49:08,595 --> 00:49:09,705
They only ever want them to be

2258
00:49:09,705 --> 00:49:10,634
proud of them and want them.

2259
00:49:10,665 --> 00:49:12,165
Like I really seek my parents'

2260
00:49:12,165 --> 00:49:14,025
validation like out of anyone.

2261
00:49:14,535 --> 00:49:16,245
I, I'm not saying I do **** to make them

2262
00:49:16,245 --> 00:49:18,674
happy, but I want one day for what I'm

2263
00:49:18,680 --> 00:49:21,015
doing them to be proud of and not me have

2264
00:49:21,015 --> 00:49:22,634
to ask them to be proud or them just to

2265
00:49:22,640 --> 00:49:23,955
be proud of me just because I'm their son.

2266
00:49:24,255 --> 00:49:26,625
I want 'em be proud because ****, whatever

2267
00:49:26,625 --> 00:49:28,935
my boy, God **** doing this **** thing.

2268
00:49:28,964 --> 00:49:29,535
Like, you know what I'm saying?

2269
00:49:29,535 --> 00:49:31,365
I want, I want my mama to be out there

2270
00:49:31,455 --> 00:49:32,775
******* people off bragging about me.

2271
00:49:32,924 --> 00:49:34,964
I always felt like I was on a

2272
00:49:34,970 --> 00:49:37,365
time, a ticking time bomb to be

2273
00:49:37,785 --> 00:49:39,255
successful or it's over for me.

2274
00:49:39,795 --> 00:49:40,365
Mm.

2275
00:49:40,424 --> 00:49:41,805
A lot of people think like that though,

2276
00:49:41,835 --> 00:49:43,065
and it's hard, especially when you're

2277
00:49:43,245 --> 00:49:44,805
young, but it's also like looking

2278
00:49:44,805 --> 00:49:45,915
at these other artists like that.

2279
00:49:45,915 --> 00:49:46,395
I know.

2280
00:49:46,659 --> 00:49:48,009
It's artists that I know that

2281
00:49:48,009 --> 00:49:49,419
I used to hit up on Instagram

2282
00:49:49,419 --> 00:49:50,769
every day when I'm 14, 15.

2283
00:49:50,769 --> 00:49:51,399
Like we talking.

2284
00:49:51,729 --> 00:49:52,029
Yeah.

2285
00:49:52,180 --> 00:49:55,119
And now they big really crazy.

2286
00:49:55,119 --> 00:49:56,799
So it, it's, it becomes a comparison.

2287
00:49:56,799 --> 00:49:57,639
It's destroy lonely.

2288
00:49:57,644 --> 00:49:58,059
Yes.

2289
00:49:58,059 --> 00:49:59,319
It's it, you know, comparison

2290
00:49:59,319 --> 00:50:00,099
is the killer of joy.

2291
00:50:00,430 --> 00:50:00,519
Mm-hmm.

2292
00:50:00,549 --> 00:50:02,049
But at the same time, how can you help it?

2293
00:50:02,409 --> 00:50:04,089
These dudes, you talking, you need snot.

2294
00:50:04,479 --> 00:50:05,200
Yes, bro.

2295
00:50:05,229 --> 00:50:06,519
Shout out snot bro.

2296
00:50:06,519 --> 00:50:06,521
Snot bro.

2297
00:50:06,609 --> 00:50:07,329
Shout out my bro.

2298
00:50:07,329 --> 00:50:08,379
Like, that's a dude, man.

2299
00:50:08,559 --> 00:50:08,740
That's crazy.

2300
00:50:08,740 --> 00:50:09,159
A cool dude.

2301
00:50:09,159 --> 00:50:10,479
I could still hit him up to this day.

2302
00:50:10,539 --> 00:50:11,559
He'll still just be chill.

2303
00:50:11,950 --> 00:50:13,389
But, so, you know, I'm

2304
00:50:13,389 --> 00:50:14,319
different from dudes, man.

2305
00:50:14,319 --> 00:50:15,729
Like, I'm, I'm different and I don't

2306
00:50:15,729 --> 00:50:17,049
know if this make me uppity or some ****

2307
00:50:17,049 --> 00:50:18,339
like that, but I'm not hitting dudes up

2308
00:50:18,339 --> 00:50:20,499
trying to be like, yo, shout my song out.

2309
00:50:21,279 --> 00:50:24,459
I don't want no hand out.

2310
00:50:24,459 --> 00:50:25,180
You don't want no help.

2311
00:50:25,509 --> 00:50:26,619
I don't want no handout.

2312
00:50:26,649 --> 00:50:27,459
I'll take help.

2313
00:50:27,750 --> 00:50:28,740
But I don't want you to do it

2314
00:50:28,740 --> 00:50:30,180
because I asked you for sure.

2315
00:50:30,270 --> 00:50:32,070
I want you to see my talent and respect

2316
00:50:32,070 --> 00:50:33,990
my talent make, I want my own way.

2317
00:50:34,110 --> 00:50:35,070
I want my own way.

2318
00:50:35,160 --> 00:50:36,810
Now if somebody willing to shout my,

2319
00:50:36,930 --> 00:50:38,580
like just play my music around people.

2320
00:50:38,730 --> 00:50:39,420
Yeah, that's cool.

2321
00:50:39,480 --> 00:50:41,340
I'm not asking nobody to go like,

2322
00:50:41,820 --> 00:50:42,320
you get what I'm saying, bro.

2323
00:50:42,320 --> 00:50:42,870
No, you're not trying to

2324
00:50:42,875 --> 00:50:44,010
force anybody to do that.

2325
00:50:44,190 --> 00:50:46,260
That's why I also feel like I've been

2326
00:50:46,260 --> 00:50:48,210
weird on the the hiatus point of music,

2327
00:50:48,210 --> 00:50:49,950
because I don't be telling people,

2328
00:50:49,950 --> 00:50:51,390
everybody that I meet, that I make music.

2329
00:50:51,390 --> 00:50:53,070
I don't, unless somebody asks me,

2330
00:50:53,070 --> 00:50:54,180
that's how they find out that I make

2331
00:50:54,180 --> 00:50:55,560
music or I just happen to be playing a

2332
00:50:55,560 --> 00:50:57,240
song or just whatever the case may be.

2333
00:50:57,240 --> 00:50:58,440
I'm not one of them artists that's

2334
00:50:58,440 --> 00:50:59,820
like, Hey man, follow my SoundCloud.

2335
00:51:00,270 --> 00:51:00,720
Yeah, yeah.

2336
00:51:00,940 --> 00:51:01,160
Up.

2337
00:51:01,165 --> 00:51:01,861
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

2338
00:51:02,190 --> 00:51:03,330
I mean it's just, I don't have,

2339
00:51:03,330 --> 00:51:04,710
no, I'm not knocking that ****.

2340
00:51:04,710 --> 00:51:06,930
It's just, bro, nobody caress a

2341
00:51:06,930 --> 00:51:08,460
**** about your SoundCloud unless

2342
00:51:08,460 --> 00:51:09,330
they give a **** about you.

2343
00:51:09,900 --> 00:51:10,890
Even if you good at it, bro,

2344
00:51:10,890 --> 00:51:11,940
nobody gives a **** about it

2345
00:51:11,940 --> 00:51:12,840
unless they give a **** about you.

2346
00:51:12,840 --> 00:51:13,200
Exactly.

2347
00:51:13,260 --> 00:51:14,190
And that's why you develop

2348
00:51:14,190 --> 00:51:15,030
relationships with people.

2349
00:51:15,630 --> 00:51:16,530
I'd rather be enemies

2350
00:51:16,535 --> 00:51:17,220
with a lot of people.

2351
00:51:17,340 --> 00:51:17,910
'cause that'll really

2352
00:51:17,915 --> 00:51:18,630
tell you how they feel.

2353
00:51:19,245 --> 00:51:20,924
But the thing is though, the thing is, I

2354
00:51:20,924 --> 00:51:22,065
can't, I can't even, they don't like you.

2355
00:51:22,275 --> 00:51:23,685
I can't even go for that one though.

2356
00:51:23,685 --> 00:51:23,985
Right?

2357
00:51:24,134 --> 00:51:25,785
Because whenever you're enemies

2358
00:51:25,785 --> 00:51:27,645
with more people, then it makes

2359
00:51:27,645 --> 00:51:28,694
your journey so much harder.

2360
00:51:28,875 --> 00:51:30,825
I mean, yeah, you know, but then

2361
00:51:30,825 --> 00:51:31,965
you know where everybody stands.

2362
00:51:32,085 --> 00:51:32,654
That's true.

2363
00:51:32,654 --> 00:51:34,725
But like the most dangerous

2364
00:51:34,725 --> 00:51:35,805
thing to me is somebody that

2365
00:51:35,805 --> 00:51:36,944
pretends to be a friend, bro.

2366
00:51:37,185 --> 00:51:38,415
That is the more dangerous than anything.

2367
00:51:38,415 --> 00:51:38,535
Facts.

2368
00:51:38,540 --> 00:51:39,075
That's scary to me.

2369
00:51:39,075 --> 00:51:39,315
Facts.

2370
00:51:39,319 --> 00:51:39,505
Facts.

2371
00:51:39,525 --> 00:51:39,915
That's scary.

2372
00:51:39,915 --> 00:51:40,935
Somebody that could get close to

2373
00:51:40,935 --> 00:51:42,194
you, that could be close to your mom.

2374
00:51:42,615 --> 00:51:42,915
Facts.

2375
00:51:43,230 --> 00:51:44,190
You don't understand how

2376
00:51:44,190 --> 00:51:45,029
big of a fear that is.

2377
00:51:45,029 --> 00:51:46,710
Like somebody to be that close to me

2378
00:51:46,919 --> 00:51:48,120
that I wouldn't be able to read like

2379
00:51:48,120 --> 00:51:50,970
they a snake and they just foxing me the

2380
00:51:50,970 --> 00:51:53,009
whole time and foxing the **** outta me.

2381
00:51:53,015 --> 00:51:54,569
We, uh, you gotta show me some newspaper.

2382
00:51:54,960 --> 00:51:55,710
I got to Yeah.

2383
00:51:55,710 --> 00:51:57,779
You got to Jesus three years ago.

2384
00:51:57,799 --> 00:51:58,089
Yeah.

2385
00:51:58,095 --> 00:51:59,129
Yeah.

2386
00:51:59,129 --> 00:51:59,220
****.

2387
00:51:59,220 --> 00:51:59,819
I might as well though.

2388
00:52:00,000 --> 00:52:00,359
Okay.

2389
00:52:00,419 --> 00:52:01,350
Jesus dang.

2390
00:52:01,350 --> 00:52:02,410
I'm so, it was doing good.

2391
00:52:02,410 --> 00:52:02,649
Yeah.

2392
00:52:02,730 --> 00:52:03,899
It was doing so good.

2393
00:52:03,930 --> 00:52:06,569
So this tape, honestly, is, is a tape

2394
00:52:06,569 --> 00:52:08,730
that I've been waiting to make for years.

2395
00:52:08,730 --> 00:52:08,759
Okay.

2396
00:52:08,819 --> 00:52:09,899
I'm be real like at least

2397
00:52:09,960 --> 00:52:10,710
three or four years.

2398
00:52:10,710 --> 00:52:11,279
I've wanted to make

2399
00:52:11,285 --> 00:52:12,930
cash rules for forever.

2400
00:52:13,109 --> 00:52:14,100
It derives from cash rules

2401
00:52:14,100 --> 00:52:15,060
everything around me, you know?

2402
00:52:15,065 --> 00:52:15,290
Yeah.

2403
00:52:15,299 --> 00:52:15,540
Yeah.

2404
00:52:15,569 --> 00:52:16,680
But at the same time, cash

2405
00:52:16,680 --> 00:52:18,299
rules just mainly is focusing

2406
00:52:18,305 --> 00:52:20,490
in on like, my name's cash.

2407
00:52:20,520 --> 00:52:20,879
I rule.

2408
00:52:20,879 --> 00:52:23,549
Like I'm, I'm putting all aside, like

2409
00:52:23,549 --> 00:52:24,720
me feeling like I'm in competition

2410
00:52:24,720 --> 00:52:25,529
with all these people and me

2411
00:52:25,529 --> 00:52:26,970
feeling like I'm not enough, or me

2412
00:52:26,970 --> 00:52:28,830
comparing myself or me, you know?

2413
00:52:28,830 --> 00:52:29,250
Mm-hmm.

2414
00:52:29,520 --> 00:52:30,870
Just all that extra ****.

2415
00:52:30,870 --> 00:52:32,520
I'm, I'm putting all that **** behind me.

2416
00:52:32,520 --> 00:52:34,319
I'm like, man, I, this is me.

2417
00:52:34,859 --> 00:52:36,330
I talk about being star-crossed a lot.

2418
00:52:36,480 --> 00:52:38,190
I talk about being I Star Cross.

2419
00:52:38,190 --> 00:52:39,180
I also talk about being high as

2420
00:52:39,180 --> 00:52:40,560
**** off L Ss d and **** like that.

2421
00:52:40,560 --> 00:52:41,279
That's a whole nother story.

2422
00:52:41,279 --> 00:52:42,060
You do that.

2423
00:52:42,270 --> 00:52:42,580
Yeah, man.

2424
00:52:43,214 --> 00:52:43,484
Ooh.

2425
00:52:43,484 --> 00:52:43,486
Trip.

2426
00:52:43,785 --> 00:52:44,205
Trip.

2427
00:52:44,205 --> 00:52:44,294
Yes.

2428
00:52:44,564 --> 00:52:46,035
Uh, I don't know if I could do l s D.

2429
00:52:46,035 --> 00:52:46,845
Why do you feel like that?

2430
00:52:47,354 --> 00:52:48,884
Because I've never done shrooms.

2431
00:52:49,725 --> 00:52:51,225
And you feel like you can never do, so

2432
00:52:51,225 --> 00:52:52,694
you do feel like you can never do acid

2433
00:52:52,694 --> 00:52:54,015
or you feel like you never do shrooms?

2434
00:52:54,915 --> 00:52:57,645
Well, like I don't feel like I could ever

2435
00:52:57,645 --> 00:52:59,834
do acid because I hear people who done ss.

2436
00:52:59,839 --> 00:53:00,404
I'm gonna be real.

2437
00:53:00,464 --> 00:53:01,846
That **** is, that's, I, I

2438
00:53:02,535 --> 00:53:03,254
I would tell you to do St.

2439
00:53:03,254 --> 00:53:03,825
Strings before.

2440
00:53:03,825 --> 00:53:04,544
I would tell you to do ask.

2441
00:53:04,544 --> 00:53:04,935
Exactly.

2442
00:53:04,935 --> 00:53:05,084
Honest.

2443
00:53:05,084 --> 00:53:05,774
That's what I'm saying.

2444
00:53:05,895 --> 00:53:08,354
Because it's like is on a whole No.

2445
00:53:08,475 --> 00:53:08,765
Acid.

2446
00:53:08,770 --> 00:53:09,555
Acid, yeah.

2447
00:53:10,004 --> 00:53:11,084
Whole upper echelon, bro.

2448
00:53:11,774 --> 00:53:12,884
Every time you take it, it's a whole

2449
00:53:12,884 --> 00:53:14,384
different other upper echelon, bro.

2450
00:53:14,384 --> 00:53:15,104
I get scared.

2451
00:53:15,194 --> 00:53:16,634
I I would get scared, man.

2452
00:53:16,634 --> 00:53:16,995
I could, yeah.

2453
00:53:16,995 --> 00:53:18,134
You just gotta be secure in your,

2454
00:53:18,140 --> 00:53:18,975
like, you gotta really, what,

2455
00:53:19,245 --> 00:53:20,354
what they say is you really gotta

2456
00:53:20,354 --> 00:53:21,404
put yourself around safe people.

2457
00:53:21,555 --> 00:53:22,575
Like, and be safe.

2458
00:53:22,950 --> 00:53:23,850
Like, you gotta be safe.

2459
00:53:23,850 --> 00:53:24,870
You gotta put yourself around

2460
00:53:24,870 --> 00:53:26,370
people that not gonna make you

2461
00:53:26,370 --> 00:53:28,439
feel uncomfortable at any point.

2462
00:53:28,439 --> 00:53:29,370
Because if they make you feel

2463
00:53:29,370 --> 00:53:30,059
uncomfortable, you could have a

2464
00:53:30,059 --> 00:53:31,259
bad trip, but you could actually,

2465
00:53:31,379 --> 00:53:33,209
you actually could have some brain

2466
00:53:33,214 --> 00:53:34,410
damage from having a bad trip.

2467
00:53:34,470 --> 00:53:35,350
See, but see, lie.

2468
00:53:35,350 --> 00:53:36,419
That's why would I do that?

2469
00:53:36,419 --> 00:53:37,379
Like why?

2470
00:53:37,379 --> 00:53:38,629
Like, because I mean, the tr

2471
00:53:38,629 --> 00:53:40,049
the probability is very low.

2472
00:53:40,200 --> 00:53:41,399
It's super low to have a brain.

2473
00:53:41,430 --> 00:53:43,620
Like people rarely die from rarely.

2474
00:53:43,680 --> 00:53:45,870
And when I say rarely die, the only

2475
00:53:45,870 --> 00:53:48,479
ways they do die from taking L s D is

2476
00:53:48,479 --> 00:53:50,519
by doing something to harm themselves

2477
00:53:50,524 --> 00:53:51,839
because they're tripping so bad.

2478
00:53:51,959 --> 00:53:52,109
Gotcha.

2479
00:53:52,109 --> 00:53:53,129
Not because of the drug

2480
00:53:53,459 --> 00:53:54,450
making them do anything.

2481
00:53:54,509 --> 00:53:57,569
It's that they letting the ****.

2482
00:53:57,629 --> 00:53:58,740
The main thing that you gotta

2483
00:53:58,740 --> 00:53:59,609
remember when you're high off

2484
00:53:59,609 --> 00:54:00,450
that **** is that you hot.

2485
00:54:00,720 --> 00:54:01,829
But see that's the thing though.

2486
00:54:01,829 --> 00:54:03,299
Like I feel like you would have to

2487
00:54:03,299 --> 00:54:05,519
have multiple like experiences with it

2488
00:54:05,519 --> 00:54:07,140
to be able to control it, to be able

2489
00:54:07,140 --> 00:54:08,829
to say, Hey, like I'm, I'm just hot.

2490
00:54:08,999 --> 00:54:10,559
I'm about to tell you some crazy ****.

2491
00:54:10,769 --> 00:54:11,279
Okay, go ahead.

2492
00:54:11,819 --> 00:54:12,479
Blow my mind bro.

2493
00:54:12,629 --> 00:54:13,200
What's up rad?

2494
00:54:13,200 --> 00:54:14,549
I, I'm on your *** boy.

2495
00:54:14,609 --> 00:54:15,539
I'm on your ******* ***.

2496
00:54:15,544 --> 00:54:16,019
'cause I'm gonna tell

2497
00:54:16,019 --> 00:54:16,559
you some motherfucker.

2498
00:54:16,709 --> 00:54:16,919
Okay.

2499
00:54:16,919 --> 00:54:17,249
What's up?

2500
00:54:17,249 --> 00:54:18,809
Shout out to Conrad the general.

2501
00:54:19,055 --> 00:54:20,464
One of my, my best friend.

2502
00:54:20,524 --> 00:54:22,174
My best friend, a artist that

2503
00:54:22,174 --> 00:54:23,555
I'm very, very close with.

2504
00:54:23,705 --> 00:54:23,944
Alright.

2505
00:54:23,975 --> 00:54:24,484
From Greenville?

2506
00:54:24,544 --> 00:54:25,774
No, actually not from Greenville Court.

2507
00:54:26,075 --> 00:54:27,365
I don't quote me on that.

2508
00:54:27,605 --> 00:54:27,904
Okay.

2509
00:54:27,910 --> 00:54:28,165
Okay.

2510
00:54:28,265 --> 00:54:29,944
But long story short, he

2511
00:54:29,950 --> 00:54:30,845
has an album out by the way.

2512
00:54:30,845 --> 00:54:31,294
I feel.

2513
00:54:31,654 --> 00:54:31,895
Okay.

2514
00:54:31,924 --> 00:54:35,345
But, um, this motherfucker, lemme tell

2515
00:54:35,345 --> 00:54:36,785
you about it, he's the one that got

2516
00:54:36,785 --> 00:54:38,345
me the tri acid for the first time.

2517
00:54:38,350 --> 00:54:39,064
Like, okay.

2518
00:54:39,154 --> 00:54:40,084
And lemme tell you how

2519
00:54:40,084 --> 00:54:40,984
we went about this ****.

2520
00:54:40,984 --> 00:54:41,254
Right?

2521
00:54:41,464 --> 00:54:45,605
So he got, he talked me into getting, we,

2522
00:54:45,605 --> 00:54:47,134
we know we, he talked, everybody talking

2523
00:54:47,134 --> 00:54:48,964
about, um, getting some tabs and ****.

2524
00:54:48,964 --> 00:54:50,134
I'm like, what the **** y'all

2525
00:54:50,134 --> 00:54:51,544
nigga doing hats, man, ****.

2526
00:54:51,544 --> 00:54:52,625
Like, I'm just judging him.

2527
00:54:52,625 --> 00:54:53,555
I'm, I'm really judging

2528
00:54:53,560 --> 00:54:54,575
him, but I'm really curious.

2529
00:54:54,575 --> 00:54:56,765
So I'm like just being an *******.

2530
00:54:56,765 --> 00:54:57,455
I'm like, man, what the ****

2531
00:54:57,455 --> 00:54:58,524
y'all getting task for, man?

2532
00:54:58,524 --> 00:54:59,564
What the **** y about to do now?

2533
00:54:59,584 --> 00:55:00,935
Oh, y'all ain't about to get high, man.

2534
00:55:00,964 --> 00:55:00,995
Okay.

2535
00:55:01,564 --> 00:55:01,745
****, doesn't lemme get

2536
00:55:01,745 --> 00:55:02,314
y'all high for real.

2537
00:55:02,314 --> 00:55:02,855
He was like, what?

2538
00:55:03,484 --> 00:55:04,895
This **** get you ****** up.

2539
00:55:05,615 --> 00:55:06,575
And so Ra was like, I'm

2540
00:55:06,575 --> 00:55:07,165
about to get one man.

2541
00:55:07,165 --> 00:55:07,924
You might as well go ahead

2542
00:55:07,924 --> 00:55:08,674
and do one with me, man.

2543
00:55:09,075 --> 00:55:09,645
And I'm like, what?

2544
00:55:10,035 --> 00:55:10,904
She done did this **** before?

2545
00:55:11,234 --> 00:55:12,045
He's like, yeah, man.

2546
00:55:12,045 --> 00:55:13,185
What, man, I done did this **** before.

2547
00:55:13,234 --> 00:55:14,265
Uhhuh da da.

2548
00:55:14,265 --> 00:55:15,075
I'm like, word, word.

2549
00:55:15,285 --> 00:55:16,755
I'm like, so I'm not gonna be ******.

2550
00:55:16,755 --> 00:55:17,924
He's like, bro, you're good, bro.

2551
00:55:17,930 --> 00:55:18,495
I, I got you.

2552
00:55:18,495 --> 00:55:19,515
I'm not gonna let nothing happen to you.

2553
00:55:20,115 --> 00:55:20,895
I'm like, all right.

2554
00:55:20,955 --> 00:55:21,884
So we take acid.

2555
00:55:22,125 --> 00:55:23,444
I had an amazing time.

2556
00:55:24,015 --> 00:55:26,355
Okay, amazing time out my goddamn

2557
00:55:26,359 --> 00:55:27,884
mind, but an amazing time.

2558
00:55:27,890 --> 00:55:30,615
Uhhuh, but, and it's crazy.

2559
00:55:30,615 --> 00:55:32,535
I tripped like six more, four more times

2560
00:55:32,535 --> 00:55:34,545
before I found out some ****, right?

2561
00:55:34,935 --> 00:55:36,075
I was like, I was like, yeah, man,

2562
00:55:36,285 --> 00:55:37,335
you remember that time we tripped?

2563
00:55:37,424 --> 00:55:38,654
I, you remember that time I tripped

2564
00:55:38,654 --> 00:55:39,464
with you for the first time.

2565
00:55:39,464 --> 00:55:40,455
Now you, the first person I ever

2566
00:55:40,455 --> 00:55:41,265
tripped with, man, I would've

2567
00:55:41,265 --> 00:55:42,285
never did it if it wasn't for you.

2568
00:55:42,345 --> 00:55:42,785
Like, da da, da.

2569
00:55:43,605 --> 00:55:45,464
He was like, he was like, yeah, man.

2570
00:55:45,464 --> 00:55:46,575
That was my first time tripping too.

2571
00:55:46,575 --> 00:55:46,785
Man.

2572
00:55:46,785 --> 00:55:47,505
That **** was crazy.

2573
00:55:48,134 --> 00:55:48,424
What?

2574
00:55:50,214 --> 00:55:50,505
What?

2575
00:55:51,330 --> 00:55:52,109
Nah, bro.

2576
00:55:52,140 --> 00:55:53,640
We can't be both tripping for

2577
00:55:53,640 --> 00:55:54,720
the first time together, bro.

2578
00:55:54,720 --> 00:55:56,160
That's not what we're doing, bro.

2579
00:55:56,359 --> 00:55:57,140
You need to be a better bro.

2580
00:55:57,144 --> 00:55:58,859
That was the slickest motherfucker

2581
00:55:58,919 --> 00:56:01,259
I ever met in my whole life.

2582
00:56:01,289 --> 00:56:03,029
I have never been fooled like that.

2583
00:56:03,209 --> 00:56:03,450
Wow.

2584
00:56:03,450 --> 00:56:05,789
I have never been fooled that good.

2585
00:56:05,939 --> 00:56:07,140
I'm talking about trusted

2586
00:56:07,140 --> 00:56:08,100
this nigga completely.

2587
00:56:08,160 --> 00:56:08,819
Exactly.

2588
00:56:09,359 --> 00:56:11,189
See, no, I will be scared like bro.

2589
00:56:11,189 --> 00:56:12,629
Like see, no, I was mad.

2590
00:56:12,629 --> 00:56:14,309
I was mad for like a hot second.

2591
00:56:14,309 --> 00:56:14,640
I was mad.

2592
00:56:14,640 --> 00:56:14,729
Okay.

2593
00:56:14,729 --> 00:56:15,299
Because I was just like,

2594
00:56:15,299 --> 00:56:16,259
man, what the ****, bro?

2595
00:56:17,220 --> 00:56:18,149
And I just started laughing.

2596
00:56:18,149 --> 00:56:18,959
'cause I was like, you *****.

2597
00:56:18,964 --> 00:56:19,680
You got me.

2598
00:56:19,680 --> 00:56:20,220
You got me.

2599
00:56:20,259 --> 00:56:20,779
I ain't gonna lie.

2600
00:56:20,839 --> 00:56:21,339
You got me.

2601
00:56:21,359 --> 00:56:22,529
Nah, nah.

2602
00:56:22,799 --> 00:56:23,580
I'm glad we ain't die.

2603
00:56:24,660 --> 00:56:25,740
You see, that's what I'm saying.

2604
00:56:25,740 --> 00:56:27,390
That's what I can do, bro.

2605
00:56:27,390 --> 00:56:27,899
Like gamble.

2606
00:56:28,470 --> 00:56:29,069
I can't gamble.

2607
00:56:29,069 --> 00:56:29,640
I can't gamble.

2608
00:56:29,640 --> 00:56:29,850
Brad.

2609
00:56:29,850 --> 00:56:31,140
I got too much on the line, man.

2610
00:56:31,140 --> 00:56:31,890
I can't do it, man.

2611
00:56:31,890 --> 00:56:32,339
But you know what they say?

2612
00:56:32,345 --> 00:56:33,569
Like acid really just isn't

2613
00:56:33,569 --> 00:56:34,259
for the weak of heart.

2614
00:56:34,289 --> 00:56:34,919
That's what I say.

2615
00:56:34,924 --> 00:56:36,509
Like I was not in a good mental space

2616
00:56:36,509 --> 00:56:37,740
at all when I was doing that ****.

2617
00:56:38,069 --> 00:56:38,819
I don't know what the

2618
00:56:38,819 --> 00:56:39,539
**** was wrong with me.

2619
00:56:39,899 --> 00:56:41,160
No, they say don't do stuff like that

2620
00:56:41,160 --> 00:56:42,299
whenever you're not in that mental space.

2621
00:56:42,330 --> 00:56:44,430
No, because it's just like, like it's bro,

2622
00:56:44,434 --> 00:56:46,259
like you gotta think about your mind, bro.

2623
00:56:46,559 --> 00:56:48,149
And then your mind off L S D.

2624
00:56:48,915 --> 00:56:50,745
Your mind off L s d bro is

2625
00:56:50,745 --> 00:56:52,365
a whole different ball game.

2626
00:56:52,365 --> 00:56:53,325
It's not regular.

2627
00:56:53,685 --> 00:56:55,455
I can't be in a head space

2628
00:56:55,455 --> 00:56:58,785
where I'm not in control.

2629
00:56:59,145 --> 00:57:01,545
Like even, even when I am

2630
00:57:01,545 --> 00:57:02,505
under the influence exception

2631
00:57:02,505 --> 00:57:03,585
center, I'm still in control.

2632
00:57:03,585 --> 00:57:04,515
I know what's going on.

2633
00:57:04,520 --> 00:57:05,085
You get what I'm saying?

2634
00:57:05,115 --> 00:57:05,835
But you're also not letting

2635
00:57:05,835 --> 00:57:07,065
yourself get that far gone though.

2636
00:57:08,145 --> 00:57:09,885
But with acid is literally like,

2637
00:57:09,915 --> 00:57:10,935
you can't control how far you're

2638
00:57:10,935 --> 00:57:12,375
getting far gone unless Exactly.

2639
00:57:13,635 --> 00:57:14,325
Willpower.

2640
00:57:14,515 --> 00:57:15,215
That's, I say Exactly.

2641
00:57:15,285 --> 00:57:15,775
Exactly.

2642
00:57:15,955 --> 00:57:17,415
But all you, but the, the thing

2643
00:57:17,415 --> 00:57:18,945
I just remind myself and when I

2644
00:57:18,945 --> 00:57:20,445
was at the peak of my high and I'm

2645
00:57:20,445 --> 00:57:21,885
like, I'm feeling like I'm about to

2646
00:57:21,890 --> 00:57:23,655
like, feel like so much is possible.

2647
00:57:23,655 --> 00:57:24,765
'cause you think about all the things

2648
00:57:24,765 --> 00:57:26,055
in your brain and it's hard for

2649
00:57:26,055 --> 00:57:28,395
you to differentiate a thought from

2650
00:57:28,400 --> 00:57:30,465
an actual possibility to something

2651
00:57:30,465 --> 00:57:31,665
that you actually about to do.

2652
00:57:31,935 --> 00:57:32,145
Mm-hmm.

2653
00:57:32,355 --> 00:57:34,005
That's the thing that, the three things

2654
00:57:34,005 --> 00:57:35,535
that you battle with is thoughts,

2655
00:57:35,655 --> 00:57:37,215
possibilities, in your actions.

2656
00:57:37,455 --> 00:57:40,095
As far as, and we're, we're gonna

2657
00:57:40,100 --> 00:57:41,205
have this conversation about.

2658
00:57:42,255 --> 00:57:45,525
Is marijuana, an L S D A gateway drug.

2659
00:57:45,615 --> 00:57:47,865
I really don't think that marijuana

2660
00:57:47,865 --> 00:57:50,205
is a gateway drug to be real, to, I

2661
00:57:50,205 --> 00:57:51,884
could see how L S D could be a gateway

2662
00:57:51,884 --> 00:57:53,625
drug and maybe that's just a bias.

2663
00:57:53,625 --> 00:57:54,075
You feel me?

2664
00:57:54,075 --> 00:57:55,725
Just because I'm like, ah, I don't know.

2665
00:57:55,725 --> 00:57:56,565
I could do that ****.

2666
00:57:56,865 --> 00:57:58,634
Once you get that hot, where you going?

2667
00:57:58,875 --> 00:57:59,715
You going back to weeded?

2668
00:58:00,345 --> 00:58:01,035
Are you serious?

2669
00:58:01,125 --> 00:58:03,884
See, the thing about L S D and ****

2670
00:58:03,884 --> 00:58:05,235
like that, it's not a high that

2671
00:58:05,235 --> 00:58:06,674
you can get high off every day.

2672
00:58:07,395 --> 00:58:07,725
Okay.

2673
00:58:07,785 --> 00:58:08,237
Like you can't get high,

2674
00:58:08,241 --> 00:58:08,765
but some people do.

2675
00:58:08,785 --> 00:58:09,525
That's what I'm saying.

2676
00:58:09,545 --> 00:58:10,485
No, it's impossible.

2677
00:58:10,585 --> 00:58:12,495
The, the way acid work, I can speak on

2678
00:58:12,495 --> 00:58:14,205
acid, I'm not necessarily sure on streams.

2679
00:58:14,205 --> 00:58:15,345
Streams I think could trip like

2680
00:58:15,350 --> 00:58:16,215
every day or something like that,

2681
00:58:16,215 --> 00:58:16,935
but I wouldn't, yeah, I know a guy

2682
00:58:16,935 --> 00:58:18,015
I wouldn't describe doing that.

2683
00:58:18,015 --> 00:58:20,865
He micro doses rooms consistently

2684
00:58:20,985 --> 00:58:22,395
like, oh, he's a wild man.

2685
00:58:22,455 --> 00:58:24,345
I used to micro, he's a wild man.

2686
00:58:24,404 --> 00:58:25,575
It is fun to do like in a

2687
00:58:25,575 --> 00:58:26,625
day, like there's this micro

2688
00:58:26,625 --> 00:58:27,975
doses steadily stay high.

2689
00:58:28,005 --> 00:58:29,235
All the **** day.

2690
00:58:29,415 --> 00:58:29,745
Yeah.

2691
00:58:29,745 --> 00:58:31,035
But shout out.

2692
00:58:31,035 --> 00:58:31,335
Shout out that, dude.

2693
00:58:31,444 --> 00:58:31,845
I love that dude.

2694
00:58:31,845 --> 00:58:33,825
I just, bro, my biggest fear is having

2695
00:58:33,825 --> 00:58:35,685
a high that lasts too long and you just

2696
00:58:35,685 --> 00:58:37,575
can't differentiate when they high ends.

2697
00:58:37,995 --> 00:58:38,505
Yeah, bro.

2698
00:58:38,505 --> 00:58:40,245
I talked to this dude that's a, um, he

2699
00:58:40,245 --> 00:58:41,625
used to be a part of this rock band.

2700
00:58:41,835 --> 00:58:42,135
Mm-hmm.

2701
00:58:42,315 --> 00:58:43,725
This guy that owns the land out

2702
00:58:43,725 --> 00:58:44,895
there in Panther Lake, I don't

2703
00:58:44,895 --> 00:58:45,645
know if you've ever been out there.

2704
00:58:45,645 --> 00:58:46,305
It's out there in Raleigh.

2705
00:58:46,605 --> 00:58:46,695
Mm-hmm.

2706
00:58:47,025 --> 00:58:47,955
But, um, he's a good dude.

2707
00:58:48,255 --> 00:58:48,465
Okay.

2708
00:58:48,465 --> 00:58:49,155
His name's Salmon.

2709
00:58:49,155 --> 00:58:51,525
He owns the, uh, Panther Old l l c.

2710
00:58:51,525 --> 00:58:51,825
Got you.

2711
00:58:52,695 --> 00:58:53,805
Who was talking to me about how

2712
00:58:53,810 --> 00:58:55,755
goddamn, **** he tried peyote bro.

2713
00:58:55,755 --> 00:58:57,105
This nigga was high for seven

2714
00:58:57,105 --> 00:58:58,725
days, straight high for seven days.

2715
00:58:58,785 --> 00:59:00,525
At this point, I'm honestly scared

2716
00:59:00,525 --> 00:59:03,705
that this is my reality and God

2717
00:59:03,710 --> 00:59:05,025
forbid what you could possibly be

2718
00:59:05,025 --> 00:59:06,435
seeing, man, that **** sounds crazy.

2719
00:59:06,435 --> 00:59:07,665
Exactly, bro.

2720
00:59:07,695 --> 00:59:09,075
That's how you get like the

2721
00:59:09,075 --> 00:59:10,515
homeless people who are just

2722
00:59:10,515 --> 00:59:11,985
like screaming out their minds.

2723
00:59:12,585 --> 00:59:13,605
See, because they, they had some

2724
00:59:13,605 --> 00:59:15,165
always see, they see those people.

2725
00:59:15,465 --> 00:59:16,635
You, you know, it's so ****** up.

2726
00:59:16,635 --> 00:59:17,715
People don't even realize most of

2727
00:59:17,715 --> 00:59:19,335
those people really had, just always

2728
00:59:19,335 --> 00:59:21,435
had, you know, mental illnesses and

2729
00:59:21,435 --> 00:59:22,815
it like, they didn't have nobody that

2730
00:59:22,815 --> 00:59:23,895
was there to take care of them, bro.

2731
00:59:24,045 --> 00:59:25,065
And they end up on the streets

2732
00:59:25,065 --> 00:59:26,175
because nobody's trying to take

2733
00:59:26,175 --> 00:59:28,305
care of them, pay bills for them,

2734
00:59:28,305 --> 00:59:29,625
or, you know, nobody's doing.

2735
00:59:30,254 --> 00:59:31,274
The things that they need for

2736
00:59:31,274 --> 00:59:32,234
them to take care of themselves.

2737
00:59:32,234 --> 00:59:33,134
Bro, nobody, nobody's

2738
00:59:33,134 --> 00:59:33,854
there to take care of you.

2739
00:59:34,035 --> 00:59:34,245
Yeah.

2740
00:59:34,245 --> 00:59:35,115
They don't have family that's there.

2741
00:59:35,115 --> 00:59:36,274
Well, if they do have family that's

2742
00:59:36,274 --> 00:59:37,274
there, they don't do a **** about 'em.

2743
00:59:37,334 --> 00:59:38,115
That's ****** up.

2744
00:59:38,115 --> 00:59:39,154
But it's like it's facts.

2745
00:59:39,454 --> 00:59:41,055
That's why It's facts, but nah, nah, nah.

2746
00:59:41,059 --> 00:59:42,077
Get, let's **** about the,

2747
00:59:42,077 --> 00:59:43,334
let's **** do I *******.

2748
00:59:43,874 --> 00:59:44,504
Nah, you're good.

2749
00:59:44,504 --> 00:59:44,805
You're good.

2750
00:59:45,044 --> 00:59:46,245
I'm paying attention, bro.

2751
00:59:46,515 --> 00:59:46,785
Okay.

2752
00:59:46,845 --> 00:59:49,004
I done seen same five

2753
00:59:49,009 --> 00:59:50,384
homeless people all hang out.

2754
00:59:50,684 --> 00:59:51,854
These motherfuckers got a car.

2755
00:59:52,964 --> 00:59:54,254
These motherfuckers got a, a food

2756
00:59:54,254 --> 00:59:55,394
step card that they go to get.

2757
00:59:55,424 --> 00:59:56,714
They get the Food Lion.

2758
00:59:56,774 --> 00:59:58,035
I didn't seen them in Food Lion.

2759
00:59:58,334 --> 00:59:58,634
What?

2760
00:59:58,725 --> 01:00:01,544
I didn't seen them from the corner.

2761
01:00:01,544 --> 01:00:02,504
Go from a corner.

2762
01:00:02,504 --> 01:00:03,704
Just staying on the corner

2763
01:00:03,704 --> 01:00:04,694
and getting money all day.

2764
01:00:04,874 --> 01:00:05,924
Have hundreds of dollars.

2765
01:00:05,924 --> 01:00:06,524
Hundreds of dollars.

2766
01:00:06,524 --> 01:00:07,274
Wow.

2767
01:00:07,274 --> 01:00:08,535
I'm telling they hustling, right?

2768
01:00:08,535 --> 01:00:08,954
Yes.

2769
01:00:09,194 --> 01:00:09,825
Yes.

2770
01:00:10,004 --> 01:00:11,384
People are, there's definitely a thing

2771
01:00:11,384 --> 01:00:13,874
called people being homeless for a hobby.

2772
01:00:13,874 --> 01:00:14,745
Like, not even a hobby,

2773
01:00:14,745 --> 01:00:15,944
but just for like money.

2774
01:00:16,484 --> 01:00:17,535
'cause people would be giving, like

2775
01:00:17,535 --> 01:00:18,704
people would be out here blessing.

2776
01:00:18,704 --> 01:00:19,424
I'll be hearing about that just

2777
01:00:19,424 --> 01:00:20,834
because, bro, I remember I used to

2778
01:00:20,834 --> 01:00:22,095
steal **** like that when I was a kid.

2779
01:00:22,305 --> 01:00:23,865
I really got over that **** because I

2780
01:00:23,865 --> 01:00:25,365
started seeing how people treat the.

2781
01:00:26,115 --> 01:00:27,555
People could not treat thieves,

2782
01:00:27,944 --> 01:00:28,935
treat thieves worse than they

2783
01:00:28,935 --> 01:00:29,835
treat bums on the street.

2784
01:00:30,345 --> 01:00:31,365
People treat thieves worse than

2785
01:00:31,365 --> 01:00:33,465
they treat God **** a murderer.

2786
01:00:33,674 --> 01:00:34,015
That's facts.

2787
01:00:34,035 --> 01:00:35,325
If you a thief, nobody

2788
01:00:35,325 --> 01:00:36,105
will trust you around.

2789
01:00:36,105 --> 01:00:36,404
Nothing.

2790
01:00:36,404 --> 01:00:37,424
Like everybody look at you

2791
01:00:37,430 --> 01:00:38,295
like the SCM of the earth.

2792
01:00:38,444 --> 01:00:38,775
Exactly.

2793
01:00:38,865 --> 01:00:40,995
You're ostracized outta society.

2794
01:00:40,995 --> 01:00:42,015
It's, it's the worst.

2795
01:00:42,015 --> 01:00:43,965
It, I, it's crazy how being a thief is

2796
01:00:43,965 --> 01:00:46,485
worse than being a, it's almost **** near

2797
01:00:46,485 --> 01:00:49,654
as worse as being a or or a murderer, bro.

2798
01:00:49,815 --> 01:00:50,595
That's a hot take.

2799
01:00:50,654 --> 01:00:51,075
Literally.

2800
01:00:51,165 --> 01:00:51,915
No, literally.

2801
01:00:51,944 --> 01:00:53,654
'cause like they not, bro, people will

2802
01:00:53,654 --> 01:00:54,944
trust a murderer before they trust you.

2803
01:00:56,115 --> 01:00:56,775
'cause I mean, a murderer

2804
01:00:56,775 --> 01:00:57,404
just murdered somebody.

2805
01:00:57,404 --> 01:00:57,705
They lie.

2806
01:00:59,884 --> 01:01:01,035
They ain't, they ain't try to

2807
01:01:01,035 --> 01:01:02,775
steal it, like cheated they way

2808
01:01:02,775 --> 01:01:03,884
to get it or some **** like that.

2809
01:01:03,944 --> 01:01:05,085
I mean, if somebody steal, you'll

2810
01:01:05,085 --> 01:01:06,795
think they're lying cheap automatically

2811
01:01:07,755 --> 01:01:09,915
because they not, they like, they're

2812
01:01:09,915 --> 01:01:11,295
not gonna tell you that they stole it.

2813
01:01:12,555 --> 01:01:13,125
You get what I'm saying?

2814
01:01:13,130 --> 01:01:13,295
That's true.

2815
01:01:13,555 --> 01:01:14,895
So that's, they gonna steal

2816
01:01:14,895 --> 01:01:16,065
and lie and try to put it on

2817
01:01:16,065 --> 01:01:17,355
some like they're slick, bro.

2818
01:01:17,360 --> 01:01:17,615
That's true.

2819
01:01:17,615 --> 01:01:18,134
That's a snake.

2820
01:01:18,645 --> 01:01:18,827
That's the truth.

2821
01:01:18,944 --> 01:01:20,475
Ain't gonna cat with you, man.

2822
01:01:20,895 --> 01:01:22,575
I know some people that.

2823
01:01:23,115 --> 01:01:24,705
Could definitely at least be

2824
01:01:24,705 --> 01:01:26,325
a murderer if they needed to.

2825
01:01:26,835 --> 01:01:28,845
And I feel very comfortable with

2826
01:01:28,850 --> 01:01:30,705
them rather, rather than somebody

2827
01:01:30,705 --> 01:01:32,294
that, you know, is a known thief.

2828
01:01:32,415 --> 01:01:32,984
Yeah.

2829
01:01:33,125 --> 01:01:33,415
Yeah.

2830
01:01:33,419 --> 01:01:35,055
You wouldn't even be like, we wouldn't

2831
01:01:35,055 --> 01:01:36,015
even be having a conversation.

2832
01:01:36,015 --> 01:01:36,495
Exactly.

2833
01:01:36,495 --> 01:01:36,884
That's facts.

2834
01:01:36,915 --> 01:01:38,145
You wouldn't let them in your house.

2835
01:01:38,415 --> 01:01:39,404
**** no Bests facts.

2836
01:01:39,404 --> 01:01:40,575
You'd be like, bro, but you wouldn't

2837
01:01:40,575 --> 01:01:41,955
let a murderer in your house.

2838
01:01:41,955 --> 01:01:43,335
That's actually a little bit weird.

2839
01:01:43,335 --> 01:01:43,935
Strangely enough.

2840
01:01:43,935 --> 01:01:46,305
I don't know why the **** I ever

2841
01:01:46,305 --> 01:01:47,504
was around anybody that just

2842
01:01:47,504 --> 01:01:48,464
couldn't accept me being me.

2843
01:01:48,464 --> 01:01:49,484
I don't, I can't.

2844
01:01:49,484 --> 01:01:50,504
We go through that.

2845
01:01:50,535 --> 01:01:51,524
We all go through that.

2846
01:01:51,645 --> 01:01:52,845
But I'm saying like, I can't

2847
01:01:52,845 --> 01:01:54,225
accept, I, I don't understand that

2848
01:01:54,225 --> 01:01:56,325
now, because now me who I am now.

2849
01:01:56,415 --> 01:01:57,345
Yeah, you wouldn't allow that.

2850
01:01:57,345 --> 01:01:58,455
I couldn't even, no, I wouldn't

2851
01:01:58,455 --> 01:01:59,745
even play with nobody for trying to

2852
01:02:00,194 --> 01:02:01,605
ostracize me for being different.

2853
01:02:01,609 --> 01:02:01,774
Yeah.

2854
01:02:01,779 --> 01:02:01,995
Yeah.

2855
01:02:01,995 --> 01:02:02,654
Like, I don't really like,

2856
01:02:02,955 --> 01:02:04,694
you know, I'm gonna be real.

2857
01:02:04,785 --> 01:02:05,774
This is something I grew up with.

2858
01:02:05,779 --> 01:02:06,794
Just, just tell me if

2859
01:02:06,794 --> 01:02:07,544
you, if you can feel me.

2860
01:02:07,665 --> 01:02:07,964
Okay.

2861
01:02:08,055 --> 01:02:08,415
Lemme check.

2862
01:02:08,475 --> 01:02:08,835
Let's go.

2863
01:02:09,274 --> 01:02:09,495
Why?

2864
01:02:09,500 --> 01:02:10,845
Why you talk like that, man?

2865
01:02:11,125 --> 01:02:12,774
Talk like a, talk like a white boy, man.

2866
01:02:12,875 --> 01:02:14,015
Ah, you dress like that, man.

2867
01:02:14,314 --> 01:02:15,524
You dressed like a little skater, boy.

2868
01:02:15,529 --> 01:02:16,274
You know them white boys.

2869
01:02:16,274 --> 01:02:17,355
Don't white boys do that, man.

2870
01:02:17,355 --> 01:02:17,984
Yeah.

2871
01:02:17,984 --> 01:02:17,986
Yeah.

2872
01:02:17,991 --> 01:02:20,205
Yo, you know, like, like on

2873
01:02:20,205 --> 01:02:21,194
some real crazy ****, bro.

2874
01:02:21,194 --> 01:02:23,220
Like, If you ever wanna see me

2875
01:02:23,220 --> 01:02:24,479
get really crazy, bro, just get

2876
01:02:24,479 --> 01:02:25,709
somebody to walk up to me and say

2877
01:02:25,709 --> 01:02:26,640
some **** like that to me, bro.

2878
01:02:26,850 --> 01:02:27,990
Somebody say some **** like that.

2879
01:02:28,140 --> 01:02:28,649
What the **** are you

2880
01:02:28,649 --> 01:02:29,250
really trying to say?

2881
01:02:30,029 --> 01:02:30,810
Let's just be real.

2882
01:02:30,930 --> 01:02:30,959
Okay.

2883
01:02:30,990 --> 01:02:32,549
What do black people view white people as?

2884
01:02:32,549 --> 01:02:34,109
People that are more privileged, people

2885
01:02:34,115 --> 01:02:36,390
that are kind of more easily intimidated,

2886
01:02:36,660 --> 01:02:38,729
kind of people that are smart and porn.

2887
01:02:38,729 --> 01:02:39,569
Dex three but weak.

2888
01:02:40,259 --> 01:02:40,979
I'm not saying that's what

2889
01:02:40,979 --> 01:02:42,419
they are, but that's how black

2890
01:02:42,419 --> 01:02:43,649
people that say you talk white.

2891
01:02:43,770 --> 01:02:45,149
That's what they say when they, that's

2892
01:02:45,149 --> 01:02:46,379
what they mean when they say that ****.

2893
01:02:46,379 --> 01:02:46,470
Mm-hmm.

2894
01:02:46,709 --> 01:02:49,109
I don't see in no way how somebody

2895
01:02:49,109 --> 01:02:50,520
telling somebody that they talk

2896
01:02:50,520 --> 01:02:52,020
like another race than what they

2897
01:02:52,020 --> 01:02:55,950
actually are is a A good thing.

2898
01:02:56,069 --> 01:02:56,370
Yeah.

2899
01:02:56,759 --> 01:02:57,870
Even if you trying to say that

2900
01:02:57,875 --> 01:03:00,419
they can articulately speak.

2901
01:03:00,629 --> 01:03:00,720
Mm-hmm.

2902
01:03:00,959 --> 01:03:01,979
I'm like, what the ****?

2903
01:03:02,399 --> 01:03:03,120
You can't just say that.

2904
01:03:03,120 --> 01:03:04,169
They ******* smart and you sound

2905
01:03:04,169 --> 01:03:05,459
smart and sound and tell smart.

2906
01:03:05,459 --> 01:03:06,540
I remember the last time a dude

2907
01:03:06,540 --> 01:03:07,470
tried to say that **** and he was

2908
01:03:07,470 --> 01:03:09,540
joking and, and he was really cool.

2909
01:03:09,825 --> 01:03:11,384
But I really don't be like, I'm

2910
01:03:11,384 --> 01:03:12,285
telling you, it's a real truth.

2911
01:03:12,285 --> 01:03:13,484
I don't be playing and

2912
01:03:13,484 --> 01:03:14,504
we can all be joking.

2913
01:03:14,805 --> 01:03:15,615
Somebody say some **** like

2914
01:03:15,620 --> 01:03:16,455
that, I'm gonna take it there.

2915
01:03:16,665 --> 01:03:16,995
Yeah.

2916
01:03:17,055 --> 01:03:17,835
And I'm gonna say the thing

2917
01:03:17,835 --> 01:03:18,524
that's gonna take it there.

2918
01:03:18,529 --> 01:03:19,004
Gotcha, gotcha.

2919
01:03:19,004 --> 01:03:21,464
He said, he said, man, why you sound like

2920
01:03:21,464 --> 01:03:22,845
a, uh, why you sound like a white boy for?

2921
01:03:23,595 --> 01:03:24,225
I was like, I don't know

2922
01:03:24,225 --> 01:03:25,185
why you sound like a *****.

2923
01:03:26,654 --> 01:03:28,214
And it went, it went sideways.

2924
01:03:28,214 --> 01:03:29,625
And I can, yeah, I can definitely do that.

2925
01:03:29,625 --> 01:03:29,955
Going sideways.

2926
01:03:30,075 --> 01:03:31,335
I can say I I was in the wrong,

2927
01:03:31,335 --> 01:03:31,995
but I didn't give a ****.

2928
01:03:32,115 --> 01:03:32,895
I didn't give a **** at all.

2929
01:03:34,095 --> 01:03:35,475
Nah, you really tried that, tried

2930
01:03:35,475 --> 01:03:36,404
to slip that little **** in there.

2931
01:03:36,410 --> 01:03:37,274
I just asked you a simple

2932
01:03:37,279 --> 01:03:38,174
question like you asked me.

2933
01:03:38,265 --> 01:03:38,924
He said, yeah.

2934
01:03:38,924 --> 01:03:40,395
You know, I, I I messed up there

2935
01:03:41,835 --> 01:03:43,515
but I mean ****, he never ever

2936
01:03:43,515 --> 01:03:44,565
tried me like that ever again.

2937
01:03:44,625 --> 01:03:44,984
Yeah.

2938
01:03:44,984 --> 01:03:45,254
Ever.

2939
01:03:45,915 --> 01:03:46,065
Yeah.

2940
01:03:46,095 --> 01:03:46,515
We bet.

2941
01:03:46,575 --> 01:03:46,904
We bet.

2942
01:03:46,904 --> 01:03:47,865
We talking about Latin bro.

2943
01:03:47,865 --> 01:03:49,365
I don't know if y'all know, but man,

2944
01:03:49,365 --> 01:03:51,524
like if you're not hip on Latin, I don't

2945
01:03:51,524 --> 01:03:52,575
know what's going on with your man.

2946
01:03:52,580 --> 01:03:53,205
Dead language.

2947
01:03:53,205 --> 01:03:54,915
But hey, if you know some **** in Latin,

2948
01:03:54,915 --> 01:03:56,865
man, there's some **** that'll help you.

2949
01:03:56,870 --> 01:03:58,154
That's why I got Parabellum

2950
01:03:58,160 --> 01:03:59,355
tatted on my eyebrow, man.

2951
01:03:59,535 --> 01:04:01,665
A lot of reasons why I do things

2952
01:04:01,669 --> 01:04:03,404
that I do is to break stereotypes.

2953
01:04:03,435 --> 01:04:04,035
'cause I.

2954
01:04:04,815 --> 01:04:05,625
Am a stereotype.

2955
01:04:05,654 --> 01:04:07,275
I am an underestimated person.

2956
01:04:07,275 --> 01:04:08,475
I am a person that people look at

2957
01:04:08,480 --> 01:04:09,795
me and think something and then

2958
01:04:09,795 --> 01:04:11,384
I open my mouth and I, I give

2959
01:04:11,384 --> 01:04:12,705
them a whole different mm-hmm.

2960
01:04:13,245 --> 01:04:14,505
Like, ****, I thought he was like

2961
01:04:14,505 --> 01:04:15,615
this, but he's whole like this,

2962
01:04:15,705 --> 01:04:16,485
you know, there's nothing wrong.

2963
01:04:16,485 --> 01:04:17,745
Something I randomly looked up.

2964
01:04:17,745 --> 01:04:19,395
Just 'cause But go ahead.

2965
01:04:19,395 --> 01:04:20,654
I look this up because it's something

2966
01:04:20,660 --> 01:04:22,575
I'd be experiencing when I be standing

2967
01:04:22,575 --> 01:04:24,255
on like a tall *** building or

2968
01:04:24,255 --> 01:04:25,215
standing on the ledge or something.

2969
01:04:25,275 --> 01:04:26,055
'cause where I live at in

2970
01:04:26,055 --> 01:04:27,045
Raleigh, I live in a penthouse.

2971
01:04:27,285 --> 01:04:27,495
Okay.

2972
01:04:27,495 --> 01:04:28,634
And there's a, um, you know, like the

2973
01:04:28,634 --> 01:04:29,895
sixth floor and we could, I could stand

2974
01:04:29,895 --> 01:04:31,245
on the ledge and just be looking down

2975
01:04:31,245 --> 01:04:32,265
on the whole city and **** like that.

2976
01:04:32,295 --> 01:04:32,535
Yeah.

2977
01:04:32,535 --> 01:04:33,495
You feel like a nigga.

2978
01:04:35,515 --> 01:04:37,694
So like I heard that I, you know, I'm

2979
01:04:37,694 --> 01:04:38,835
feeling like a nigga and **** like that.

2980
01:04:38,840 --> 01:04:38,895
Yeah.

2981
01:04:38,895 --> 01:04:40,424
I'm out there and like,

2982
01:04:40,430 --> 01:04:41,895
just intrusive though.

2983
01:04:41,985 --> 01:04:43,245
Jump, jump over the ledge.

2984
01:04:43,245 --> 01:04:43,995
What if you just fell?

2985
01:04:43,995 --> 01:04:45,404
What if you just jumped ledge?

2986
01:04:45,404 --> 01:04:46,275
This ledge crazy, but it's not

2987
01:04:46,275 --> 01:04:47,685
like in a suicidal thought.

2988
01:04:47,835 --> 01:04:48,674
I had to go look it up.

2989
01:04:48,674 --> 01:04:49,215
'cause I'm like, what

2990
01:04:49,245 --> 01:04:50,835
the **** is up with that?

2991
01:04:50,955 --> 01:04:51,194
Yeah.

2992
01:04:51,674 --> 01:04:54,315
It's called the call of the void.

2993
01:04:55,005 --> 01:04:55,725
The call of the void.

2994
01:04:55,725 --> 01:04:56,255
The call of the void.

2995
01:04:56,255 --> 01:04:56,495
Okay.

2996
01:04:56,495 --> 01:04:57,815
It's basically where I gotta plug that in.

2997
01:04:58,245 --> 01:04:59,384
It's basically where your

2998
01:04:59,384 --> 01:05:00,944
brain is sending signals.

2999
01:05:01,725 --> 01:05:03,134
Like warning signals to your brain

3000
01:05:03,134 --> 01:05:04,605
so rapidly that it's confusing you.

3001
01:05:05,055 --> 01:05:06,555
All you know to do is when you're

3002
01:05:06,555 --> 01:05:08,865
high up on something is to get down.

3003
01:05:09,555 --> 01:05:10,544
'cause your brain is sending

3004
01:05:10,544 --> 01:05:11,654
signals like get down, get down.

3005
01:05:11,714 --> 01:05:12,524
Like, you're in danger.

3006
01:05:12,584 --> 01:05:13,334
You're really high up.

3007
01:05:13,605 --> 01:05:14,535
Like that's the, the feeling

3008
01:05:14,535 --> 01:05:15,435
of vertigo that you get.

3009
01:05:15,435 --> 01:05:17,115
Like people that have vertigo or have

3010
01:05:17,294 --> 01:05:19,154
fear of heights, it's your body sending

3011
01:05:19,154 --> 01:05:21,285
you intense signals so intense that

3012
01:05:21,285 --> 01:05:23,535
sometimes signals get mixed up and

3013
01:05:23,535 --> 01:05:25,754
it's telling you to jump, jump, jump.

3014
01:05:26,564 --> 01:05:28,544
And it's not like, it's not like a urge,

3015
01:05:28,995 --> 01:05:30,645
but it's like a get away from danger.

3016
01:05:30,674 --> 01:05:30,944
Yes.

3017
01:05:31,350 --> 01:05:32,640
It's like your 'cause jumping means

3018
01:05:32,640 --> 01:05:33,810
they're gonna get back on the ground,

3019
01:05:34,770 --> 01:05:36,240
but instead they're gonna be dead.

3020
01:05:36,240 --> 01:05:36,629
It's crazy.

3021
01:05:36,629 --> 01:05:36,870
Yes.

3022
01:05:36,870 --> 01:05:37,229
It's crazy.

3023
01:05:37,620 --> 01:05:38,310
It's crazy, bro.

3024
01:05:38,370 --> 01:05:38,609
Wow.

3025
01:05:38,609 --> 01:05:39,750
And that's why they, it's a, it's a

3026
01:05:39,750 --> 01:05:41,100
confusing thing because like they try

3027
01:05:41,100 --> 01:05:43,229
to um, they try to understand what

3028
01:05:43,229 --> 01:05:44,759
that has to do with suicide because

3029
01:05:44,759 --> 01:05:45,750
they feel like that has something to

3030
01:05:45,754 --> 01:05:46,890
do with su but it actually doesn't,

3031
01:05:47,009 --> 01:05:48,359
people that commit suicide have already

3032
01:05:48,365 --> 01:05:49,830
made that conscious decision to jump

3033
01:05:49,830 --> 01:05:51,029
before they even ever got the me.

3034
01:05:51,180 --> 01:05:53,129
Yeah, because you have to be in that

3035
01:05:53,129 --> 01:05:54,540
environment or in that particular

3036
01:05:54,540 --> 01:05:56,069
predicament in order for your brain

3037
01:05:56,075 --> 01:05:58,470
to send those signals if you Exactly.

3038
01:05:58,799 --> 01:05:59,490
And a lot of we can't.

3039
01:05:59,509 --> 01:06:00,950
There's who have jumped.

3040
01:06:00,970 --> 01:06:01,709
I'm have to blurt that out.

3041
01:06:01,979 --> 01:06:02,970
Everything is so sensitive now.

3042
01:06:03,270 --> 01:06:03,569
Yeah.

3043
01:06:03,600 --> 01:06:04,109
Jesus.

3044
01:06:04,169 --> 01:06:05,609
It's really crazy that we have to like,

3045
01:06:05,669 --> 01:06:07,020
we have to Are you gonna be backing

3046
01:06:07,020 --> 01:06:08,009
out my curse words and stuff too?

3047
01:06:08,069 --> 01:06:08,189
No.

3048
01:06:08,189 --> 01:06:09,240
That's gonna be so funny.

3049
01:06:09,240 --> 01:06:10,350
I was gonna say, are you gonna do that?

3050
01:06:10,350 --> 01:06:11,339
That's funny.

3051
01:06:11,339 --> 01:06:12,359
Not at all as ****.

3052
01:06:12,359 --> 01:06:13,500
You know how much time that would

3053
01:06:13,500 --> 01:06:15,689
be if I did that for people?

3054
01:06:16,080 --> 01:06:18,509
I don't understand how women can a

3055
01:06:18,515 --> 01:06:20,790
assume that a man is in love with any

3056
01:06:20,794 --> 01:06:24,540
and every woman he, he courts just

3057
01:06:24,544 --> 01:06:25,950
because he feels that way about her.

3058
01:06:26,370 --> 01:06:28,020
That is a crazy notion because.

3059
01:06:28,395 --> 01:06:30,105
Like I, I was like dating a girl

3060
01:06:30,105 --> 01:06:30,884
or something like that, Uhhuh,

3061
01:06:30,884 --> 01:06:32,384
and I'd be around a woman or like

3062
01:06:32,865 --> 01:06:34,335
date, uh, messing with this other

3063
01:06:34,335 --> 01:06:35,145
girl or something like that.

3064
01:06:35,149 --> 01:06:36,524
Uhhuh, you know, we'll be having

3065
01:06:36,524 --> 01:06:37,214
sex or some **** like that.

3066
01:06:37,214 --> 01:06:37,785
Some crazy ****.

3067
01:06:37,785 --> 01:06:39,404
Like, we'll be *******, and she'll be

3068
01:06:39,404 --> 01:06:41,355
like asking me like, do I love this pussy?

3069
01:06:41,355 --> 01:06:42,645
And she like, I can't even come

3070
01:06:42,645 --> 01:06:45,285
out my mouth and say that, what?

3071
01:06:45,435 --> 01:06:46,964
I can't even say no **** like this.

3072
01:06:47,115 --> 01:06:48,705
Like you ever had a girl try to say like,

3073
01:06:48,705 --> 01:06:49,995
this is the best pussy you ever had.

3074
01:06:52,904 --> 01:06:53,685
Uh,

3075
01:06:57,315 --> 01:06:58,815
you, wally, I be ignoring it.

3076
01:06:59,035 --> 01:07:01,214
I'd be like, um, wow.

3077
01:07:01,775 --> 01:07:01,895
Turnover.

3078
01:07:01,900 --> 01:07:03,105
You don't say anything, bro.

3079
01:07:03,134 --> 01:07:03,585
Turnover.

3080
01:07:03,734 --> 01:07:04,815
You don't say anything.

3081
01:07:04,845 --> 01:07:05,234
Turnover.

3082
01:07:05,234 --> 01:07:05,935
That's what I, dang.

3083
01:07:06,825 --> 01:07:08,174
That's crazy.

3084
01:07:08,174 --> 01:07:09,134
Because I'm not about to lie, bro.

3085
01:07:09,705 --> 01:07:10,424
I mean, I like that.

3086
01:07:10,424 --> 01:07:11,475
You're not about to lie.

3087
01:07:11,475 --> 01:07:12,015
You know what I'm saying?

3088
01:07:12,194 --> 01:07:13,005
At least that, and it's so real.

3089
01:07:13,009 --> 01:07:13,964
But Nah, it's so real.

3090
01:07:13,964 --> 01:07:15,375
I, it, it's a, it's a gift

3091
01:07:15,375 --> 01:07:16,335
and a curse at the same time.

3092
01:07:16,335 --> 01:07:18,134
Like it didn't really, being brutally

3093
01:07:18,194 --> 01:07:19,654
honest though, really sad, brutally honest

3094
01:07:19,694 --> 01:07:21,375
is more so based off of a feeling that

3095
01:07:21,375 --> 01:07:23,745
like, I relate, lying to being afraid.

3096
01:07:24,075 --> 01:07:25,694
People really only lie when they're afraid

3097
01:07:25,694 --> 01:07:27,455
of somebody's not just what somebody do.

3098
01:07:28,214 --> 01:07:29,055
Somebody's reaction.

3099
01:07:29,060 --> 01:07:29,255
Yeah.

3100
01:07:29,444 --> 01:07:31,424
Somebody's retort, somebody's responses.

3101
01:07:31,455 --> 01:07:31,755
Yeah.

3102
01:07:31,785 --> 01:07:33,585
Like, just they're afraid of that.

3103
01:07:33,589 --> 01:07:33,855
Right.

3104
01:07:33,875 --> 01:07:35,055
So they have, they feel like they have

3105
01:07:35,055 --> 01:07:38,115
to lie to either save face or of their

3106
01:07:38,115 --> 01:07:39,705
feelings or the person's feelings

3107
01:07:39,705 --> 01:07:40,694
that they feel like they might hurt.

3108
01:07:40,785 --> 01:07:41,025
Yeah.

3109
01:07:41,029 --> 01:07:41,095
Yeah.

3110
01:07:41,145 --> 01:07:41,625
You know what I'm saying?

3111
01:07:41,625 --> 01:07:42,705
That's usually why people lie.

3112
01:07:42,705 --> 01:07:42,975
Yeah.

3113
01:07:42,975 --> 01:07:45,515
Me personally, I only lie to get

3114
01:07:45,515 --> 01:07:48,185
out of government official trumpet.

3115
01:07:48,515 --> 01:07:49,895
They're locking your *** up right now.

3116
01:07:50,225 --> 01:07:50,674
I what?

3117
01:07:50,674 --> 01:07:51,035
For what?

3118
01:07:51,214 --> 01:07:51,754
Nah, nah.

3119
01:07:52,834 --> 01:07:53,314
They gonna have to tell

3120
01:07:53,319 --> 01:07:53,955
me what I lied about.

3121
01:07:55,625 --> 01:07:56,734
I don't know, but yeah.

3122
01:07:56,734 --> 01:07:56,736
Yeah.

3123
01:07:56,825 --> 01:07:57,185
You know what?

3124
01:07:57,185 --> 01:07:58,325
I never thought about the fact

3125
01:07:58,325 --> 01:08:00,515
that lying is coming from, or

3126
01:08:00,515 --> 01:08:02,075
stemming from being afraid, but I

3127
01:08:02,075 --> 01:08:04,415
do agree with that because Yeah.

3128
01:08:04,415 --> 01:08:04,654
Yeah.

3129
01:08:04,654 --> 01:08:05,855
People really only lie

3130
01:08:05,855 --> 01:08:06,875
when they are afraid.

3131
01:08:06,875 --> 01:08:08,314
Like, think about all the men that

3132
01:08:08,314 --> 01:08:09,484
you think of in your life that have

3133
01:08:09,484 --> 01:08:10,714
never really been afraid of anything.

3134
01:08:11,709 --> 01:08:12,519
When did they tell a lie?

3135
01:08:13,720 --> 01:08:15,189
You don't know if they were telling lies.

3136
01:08:15,519 --> 01:08:16,270
You're not that person.

3137
01:08:16,330 --> 01:08:16,870
You're right.

3138
01:08:16,870 --> 01:08:17,260
You're right.

3139
01:08:17,260 --> 01:08:17,830
You're right, you're right.

3140
01:08:17,830 --> 01:08:18,069
You're right.

3141
01:08:18,069 --> 01:08:19,240
You know, everybody lies about something.

3142
01:08:19,240 --> 01:08:19,690
Exactly.

3143
01:08:19,690 --> 01:08:20,230
But like I said, but people

3144
01:08:20,230 --> 01:08:21,040
only lie when they're afraid.

3145
01:08:21,399 --> 01:08:22,480
But I'm saying like, think about

3146
01:08:22,480 --> 01:08:23,680
those situations where somebody has

3147
01:08:23,680 --> 01:08:25,750
told you a brute honest response.

3148
01:08:26,319 --> 01:08:27,460
It's because what did the ****

3149
01:08:27,465 --> 01:08:28,420
did they have to be afraid of?

3150
01:08:28,420 --> 01:08:28,700
That's facts.

3151
01:08:29,450 --> 01:08:30,790
Like I be thinking about when

3152
01:08:30,790 --> 01:08:32,230
my dad used to tell me ****

3153
01:08:32,649 --> 01:08:33,760
and it was hard to swallow.

3154
01:08:33,790 --> 01:08:35,170
'cause like my dad was always

3155
01:08:35,260 --> 01:08:36,100
brutally honest with me.

3156
01:08:36,220 --> 01:08:36,310
Mm-hmm.

3157
01:08:36,609 --> 01:08:37,899
Even before I wanted to accept

3158
01:08:37,899 --> 01:08:38,680
that they was the truth.

3159
01:08:38,685 --> 01:08:38,940
Mm-hmm.

3160
01:08:39,279 --> 01:08:40,690
I'm talking about even stuff with my mom.

3161
01:08:40,690 --> 01:08:42,190
Like, you know, just, just stuff like

3162
01:08:42,220 --> 01:08:43,569
to have to, like, he's telling me what

3163
01:08:43,569 --> 01:08:45,310
it was like and what the real truth is.

3164
01:08:45,310 --> 01:08:47,380
Not like some candy coated ****.

3165
01:08:47,380 --> 01:08:47,830
You know what I'm saying?

3166
01:08:47,830 --> 01:08:48,640
She's telling me the real

3167
01:08:48,640 --> 01:08:50,020
deal that has pros and cons.

3168
01:08:50,050 --> 01:08:50,590
Yes.

3169
01:08:50,680 --> 01:08:51,850
'cause it, it makes you view

3170
01:08:51,850 --> 01:08:52,750
other people differently.

3171
01:08:52,810 --> 01:08:53,050
It does.

3172
01:08:53,050 --> 01:08:54,190
Especially if it's a negative.

3173
01:08:54,700 --> 01:08:55,930
If it's a negative, negative aspect.

3174
01:08:55,930 --> 01:08:56,170
Yeah.

3175
01:08:56,175 --> 01:08:56,590
For sure.

3176
01:08:56,620 --> 01:08:57,100
Especially.

3177
01:08:57,399 --> 01:08:57,580
Yeah.

3178
01:08:57,640 --> 01:08:59,410
But at the same time it helped.

3179
01:08:59,859 --> 01:09:02,050
I appreciate my father more.

3180
01:09:02,400 --> 01:09:03,570
Then I appreciate a lot of people

3181
01:09:03,570 --> 01:09:05,100
in my life just because I can say

3182
01:09:05,100 --> 01:09:06,540
my dad never lied to me straight up.

3183
01:09:06,570 --> 01:09:06,600
Mm.

3184
01:09:07,170 --> 01:09:07,860
He never lied to me.

3185
01:09:07,890 --> 01:09:08,580
He straight, he always

3186
01:09:08,580 --> 01:09:09,300
kept it honest with me.

3187
01:09:09,300 --> 01:09:11,130
He al, even before I was ready for the

3188
01:09:11,130 --> 01:09:12,150
truth, he was telling me the truth.

3189
01:09:12,330 --> 01:09:13,020
And it's powerful.

3190
01:09:13,470 --> 01:09:13,800
Yeah.

3191
01:09:14,460 --> 01:09:16,650
Now am I a little ****** up?

3192
01:09:18,120 --> 01:09:19,920
Perhaps, but yeah, it's

3193
01:09:19,920 --> 01:09:20,700
like I ain't ****** up.

3194
01:09:20,760 --> 01:09:22,500
I'm actually probably the more, I

3195
01:09:22,500 --> 01:09:23,400
actually feel like I'm gonna have

3196
01:09:23,400 --> 01:09:25,170
more of a mental edge than a lot of

3197
01:09:25,170 --> 01:09:26,580
dudes, just because my dad's always

3198
01:09:26,580 --> 01:09:28,890
been genuine, genuinely honest.

3199
01:09:29,160 --> 01:09:29,250
Mm-hmm.

3200
01:09:29,280 --> 01:09:31,470
Now, regardless if he cared about spare

3201
01:09:31,470 --> 01:09:33,300
my feelings, that was questionable.

3202
01:09:33,300 --> 01:09:34,920
But not brutally.

3203
01:09:35,700 --> 01:09:36,840
And I mean, detrimentally, like I

3204
01:09:36,840 --> 01:09:37,952
said, there's pros and cons to that.

3205
01:09:37,957 --> 01:09:38,140
You know what?

3206
01:09:38,140 --> 01:09:38,670
For sure.

3207
01:09:38,730 --> 01:09:40,560
To where you are more prepared for life.

3208
01:09:40,560 --> 01:09:42,000
You see things in a different aspect.

3209
01:09:42,030 --> 01:09:43,470
But now I'm the type person that

3210
01:09:43,470 --> 01:09:44,580
like, bro, sometimes I don't be

3211
01:09:44,580 --> 01:09:45,600
caring about somebody's feelings

3212
01:09:45,600 --> 01:09:46,680
when it come to me speaking.

3213
01:09:46,680 --> 01:09:47,340
And that's one the cons.

3214
01:09:48,180 --> 01:09:49,290
That's one of the cons because you

3215
01:09:49,290 --> 01:09:50,730
gotta have that empathy sometimes.

3216
01:09:50,730 --> 01:09:51,240
You know what I'm saying?

3217
01:09:51,390 --> 01:09:52,950
So many dudes I know that I grew

3218
01:09:52,955 --> 01:09:54,060
up with, bro, it's like that, bro.

3219
01:09:54,210 --> 01:09:54,360
Mm-hmm.

3220
01:09:54,360 --> 01:09:55,830
And I just feel like that's so ****** up.

3221
01:09:55,830 --> 01:09:57,120
I'm talking about bro, like it is dudes.

3222
01:09:57,120 --> 01:09:57,720
I know that.

3223
01:09:59,055 --> 01:10:00,255
Were facing life in prison

3224
01:10:00,255 --> 01:10:02,115
before they was even 18 years.

3225
01:10:02,115 --> 01:10:03,225
The **** old bro.

3226
01:10:03,465 --> 01:10:03,675
****.

3227
01:10:04,455 --> 01:10:05,475
That is crazy.

3228
01:10:05,505 --> 01:10:06,225
That does not like, that

3229
01:10:06,225 --> 01:10:07,695
does not sit well with me.

3230
01:10:07,695 --> 01:10:09,075
Like that doesn't sit well with me, bro.

3231
01:10:09,405 --> 01:10:11,445
It's like, I'm like, ****, bro.

3232
01:10:11,805 --> 01:10:12,495
I don't wanna say that they

3233
01:10:12,500 --> 01:10:13,875
ain't never had a chance, but I

3234
01:10:13,880 --> 01:10:15,075
don't even think they even had.

3235
01:10:15,655 --> 01:10:17,755
A good outlook on life.

3236
01:10:17,785 --> 01:10:18,165
Yeah, yeah.

3237
01:10:18,265 --> 01:10:20,095
Or even like other options to look,

3238
01:10:20,455 --> 01:10:21,985
look, realizing that they like, bro, it's

3239
01:10:21,985 --> 01:10:23,875
more out here than just that ********.

3240
01:10:23,905 --> 01:10:25,135
Like it's more out here than just

3241
01:10:25,140 --> 01:10:26,785
feeling like you gotta be a ******* thug.

3242
01:10:27,235 --> 01:10:28,015
It's more out here than just

3243
01:10:28,015 --> 01:10:29,005
being a ******* gangster.

3244
01:10:29,245 --> 01:10:30,325
Like, you know, just, just

3245
01:10:30,325 --> 01:10:32,005
figuratively though, you know, we're

3246
01:10:32,005 --> 01:10:33,565
all gonna be scared to take that

3247
01:10:33,595 --> 01:10:35,665
jump, that leap sometimes, like, and

3248
01:10:35,785 --> 01:10:37,705
whatever you're not scared of, that

3249
01:10:37,705 --> 01:10:38,755
means it's not that leap for you.

3250
01:10:39,925 --> 01:10:41,845
But whenever you do take that leap

3251
01:10:41,845 --> 01:10:44,155
that you are scared of, then after

3252
01:10:44,155 --> 01:10:45,775
that you're gonna be able to see things

3253
01:10:45,925 --> 01:10:47,545
in a different perspective, you know?

3254
01:10:47,550 --> 01:10:49,045
And just expand your whole mind.

3255
01:10:49,225 --> 01:10:51,115
I've seen a lot of different rappers

3256
01:10:51,115 --> 01:10:52,435
and they talk about, yo like, you

3257
01:10:52,435 --> 01:10:55,105
know, I took my homeboys from from

3258
01:10:55,105 --> 01:10:56,065
the block or whatever, whatever,

3259
01:10:56,065 --> 01:10:57,715
and I took 'em to Paris and that

3260
01:10:57,715 --> 01:10:59,545
just blew their ******* mind.

3261
01:10:59,725 --> 01:10:59,905
What?

3262
01:10:59,905 --> 01:11:01,075
You go to ******* Paris or so?

3263
01:11:01,255 --> 01:11:01,585
Yeah.

3264
01:11:01,590 --> 01:11:01,685
Yeah.

3265
01:11:01,975 --> 01:11:03,535
But you know what, I don't understand

3266
01:11:03,535 --> 01:11:04,705
about that type of **** though.

3267
01:11:05,185 --> 01:11:06,025
Some aladin ****.

3268
01:11:06,480 --> 01:11:08,130
But at the same time, I don't believe

3269
01:11:08,130 --> 01:11:09,720
in having entourages and **** like that.

3270
01:11:09,720 --> 01:11:11,070
Like I understand bringing your niggas

3271
01:11:11,070 --> 01:11:12,300
out and like, you know, showing 'em

3272
01:11:12,300 --> 01:11:13,470
some **** they ain't never seen before.

3273
01:11:13,530 --> 01:11:13,830
Yeah.

3274
01:11:14,130 --> 01:11:15,360
But how many niggas is actually gonna

3275
01:11:15,360 --> 01:11:16,620
be grateful for some **** like that?

3276
01:11:16,620 --> 01:11:16,980
For sure.

3277
01:11:17,040 --> 01:11:18,220
I'm not talking people, I mean, like 12.

3278
01:11:18,225 --> 01:11:20,100
They'll be grateful to be out in Paris.

3279
01:11:20,100 --> 01:11:21,540
Like they'll be having a good *** time.

3280
01:11:21,540 --> 01:11:23,310
But are they going to understand

3281
01:11:23,310 --> 01:11:26,640
like, wow, bro, I'm, I'm out in Paris.

3282
01:11:26,700 --> 01:11:28,470
Like I'm in, I'm in.

3283
01:11:29,070 --> 01:11:31,500
Like for me, like bro, I would,

3284
01:11:31,500 --> 01:11:32,760
bro, I would be, it, it would be

3285
01:11:32,760 --> 01:11:34,320
a whole different, like all I've

3286
01:11:34,320 --> 01:11:36,210
ever wanted to do is go abroad bro.

3287
01:11:36,210 --> 01:11:37,530
Because I feel like I would just

3288
01:11:37,535 --> 01:11:38,910
be so much more accepted there.

3289
01:11:39,420 --> 01:11:40,080
I swear.

3290
01:11:40,085 --> 01:11:40,440
What?

3291
01:11:40,620 --> 01:11:40,800
Yeah.

3292
01:11:40,830 --> 01:11:41,850
You talking about they love

3293
01:11:41,855 --> 01:11:42,810
Americans over there, bro.

3294
01:11:42,840 --> 01:11:45,510
Like they, the rap scene, everything

3295
01:11:45,510 --> 01:11:46,710
about the co pop culture is

3296
01:11:46,710 --> 01:11:47,970
inspired by American culture.

3297
01:11:48,030 --> 01:11:48,510
That is true.

3298
01:11:48,570 --> 01:11:48,930
Easily.

3299
01:11:49,230 --> 01:11:49,650
Very true.

3300
01:11:49,740 --> 01:11:51,480
So like just to go over there.

3301
01:11:51,960 --> 01:11:53,910
I know for one, the money is crazy.

3302
01:11:54,540 --> 01:11:54,840
Yeah.

3303
01:11:54,900 --> 01:11:56,580
In Europe, the money is

3304
01:11:56,580 --> 01:11:58,080
crazy for a black artist.

3305
01:11:58,110 --> 01:11:58,410
Yeah.

3306
01:11:58,800 --> 01:11:59,160
Crazy.

3307
01:11:59,430 --> 01:12:00,960
That is a lot of weird **** going on out

3308
01:12:00,960 --> 01:12:02,490
there with the little blackface dolls.

3309
01:12:02,490 --> 01:12:02,730
****.

3310
01:12:02,790 --> 01:12:03,960
I don't know if you even know about that.

3311
01:12:03,960 --> 01:12:04,220
I didn't know that.

3312
01:12:04,260 --> 01:12:04,410
Yeah.

3313
01:12:04,410 --> 01:12:06,855
Some weird type of, *******

3314
01:12:06,855 --> 01:12:08,895
festival they have out in a Poland.

3315
01:12:09,510 --> 01:12:12,570
Or Sweden or some, somewhere out there.

3316
01:12:12,570 --> 01:12:13,830
They be doing some blackface.

3317
01:12:14,070 --> 01:12:14,460
I don't know.

3318
01:12:14,610 --> 01:12:15,059
Don't know.

3319
01:12:15,120 --> 01:12:15,720
Don't care.

3320
01:12:15,750 --> 01:12:16,559
I'm not going to Sweden.

3321
01:12:16,565 --> 01:12:17,340
Yeah, I probably will go to

3322
01:12:17,345 --> 01:12:18,000
Sweden 'cause I heard they

3323
01:12:18,000 --> 01:12:18,840
have some good **** out there.

3324
01:12:18,900 --> 01:12:19,230
Okay.

3325
01:12:19,260 --> 01:12:22,500
But shout out Sweden the third time and

3326
01:12:22,500 --> 01:12:23,970
yeah, bro, like I just feel like a lot

3327
01:12:23,974 --> 01:12:25,440
of dudes wouldn't really be appreciated

3328
01:12:25,445 --> 01:12:26,970
of that opportunity to do something that

3329
01:12:26,970 --> 01:12:27,990
crazy, like, you know what I'm saying?

3330
01:12:28,170 --> 01:12:29,400
Just that life changing

3331
01:12:29,820 --> 01:12:30,900
to go over there, bro.

3332
01:12:31,080 --> 01:12:32,880
Literally, and just see a whole

3333
01:12:32,880 --> 01:12:34,500
different world than you're used to.

3334
01:12:34,710 --> 01:12:35,849
Whole different way of life.

3335
01:12:35,880 --> 01:12:37,410
******* cars driving a different

3336
01:12:37,410 --> 01:12:38,160
side of the street, man.

3337
01:12:38,160 --> 01:12:38,220
Yeah.

3338
01:12:38,224 --> 01:12:38,580
That's facts.

3339
01:12:38,639 --> 01:12:39,240
You get what I'm saying?

3340
01:12:39,240 --> 01:12:40,620
Like, it's a whole different, like, I

3341
01:12:40,620 --> 01:12:43,260
would just be so flabbergasted, bro.

3342
01:12:43,320 --> 01:12:44,760
I really want to go to flabbergasted.

3343
01:12:44,760 --> 01:12:45,900
That's the word I used in a while.

3344
01:12:45,900 --> 01:12:46,440
Crazy bro.

3345
01:12:46,740 --> 01:12:49,410
I, I would be so I'm not even a

3346
01:12:49,410 --> 01:12:51,090
like, bro, I, I'm a type person.

3347
01:12:51,090 --> 01:12:52,290
I'm not a starstruck person.

3348
01:12:52,290 --> 01:12:53,220
I'm not a person that goes

3349
01:12:53,224 --> 01:12:54,059
places that ain't never been

3350
01:12:54,059 --> 01:12:55,950
before and be like, oh my God.

3351
01:12:55,980 --> 01:12:57,150
But I, but I'm a person

3352
01:12:57,150 --> 01:12:58,260
that do take into scenery.

3353
01:12:58,410 --> 01:12:58,590
Of course.

3354
01:12:58,590 --> 01:12:59,670
I'm big on that like, yeah.

3355
01:12:59,895 --> 01:13:01,215
When, you know, I'm amazed is when I'm

3356
01:13:01,215 --> 01:13:02,925
just being quiet and just, just sitting,

3357
01:13:02,925 --> 01:13:04,605
just watching, just looking at everything.

3358
01:13:04,605 --> 01:13:05,985
Taking it all in mental note.

3359
01:13:06,375 --> 01:13:06,615
Yep.

3360
01:13:06,675 --> 01:13:07,905
I'm gonna absorb all of this into

3361
01:13:07,905 --> 01:13:09,135
my brain and never forget it.

3362
01:13:09,135 --> 01:13:09,675
The rest of my life we're

3363
01:13:09,675 --> 01:13:10,755
very similar in that aspect.

3364
01:13:10,755 --> 01:13:11,085
Definitely.

3365
01:13:11,085 --> 01:13:11,325
For sure.

3366
01:13:11,330 --> 01:13:11,405
Definitely.

3367
01:13:11,445 --> 01:13:12,225
I, and you know, I'm not

3368
01:13:12,225 --> 01:13:13,305
gonna say **** for sure.

3369
01:13:13,305 --> 01:13:13,845
I'm not gonna lie.

3370
01:13:14,985 --> 01:13:16,155
I do see myself being a little

3371
01:13:16,155 --> 01:13:17,715
flabbergasted and star stunned to be

3372
01:13:17,720 --> 01:13:20,865
out in ******* either London or Japan.

3373
01:13:20,985 --> 01:13:22,515
'cause like, bro, those two places,

3374
01:13:22,520 --> 01:13:23,625
bro, I, 'cause that's somewhere

3375
01:13:23,625 --> 01:13:24,705
I've always wanted, I've always

3376
01:13:24,705 --> 01:13:25,755
wanted to live in Japan, bro.

3377
01:13:25,785 --> 01:13:27,075
I always hear about people saying that

3378
01:13:27,080 --> 01:13:28,065
they don't wanna live in Japan because

3379
01:13:28,065 --> 01:13:30,435
they, no matter how much they fit into

3380
01:13:30,435 --> 01:13:32,145
the society and learn the, the ways

3381
01:13:32,145 --> 01:13:33,525
that the people, they still feel like

3382
01:13:33,525 --> 01:13:36,045
they won't be demographically accepted.

3383
01:13:36,195 --> 01:13:36,345
Yeah.

3384
01:13:36,375 --> 01:13:36,945
**** that.

3385
01:13:36,950 --> 01:13:38,485
I had a friend who lived in Japan.

3386
01:13:38,565 --> 01:13:39,045
I **** with that ****.

3387
01:13:39,125 --> 01:13:40,455
A, that **** so much how they

3388
01:13:40,695 --> 01:13:42,285
automatically respect people over that,

3389
01:13:42,315 --> 01:13:44,715
like the, the system of respect over there

3390
01:13:44,715 --> 01:13:47,715
in Japan, bro is so motherfucking elite.

3391
01:13:48,405 --> 01:13:50,144
If somebody steps on your shoe wrong,

3392
01:13:50,265 --> 01:13:52,305
they will bow to your ******* feet.

3393
01:13:52,515 --> 01:13:53,415
I'm not saying that I want

3394
01:13:53,415 --> 01:13:54,825
somebody to do that, but I, I

3395
01:13:54,825 --> 01:13:56,684
admire that level of respect.

3396
01:13:56,690 --> 01:13:57,545
Respect for each other and,

3397
01:13:57,585 --> 01:13:59,655
and that just apologetic ness.

3398
01:13:59,715 --> 01:14:00,405
Yeah, for sure.

3399
01:14:00,405 --> 01:14:01,545
And really letting somebody know that

3400
01:14:01,545 --> 01:14:02,565
and like, bro, you know, American

3401
01:14:02,565 --> 01:14:04,215
is like the, the complete opposite.

3402
01:14:04,550 --> 01:14:05,000
Yes, bro.

3403
01:14:05,005 --> 01:14:05,360
Like that.

3404
01:14:05,630 --> 01:14:07,730
Niggas over here, they, they'll smack

3405
01:14:07,730 --> 01:14:09,260
a shot at you for just even saying that

3406
01:14:09,260 --> 01:14:11,450
you sc at you or some **** like that.

3407
01:14:11,690 --> 01:14:12,770
Like, bro, it's crazy.

3408
01:14:12,770 --> 01:14:14,360
Over here is the only place that somebody

3409
01:14:14,360 --> 01:14:15,740
will beat you up because they did you

3410
01:14:15,745 --> 01:14:18,530
wrong or shoot you because you did.

3411
01:14:18,535 --> 01:14:19,850
Like you, you called them

3412
01:14:19,850 --> 01:14:20,840
out for what they did to you.

3413
01:14:20,990 --> 01:14:21,260
Yeah.

3414
01:14:21,265 --> 01:14:21,830
Facts crazy.

3415
01:14:21,980 --> 01:14:22,820
Facts crazy over here.

3416
01:14:22,880 --> 01:14:23,930
I want to get the **** away.

3417
01:14:24,630 --> 01:14:25,580
I ain't gonna lie to you.

3418
01:14:26,360 --> 01:14:27,680
It's been a long ******* time.

3419
01:14:27,680 --> 01:14:28,160
It is, bro.

3420
01:14:28,160 --> 01:14:29,180
I ain't gonna hold you, man.

3421
01:14:29,270 --> 01:14:30,590
And I want to say thank y'all to

3422
01:14:30,590 --> 01:14:32,150
everybody who has been listening

3423
01:14:32,150 --> 01:14:34,370
this far because man, you a trooper.

3424
01:14:34,375 --> 01:14:35,720
If you haven't subscribed by now, I don't

3425
01:14:35,720 --> 01:14:37,430
know what the **** you're doing at this.

3426
01:14:37,430 --> 01:14:39,890
Point, point I you're a ghost.

3427
01:14:39,980 --> 01:14:40,610
You know what I'm saying?

3428
01:14:40,670 --> 01:14:42,350
Why, why be a ghost when

3429
01:14:42,350 --> 01:14:43,340
you can be a real person?

3430
01:14:43,850 --> 01:14:45,920
So Yeah.

3431
01:14:45,920 --> 01:14:46,730
N P C or something.

3432
01:14:46,730 --> 01:14:46,910
Right?

3433
01:14:47,060 --> 01:14:47,750
Exactly.

3434
01:14:47,750 --> 01:14:48,290
Exactly.

3435
01:14:48,290 --> 01:14:48,680
Exactly.

3436
01:14:49,070 --> 01:14:51,140
But yeah, so thank everybody for watching.

3437
01:14:51,560 --> 01:14:53,000
Um, thank everybody for listening.

3438
01:14:53,720 --> 01:14:54,980
And so yeah, you wanna go

3439
01:14:54,980 --> 01:14:56,330
ahead and plug that handle in?

3440
01:14:56,860 --> 01:14:57,150
Boom.

3441
01:15:00,515 --> 01:15:01,975
Now you can plug the handle it.

3442
01:15:02,955 --> 01:15:04,455
I'm so ******* new to this ****.

3443
01:15:05,115 --> 01:15:06,435
Hey man, it's cashier Lil Dam.

3444
01:15:06,435 --> 01:15:10,425
C a Ss h i L I L D A M N.

3445
01:15:10,575 --> 01:15:10,995
Okay.

3446
01:15:11,115 --> 01:15:11,805
Lil Dam.

3447
01:15:11,955 --> 01:15:12,195
Yeah.

3448
01:15:12,375 --> 01:15:13,485
On Twitter.

3449
01:15:13,485 --> 01:15:14,775
I am King Little Dam.

3450
01:15:15,345 --> 01:15:18,285
K I N G L I L D A M N.

3451
01:15:18,325 --> 01:15:18,615
Okay.

3452
01:15:18,975 --> 01:15:21,465
On all music platforms it's cashier

3453
01:15:21,465 --> 01:15:23,745
little dam, but the SS is a dollar sign.

3454
01:15:24,045 --> 01:15:24,375
There we go.

3455
01:15:24,375 --> 01:15:25,245
So you don't always remember me.

3456
01:15:25,575 --> 01:15:26,085
There we go.

3457
01:15:26,175 --> 01:15:26,565
There we go.

3458
01:15:26,565 --> 01:15:27,015
There we go.

3459
01:15:27,165 --> 01:15:29,745
The project is releasing.

3460
01:15:31,545 --> 01:15:32,745
I want, I'm gonna be real.

3461
01:15:32,745 --> 01:15:33,825
I'm gonna give y'all something

3462
01:15:33,825 --> 01:15:35,355
by the end of August something

3463
01:15:35,385 --> 01:15:36,555
by the end of August something.

3464
01:15:36,705 --> 01:15:37,575
I'm not gonna say the tape,

3465
01:15:38,115 --> 01:15:38,895
but the tape's coming up.

3466
01:15:39,495 --> 01:15:39,795
Okay.

3467
01:15:40,035 --> 01:15:40,725
We'd love to see it.

3468
01:15:41,145 --> 01:15:41,745
We'd love to see it.

3469
01:15:42,015 --> 01:15:43,065
So yeah, we're gonna plug that.

3470
01:15:43,185 --> 01:15:44,505
Yeah, of course, of course, man.

3471
01:15:44,505 --> 01:15:45,255
You know how it is.

3472
01:15:45,255 --> 01:15:45,975
You know how it is.

3473
01:15:46,275 --> 01:15:47,865
So, uh, yeah.

3474
01:15:47,870 --> 01:15:48,555
Thank y'all for watching.

3475
01:15:48,555 --> 01:15:49,275
Thank y'all for listening.

3476
01:15:49,275 --> 01:15:53,025
You hosted by your great, lovely host,

3477
01:15:53,025 --> 01:15:55,065
Maru, and yeah, we'll see you again.

3478
01:15:55,065 --> 01:15:55,575
Boom.

3479
01:15:56,265 --> 01:15:56,535
Ah.

3480
01:15:56,730 --> 01:15:57,900
You gotta do this again, man.

3481
01:15:58,110 --> 01:15:58,500
I swear.