Q: iCloud Music Library, iTunes Match and Apple Music confusion

Ok, first of all, I was an iTunes Match and Apple Music subscriber, but before not renewing iTunes Match, I asked and told that if I keep my Apple music subscribtion, I would not lose my iCloud music library.

But its been a month now since my iTunes Match subscription ended, and I keep my Apple music membership, and today I found that the majority of the track in my iCloud music library is greyed out. So, am I screwed? I think the information and difference between the two service is not explained well and now I think I lose all my matched songs (and many of them is not on AP) If I knew clearly that I would lose all my matched music, I would never unsubscribe Match, but I read many article about that and they all says that is I keep my AP active, I won't use my matched music, and all I lose is DRM free.

So, is somebody here had this issue before and is there a way to have my songs back?