dont have my trusted number with me

See:If you forgot your Apple ID  https://support.apple.com/en-us/HT201354  and

If you forgot your Apple ID password https://support.apple.com/en-us/HT201487

You also can use Having trouble signing in/iForgot

 https://iforgot.apple.com/password/verify/appleid to identify either or both

Go here if you need additional support Apple telephone support https://getsupport.apple.com/?caller=kbase&PGF=PGF63005&category_id=SC0245&symptom_id=23362

For worldwide Apple ID support go here https://support.apple.com/en-us/HT204169

You might as well also See If you forgot the answers to your Apple ID security questions https://support.apple.com/en-us/HT201485

See if you can get an email option. Enter the Apple (iCloud) ID and click Forgot Password.

Apple ID - Manage            

Apple ID – Forgot Password            

We are users like you, not Apple employees.

Did you try getting an email option as suggested earlier?