I forgot my email password and I don’t have that email no more
I need to restart the whole thing
If you forgot your email password, go to the email provider's website, and in the log in area there should be a reset password option.
If you forgot the Apple ID (iCloud) password, enter the Apple (iCloud) ID, and click Forgot Password. See if you can get a Rescue or Notification email option if necessary. Link to contact Apple Support at the end of the 2nd article.