If you are interested in an answer, I would advise you to leave out all the profanity and ranting. That will only cause most people to either ignore you or ridicule you.
As to your problem, although I can't follow all aspects of your description, I do note that you say Spotlight is always indexing. If that is the case, that's surely related to your problems. Most likely, your Spotlight index is corrupt. You can force the computer to rebuild it from scratch following these instructions: