if i delete my photos from the icloud photo library is there anyway to recover them? im desperate

If it has been approximately 30 days or less since you deleted them, you can use a computer and go to https://www.icloud.com/ and click on the Photos app there, then click on Albums and then open the Recently Deleted album. They should also be in the Recently Deleted album on your iOS device.

I lost my pictures can I get them