how to get my iTunes back?

I was trying to burn a playlist from iTunes to a disc. It was all grayed out. So, I decided to upload it to the Cloud --but now I can't fine my iTunes at all. I may have signed up for Apple music awhile ago (a big mistake- I hate it). could that be what prevent me from getting my music (which I've paid for! I own the songs!)

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