Songs won't sync to icloud in itunes
I recently installed iCloud for windows so that I could export my pictures to my computes from my iPhone. This was required because my backup got corrupted and I had to restore my phone as a "new" phone, which erased all my pictures. However, this also installed some sort of program to sync my 5500 song library to the cloud. I never asked for this. I was perfectly happy syncing my library manually with a cable. But now there are about 100 songs that apple doesn't like. I ran "file>library>update iCloud music library" several times but for some reason apple doesn't like these songs. I've restored about half manually from my mp3 saved files, but the rest are renamed files of live recordings that will be very time consuming to restore.
So I have two questions...How do I turn this off and go back to backing up my library manually? And if I do, will it restore these grayed out files?
iPhone 7, iOS 12.0.1