is there anyway i can get my icloud email

Sign into iCloud.com. And, be sure mail syncing is enabled on your iPhone (Settings > Name > iCloud > Turn Mail on.

Your icloud email is usually just yours with a new extension

if your email was BRIO@Gmail.com

your ICloud Email Would be BRIO@ICloud.com

Have you checked Settings/Passwords & Accounts to make sure the account shows there and is enabled?